if ****in you is wrong i dont wanna be free

so.. robbie is in town.

he called me today at work and i didn't get out of the dining room fast enough to answer it. he left me a message saying he was in blowing rock. of course, the rest of my shift i was friggin ecstatic. i love that boy.

so anyway... i called him when i got home and he was at thier cabinish house thing drinking a beer. they're going out to geno's tonight so i think i am going to join them. though, i really don't like genos that much. i'd rather hang out where he's staying or here, but whatever.

i've started getting really paranoid about how i look and what i'm wearing and if i'll even go at all or what. but let's face it, the boy has always made me nervous.

but we shall see. maybe he'll get drunk and wanna make out or something. :-D

okay.. thats all for now.


[Edit 10:40pm]
robbie has not called yet.
i texted him and he hasn't responded to that either.
i'm officially sad.

it seems like everytime i'm in durham or he's up here (which is practically never) he gets my hopes up and then crushes them. i don't think he realizes how fragile i still am, even though i'm much older. i don't think he knows how much of my heart he still holds, and therefore how much he can hurt me.

boo. i just hope he calls and wants to come over or something.
but i guess i'll keep dreamin...