What does it take for you to hear me? chapter 7
Tuesday morning Brittany didn’t have to rush to practice but knew that Rachel did practice her vocals in the morning in the choir room. So she got up again a little earlier than normal and left her house with a quick goodbye. She crept into the choir room and placed a box with a folded note on it and then quickly left. She placed her next note in Rachel’s locker and went to get herself some breakfast.
Santana and Quinn pulled into the parking lot and met up there and walked to the football field, they sat down on the bleachers. Santana sighs and leans back.
‘She’s right you know?’ Santana says Quinn looks at her with a raised eyebrow.
‘Britt she’s right the way we are acting it doesn’t show that we ever loved Rachel, it just backs her theory.’
Quinn nods ‘yes I know but I’m scared we can’t just come out to the school for the sake of Rachel we will lose our reputations’
‘see that right there is what I’m talking about and what Brittany is telling us, we are still worried about our reputations and aren’t willing to get back the girl we love. Quinn it’s not just us in this equation its Brittany and Rachel to we’re hurting them just as much if not more’
Quinn sighs ‘what are we going to do then?’
‘I think I may have an idea.’
Rachel pulls up in the school car park grabbing her bag and slipping out locking her car she makes her way into school. She stops off at her locker before heading to the choir room. As she opens her locker a folded piece of paper slips out and onto the floor. Rachel quickly bends and picks it up, unfolding it and starts to read.
Rachel
I know that you normally spend the morning before school starts in the choir room, I always used to secretly watch you through the door, I did it just to get that little while where you didn’t have any worried and you weren’t stressing out, you were just singing for the fun of it, to get everything out and I loved being able to see you like that. And so that’s the perfect place to put your next gift. It’s on the piano, it’s only the start for today, I hope you like it.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel smiles folding her note and placing it with the others that now live in the jewellery box in her locker. She grabbed everything she need and made her way to the choir room as quick as possible. She noticed another note on top of the box that was indeed on the black piano, she quickly placed her bags down on one of the red chairs and then made her way to the piano. She picked up the note and opened it slowly, her hands shaking in anticipation.
Rachel
I hope you slept well last night and you liked my note this morning. Do you remember that day you took me to the pond to feed the ducks, it was just us and we sat there just joking about and talking, I loved those moments where we could just stop and talk, we would listen to each other word for word no matter what it was about. That day we had a discussion about what figures would represent us. You would be a shining gold star, because that’s what you’re going to be one day, what you are already. We decided mine would be a duck because of my love for the animal. But when it came to Quinn and Santana we got stuck, we joked about how Quinn’s would be bacon, how Santana’s would be a hand with two fingers sticking up swearing at the world. But then we got serious because we wanted to find something that could represent our girls. You picked ice cream for Santana because it’s her favourite desert and her one weakness but us, so then we had to decide on Quinn. We just sat there in our comfortable silence thinking and we gradually got closer together, until I was leaning on you and you had an arm wrapped around me, we didn’t care what anyone else thought. Then I remembered Quinn’s love for handbags and that’s what we decided on, that she would be represented with a hand bag. We wanted to get a bracelet with those four charms attached for all four of us. But then Santana and Quinn turned up and they shouted at us for being so close together, we tried to tell them our idea but they said it was stupid and that it was never going to happen. They ruined the day for us and I remember you walked off crying because they took their moods out on you and I couldn’t stop them.
I loved that day up until they turned up and I am sorry I couldn’t get them to be quiet, but to make it up to you I got you this, I went out the other day and got two bracelets with two charms each, it’s in the box on the table I decorated it myself, I want you to put it on I don’t care if anyone sees it I have mine on to and I’m proud of it.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel’s eyes began to tear up as she read the note remembering that day, it had been one of her favourites up until that point, she had been so excited to have something that included her girls and that she was able to wear, but then Quinn and Santana ruined it, they had called her such mean names. Brittany had tried to get them to stop but they wouldn’t. In the end Rachel gave up she stood up and left tears spilling down her cheeks, she remembered feeling all of their eyes on her but wouldn’t turn back around to face them she couldn’t. It was one of the memories she kept close and she used the end of it when she was braking up with them, using that pain she shouldn’t have been feeling if they loved her the way they said they did.
Rachel folded the note placing it in her trouser pockets she looked at the box for the first time and laughed, on the top of the box was a painted gold star that had Rachel going through the middle in red paint. Then on the sides was a yellow duck with a speech bubble coming from its mouth that said ‘Quack’ in the middle of the duck was Brittany’s name in black paint. Rachel bit her lip and smiled at the site trying to push back the tears. She picked it up slowly and opened it inside was a silver Bracelet with two charms on it, one was a duck and the other was a shining gold star. Rachel full on beamed at the bottom of the box was another not which simply said:
Put it on!!
And not wanting to get shouted at Rachel lifted the piece of jewellery up and clicked it onto her wrist. She stroked the duck charm beaming smile on her lips. She took her note out and placed it in the box and the placed them both in her bag before continuing with her practice.
Brittany watched with a full beaming smile as Rachel read the note, she bounced from foot to foot when Rachel took the box in her hand, seeing the tears in Rachel’s eyes she thought she had done the wrong thing, But then a full on smile graced Rachel’s lips and Brittany knew she hadn’t. She couldn’t help the giddy smile that crossed her lips when Rachel put the bracelet on, and then using the box to keep her note safe. Brittany stayed there watching Rachel’s practice just like she used to, she enjoyed seeing her the way she used to and she noticed that Rachel never lost her smile.
The bell rang and as soon as Brittany heard it she ran as fast as she could so not to be seen. It was between 2nd and 3rd she went to her locker and received a note, she opened it quickly, she couldn’t help the smile that came onto her face.
Brittany
That memory is one that I cherish, well until Santana and Quinn came, but we can’t let that little moment ruin it. Brittany don’t apologise for not being able to get them to be quiet because honestly I’m just glad that you tried. Thank you for the amazing box, I love the way it’s decorated, it’s in my locker now keeping all my notes from you safe.
The bracelet is amazing and I am wearing it with pride thank you so much, I didn’t know that you came to watch me in the choir room in the morning but it means a lot for you to tell me.
Brittany do you remember the time when we were eating ice cream at my house and you said you liked the clip in my hair because it had a bear on it with and on the tie were some ducks? I remember we carried on talking for a while but your attention always went back to that clip, then Santana came in, and she was in one her moods and we didn’t get to talk much for the rest of the night. I loved it when we just sat and talked to it meant so much to me just to have that time.
Look inside you locker Britt, after you read this note, you’ll see why.
Rachel *
Brittany folded her not and placed it in her bag pocket with the other ones and then searched in her locker until her hand hit something. She closed her hand around the object and pulled it out. Her hands shook with anticipation as she slowly opened it. She beamed when she saw in the middle of her hand was the same teddy bear clip with tie that had ducks on it, Brittany didn’t hesitate to clip it straight into her hair, she didn’t care if anyone saw it meant a lot to her, especially now, Brittany got her books and headed to class. She stopped off quickly to drop a note into Rachel’s locker.
At lunch Rachel went back to her locker, she opened it and noticed the piece of white folded paper on one her shelves, she started to smile, already knowing who it was from. She opened it quickly.
Rachel
I remember that day, I remember trying to plot ways on stealing it, it only ended up making my head hurt, I’m glad I didn’t take it now because it means so much more. I hated the fact that Santana had come in interrupting our talk to order us upstairs, I wanted to stand up to her, tell we weren’t done talking but I was to scared I didn’t want to be shouted at.
I’m glad you liked both your box and bracelet and that you are wearing it, I’m wearing you clip as well. Rach I may not be giving you anymore gifts to you today, well not bought ones, but I wanted to give you something else, meet me in the choir room at the end of the day please. I’ll wait until half four for you. If you don’t turn up I’ll understand.
I hope you do though.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel smiled at the note and there was no doubt in her mind she was going to be going to that choir. Brittany had done so much for her in the past few days, more than anyone has done for her in years, and she knew she at least deserved her to turn up.
And so that’s what she did as soon as school got out she put her stuff in her locker and closed it making her way to the choir room. She anxiously made her way to the door, a shaking hand making its way to the handle and she slowly pushed it open. She stepped in and her eyes immediately locked on to a very nervous and fidgety Brittany.
‘Hey’ she said quietly, Brittany smiled.
‘I didn’t think you were going to come’ Rachel smiled at her.
‘of course I was I would never let you down’ Rachel gave Brittany the once over and noticed the clip in her hair ‘the clip looks good on you Brittany’
Brittany giggled a genuine giggle for the first time in days ‘I’m glad you think so, I didn’t care what anyone thought I just wanted to wear it’
‘That’s good Britt’ Rachel smiled at her
‘You’re wearing you bracelet’
Rachel nodded ‘I told you I would be I’m proud of it Brittany, I don’t care what people say about me’
‘Look Rach, I wanted to give you this, remember that book you read to me? You know when I had those nightmares because Santana forced us to watch that scary film.’
‘Yeah I remember we tried to argue with her but it didn’t end well’
‘well you remember reading it to me, you said it was your favourite book but you lost your copy when you were ten, because you left it on a train’
‘yeah I remember, crying about it, but my dad’s never got round to replacing it.’
‘well I don’t want them to, I want you to have this copy, the one you read to me, to get me to sleep when I had nightmares and when I was upset because Lord Tubbington had gone missing. The one that hold’s the memories. And then when your upset and having trouble sleeping you can read it and it will help you’ Brittany handed Rachel the old book. Rachel beamed at Brittany and took it.
‘Thanks Britt that means a lot’
Brittany nodded a sad smile graces her lips ‘I have to go Rachel but we’ll talk soon’
And with a sad smile from Rachel in response Brittany leaves. Rachel flicks open the book and on the first page theirs a note simply reading:
It will get better soon, I promise.
Love you always
Your Brittany.
Rachel smiled at the little message and went home that night she read the book it had been her favourite when she was a child but never knew why, now it’s her favourite for different reasons, the book is simple, it’s Matilda by Roald Dahl. She always loved the fact Brittany liked to listen to it and that she got to read it to her. She remembered one time when Brittany’s head was in her lap, she was running her fingers through the silky blonde hair and reading her the story, slowly soothing her to sleep it had felt amazing to do it.
When Brittany woke up that morning she knew she didn’t have to rush in, however she had wanted to so that she could watch Rachel practice and post her note. So she got dressed, had her breakfast and left. She hadn’t heard from Santana and Quinn that night, which she was okay with seen as she had been busy anyway, she ran through the hall and quickly broke into Rachel’s locker and placed everything appropriately before running off to catch Rachel singing.
When Brittany got to the choir room Rachel was already there, however this morning she wasn’t singing, she was sitting at the piano, her fingers flying over the keys with ease. In her head however was a battle, she wanted to forgive Brittany, it wasn’t just a want though now it was a need, she missed having the blondes arms around her, the bubbly attitude and happiness the blonde brought and most of all her voice. Rachel sighed and shook her head, she really didn’t know what to do, but the one thing she knew that was going to happen, was that sooner rather than later she will forgive Brittany. The bell rang and she got up from the piano to go to her locker. Missing the blur of blonde hair as Brittany ran away from the door not wanting to be seen.
When Rachel got to her locker she was still thinking through things, so when she opened the locker and looked in she was surprised to see a single red rose in a vase with a note leaning against it. Rachel bit her lip and smiled at the flower before getting the note. She opened and took a breath like she did every time she got a not.
Rachel
Good morning, I hope you aren’t too tired from reading. You know I always loved mornings, especially if I woke up next to three amazing girls. I wish I could hug you Rachel I loved our hugs because you would always fit perfectly. Do you remember when we played monopoly with Quinn and Santana and they were both bad losers, Santana shouted at us and then she got in an argument with Quinn. They both stormed out, you looked at me and sighed before moving over to me and hugging me. We sat on the sofa cuddling watching TV. They came back ten half an hour later with ice cream and apologies and joined our cuddling session. However I wouldn’t let you out of my arms because you were just so perfect for me to hold.
A red rose means passionate love, well we made lots of that, but we also had the feelings of love. I know we may not have shown you our love correctly Rachel and I am so sorry for that. I did love you and still do, I will always love you, this one rose signifies how much I passionately love you, I will see you in glee later. I miss you Rachel. I hope to hold you again soon.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel couldn’t contain a laugh at Brittany’s passionate love making statement. However she did nod in agreement with it, because no matter what has happened that was true. She folded the note up and placed it in her box in her locker, where all notes are let safe and secure. She grabbed her books closed her locker and made her way to her class smile plastered on her face. What she hadn’t seen however was Santana and Quinn watching her from down the hall. They saw the joyous smile on her face and scowled.
‘You don’t think she is going out with someone do you?’ Quinn asks turning to Santana.
‘I don’t know but if she is she won’t be for long, she is our diva and I am not giving her up without a fight’
‘Well we’ll put our plan into motion tomorrow then, the sooner the better and the sooner we’ll have her back with us where she belongs.’
Santana nods but she is still frowning about whatever put a smile on HER Diva’s face. She knew that smile because it was one she used to share with them until she fucked everything up. It was the I’m so happy I could fly, or sing, smile. It hurt Santana to see it and not be the one to put it there. She sighs and walks her way to class.
Rachel got to her first class and on her table in front of the whole class was sitting a carnation, a not lay underneath it. Rachel bit her lip sitting down and looking around. Everyone was watching her intently. Quinn was in this class and was watching with a frown and a glare. Rachel swallowed thickly and moved the carnation to one side before picking the not up. She unfolded it slowly keeping an eye on her class members to make sure no one read the note over her shoulder.
Rachel
On your table you will find a striped carnation, the meaning of which is refusal. I chose this because I am refusing to give up on you and us. We will be friends again and soon. Hopefully then we can build back up to where we used to be. I love you Rachel and I won’t make promises I can’t keep like I will never hurt you again. It doesn’t work like that because along the road we will get hurt by each other, However I am going to say I will try my hardest in every possible way to keep you out of harms was physically and emotionally. I refuse to let myself believe that we are truly over because I know we aren’t. I refuse to let anyone else hurt you the way Santana, Quinn and I have. And I refuse to let you go and give you up. Because Rachel you and I both know we belong together. I am willing to be friends first. Earn your trust and forgiveness first because god knows you deserve that and more.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel bites her lip to keep the tears that have brimmed at bay, once they are controlled her smile widens and she breaths out. She folds the note up and places it in her jean pockets before picking up the flower, she strokes each petal before smelling it. She places it next to her note book and looks up. The whole class, including the teacher, had been watching her and could see the sparkle in her eyes and the glow she had as she smiled. Quinn’s eyes lit on fire when she saw Rachel’s face and let out a quiet growl that no one could hear. She gripped the desk to keep herself in control, but seeing that glow and smile on HER diva and the sparkle in those brown eyes that she hadn’t put there almost killed her.
Rachel left her lesson quickly and as she ran past Brittany’s locker she posted her note and ran to meet her small group for recess.
Brittany walked to her locker, she could hear gossiping about Rachel’s flower and note in class and smiled to herself. As she approached her locker she saw Quinn and Santana having a heated discussion about something. She sighed and shook her head, she watched them and lip read most of the conversation until they left.
‘Santana I was there I saw her bite her lip when she got the flower, I watched as she took a breath in before she read the note, I saw her bite her lip to keep herself from crying before breaking out into the smile that she had for us, whoever this person is, they are making her happy, we need to do something, we need her back otherwise we are going to lose our chance’
‘Do you think I don’t know that Quinn I saw her this morning that smile. It hurt that I wasn’t the person to put it on her face, we just do our plan tomorrow and hopefully we will start to fix things, she can’t have lost her feelings for us yet.’
Quinn sighs ‘Whatever Santana all I’m saying is that we need to move quickly otherwise we are going to lose her more than we already have.’ Before Santana could say anything else Quinn left. Santana brushed her hand through her hand and left in the opposite direction.
Brittany sighed, well at least they have a plan, is all she could think before turning to her locker. She opened it and a note fell out. She smiled and picked it up, quickly opening it and starting to read.
Brittany
You always knew me so well; I am perfectly fine although I did enjoy a good read, thank you so much for the beautiful flowers, they are so amazing, I miss you to Brittany and hopefully it will get better soon. Right now though we just have to carry on, I’m looking forward to seeing you in glee Britt, I’m still wearing the beautiful bracelet and necklace I love them.
I remember playing monopoly, Quinn had managed to get some of the places Santana wanted and she had gotten angry, they had both left and all I had wanted to do was hug you so I did. We moved to the sofa and started to watch Scooby doo because it is one of your favourite cartoons. I remember you snuggled up next to me and I lay against you. They came back with both of our favourite ice cream and said sorry, Santana tried to get a cuddle off you and Quinn tried to get one off of me, but you were stubborn and wouldn’t let go of me, I was happy because I didn’t want you to let go of me I always felt safe and secure in your arms Britt especially after one of those moments. And when you didn’t let go of me I felt so loved, we fell asleep like that in the end and Santana and Quinn snuggled up to each other in the end as well. You know Britt I think your right we are going to be friends soon. We just need to get past this.
Rachel*
Brittany smiled at the note remembering that night once more, yeah it may not have been perfect but to her cuddling Rachel was one of the best things you could ever do. It made her happy to know Rachel was still wearing her gifts, she was still wearing her bracelet and her clip was on her bag strap. She couldn’t stop the joy that the last piece of the note had brought and she had to stop herself from bouncing up and down. The bell rang and she practically skipped to class.
Rachel had watched from down the hall as Brittany got her note. She smiled at the joy her not had caused before walking off to class. When she got there however she was surprised to see yet again on her desk was another flower with a note underneath. The rest of her class were watching again as she approached her desk. Normally in this class she would sit with Tina on her right and Mercedes on her left, they obviously hadn’t turned up yet. She sat down and looked at the flower; it was a light blue with a yellow middle. Taking a breath and reaching for the note. She looked around again to make sure no one else was reading it with her.
Rachel
The flower on the table even though it’s simple is called forget-me-not. The meaning is, remember me forever. You may be thinking at this time that you wouldn’t be able to forget me anyway. But I’m going to make myself unforgettable and you will see why soon. Although it isn’t just me that is to be remembered it is you as well, trust me Rachel when I say I could never possibly forget you ever, I love you Rachel, I will see you in glee later.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel smiled a tear dripping from her eye, she tucked her note in her pocket with the one from earlier, she had forgotten to put it in her box.
‘Who’s the flower from?’
‘Holy shit’ Rachel exclaimed as she jumped she looked up to see Mercedes and Tina looking at her the both raised an eyebrow, they took their seats and looked at her, she couldn’t keep the smile from spreading across.
‘Oh my god you have an admirer and you didn’t tell us’ Tina says lightly hitting Rachel on her arm. The girl laughed.
‘So was there a note?’ Mercedes asked
‘Oh hell yes there was a note look’ Tina said pointing to the tear drop on Rachel’s cheek. Rachel wiped the tear unfazed.
‘Okay girl spill what did it say?’ Mercedes asked leaning in closer the whole class seemed to shift forward, even the teacher, Tina leant in as well. Rachel bit her lip and swallowed.
‘I’m not allowed to tell you sorry’ Rachel said with and apologetic look. Most of the class deflates.
‘what girl we are your best friends you have to tell us, come on just a little bit of information, is it Finn?’ Mercedes says.
‘What? Ew no it was not Finn’ Rachel says
‘Come on Rach you have to tell us something please we won’t tell anyone else you know that’ Rachel looked at her two best friends she knew she could trust them with her life if she needed to. She took a breath and let it out. She leant on the table and the shifted closer to hear her.
‘It’s not a boy.’ Is all she says before the bell rings and she runs from the room. Tina and Mercedes look at each other before getting up and running after the little Diva.
Brittany sees Rachel running from her classroom and down the hall and as the Diva runs past her she hears a ‘Hey Britt’ shouted her way before the diva’s gone. Just after seeing the diva, she sees Mercedes and Tina come running out of the same classroom and run after the Brunette, both shouting a ‘hey’ as the ran past. Brittany laughed at the scene before going on her way to class.
Rachel managed to out run the other two and dived into her class panting. She looked up to see everyone staring at her, she raised an eyebrow at them and the all turned to look at her desk. There lay another flower, she smiled making her way towards it, she sat down lying her other flower next to her new one and sliding the not from underneath she opened it.
Rachel
Lay on your table is a Hibiscus flower it was hard to find I can tell you that much, It’s pink your favourite colour, I thought it was perfect, the meaning is delicate beauty. You are definitely a beauty Rach, I always thought you were beautiful not just on the outside but on the inside as well. Don’t let anyone ever tell you different because you are so, so beautiful. You can also be delicate, hurt easy emotionally and physically I know and that is why I always used to be so careful around you, when we made love, I was never rough with you I was gentle and that is because I wanted to make you feel the best you have ever felt, do you remember that day it snowed and Santana and Quinn wanted to have a snow ball fight. I made myself your protector so when a snow ball was thrown your way I would do everything to get it away from you. The onetime I pretended to slip over and took the hit for you. It was so funny because Santana, Quinn and I all went in soaked and had snow all over us, you came in smiling and not a that much snow on you, well i couldn’t get all of them. I loved that day we were all so happy, it was amazing. You to me Rachel are a delicate beauty and I will do everything to protect you.
Love you always
Your Brittany.
Rachel smiled remembering that day, she had always wondered why she hadn’t gotten that much snow on her. Thinking back she also realised just how gentle Brittany was when they love she smiled at the memories and relished them, because those had been the perfect moments. Rachel concentrated for the rest of the lesson after everyone had finished watching her, after that lesson was lunch and then last period was glee and Rachel could not wait.
Rachel walked passed to Brittany’s locker and posted the note she had written for her, before walking off to put her flowers in the water, with rose, in her locker. She met up with her little group and sat down munching on a bit of carrot. Tina and Mercedes came up either side of her and sat down. Rachel sighed and looked at them getting ready for questions.
Brittany made her way to her locker still smiling, more people were talking about Rachel’s flowers. Some were even mentioning Rachel’s reaction to the notes and from what she could pick up on they were good reactions. Brittany carried on walking and got to her locker. She readied her hand at the bottom just in case and opened it. A note dropped straight into her hand and she smiled. Bouncing a little she opened it and read quickly.
Brittany
I am not the only delicate beauty in this school, because you my dear are definitely beautiful, you always have been and always will be, whenever I saw you I couldn’t stop my eyes from wandering and following you until you disappeared, I found myself lucky enough to have you as well. You know I remember thinking why hadn’t I got as much snow as you guys had gotten. Now I know and thank you, I thought back to our love making and realised that indeed you were gentle with me, and you did make me feel the best I ever had Brittany and that means so much to me. Brittany you are amazing, beautiful, fun, caring and spirited I don’t ever want you to change Britt never. You are perfect just the way you are.
Rachel*
Brittany smiled at her note and bounced a little not able to keep it in this time. She placed her note in her locker with the others and made her way to lunch. Rachel looked from Tina to Mercedes and just waited for them to speak. Mercedes turned her head towards her and spoke first.
‘So if it’s not a boy that means it’s a girl right?’
‘No Mercedes it’s a rabbit, of course it means it’s a girl’ Rachel says rolling her eyes at them, Tina and Mercedes exchange a look.
‘Right and your okay with that?’
‘was it lost on you two that I was raised by two gay men, who happen to be my dad’s, I’m perfectly fine and open minded about this stuff.’ Tina and Mercedes nodded and smiled.
‘So do you know who it is that’s able to place such a smile on your face’
‘Nope secret admirer the only way I know it’s a girl is because they told me so in a note’ Rachel said looking at both of them.
‘Can we read the notes?’
‘Um no I would prefer you didn’t’ It wasn’t because it was Brittany who had wrote them, It was because they were so special and personal to her and Brittany she didn’t want anyone else to read them.
‘Okay then’ Mercedes and Tina said at the same time, the conversation changed into talking about the movies, the planned to go and see one on Sunday, Rachel bit her lip thinking that maybe she could invite Britt along.
Rachel walked to her locker after lunch to get everything she would need to take home, she opened her locker to see another flower added to her vase and another note leant against it. Rachel reached out and took the note. She opened it and started reading.
Rachel
The new flower in you vase is a simple sunflower but something so simple can always be the best, its yellow like the sun of course but also like the shining stars. The meaning of a sunflower is adoration, and I do adore you, and rightly so you amazing, talented, beautiful, fun and caring. Your worth everything and more, I adore you for your bravery, your courage, you leadership and most of all, I adore you because you managed to get me to fall in love with you within an hour, your amazing Rachel your perfect and never think you any less. Now get your ass to glee because I know you hate to be late.
Love you always
Your Brittany
Rachel laughed at the last bit but that still didn’t stop the couple of tears that spilled over onto her cheeks. She tucked her notes into her box and grabbed the vase of flowers to take with her to glee so that she could head home from there. She checked the time and started to walk to the choir once in there room went silent and looked at her and then her flowers.
‘So it is true, and you didn’t tell me?’ Kurt say but was smiling.
‘Who’s trying to get into my fellow hot Jew’s pants?’ came from in which he got an eye roll in response.
Rachel caught Brittany’s eye and smiled shyly at her, before sitting down next to Mercedes and Tina who both started looking at the flowers. Rachel smiled widely at them as they started talking. Mr Schue came in excitedly; he clapped his hands for attention.
‘okay guys today we are going t-‘
‘Mr Schue’ Brittany interrupts him.
‘huh? Uh yes Brittany?’ he says slightly surprised.
‘I have a song I really want to sing.’ Brittany says smiling.
‘really well come on up the floor is yours’ Mr Schue says smiling happily, Brittany gets up and walks to the middle.
‘There’s some swearing but it gets across what I want to say, kay I’m ready’ And with that the music starts and Brittany starts to sing.
Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look, I'm still around.
Brittany looks at Rachel their eyes locking as she sang the next bit and understanding flooded Rachel that this song was for her, Rachel swallowed and gripped the edge of the seat so that she could keep control.
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're so mean when you talk about yourself; you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head; make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough; I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.
Rachel watched as Brittany put everything into the song all her emotions, Rachel knew the song was for her so she didn’t need Brittany to make it obvious, so she didn’t she kept singing, her eyes closed as she sand the next bit.
Woah ohh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're fuckin' perfect to me.
Everyone watches wide eyed as Brittany sings even Santana and Quinn can’t believe what they are seeing, it amazes them. They now know that they need to give Brittany more credit because she is very talented.
The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?
Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are fuckin' perfect to me, yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect
Ohh pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothin' you're fuckin' perfect to me.
Brittany finishes and smiles at everyone her eyes going to Rachel for a few brief seconds and catches her wipe a tear away, Brittany knows then she got through what she wanted. Everyone sits there in stunned silence until they all start to cheer and applaud the whole choir room erupts. Brittany smiles at everyone. Mr Schue stands up.
‘That was amazing Brittany, well done, okay guys how about we take today’s practice off and I’ll see you guys tomorrow’
Everyone cheers and leaves except for Rachel and Brittany. Rachel is taking her time to pack up. Brittany stands biting her lip because she wants to see what Rachel thought of the song. Rachel turns to see Brittany. She smiles and walks forward.
‘So what did you think?’ Brittany asks nervously.
‘It was perfect Britt’ Rachel giggles and looks up at her ‘Britt I’ve been thinking a lot lately and I’ve decided something...’ Rachel trails off.
Brittany bounces from toe to toe nervously ‘yes?’ she prompts for Rachel to carry on.
‘I would like to be Friends again, I forgive you Britt’
Brittany squeals and takes Rachel into a hug. ‘Really?’ she asks
‘Definitely’ Rachel says hugging back ‘would you like to come over and watch a film?’
‘Of course I would’ Brittany says and they leave to go to Rachel’s house.
