Trying to find a voice that reminds you of your own

Inspired by bearface
and a lj friend i've decided to make a post WITH
pictures hah

I met my father recently
and after a lot of word exchange
and a fight
I think we're finding common ground
to start building on

I'm trying to move past the past
but any little thing sends me flying back
and pointing fingers on why this is his fault

but the point is I'm trying and that's all that can really be expected of
me at this point and I finally think
everyone in my family really realized the magnitude of the situation
and is cutting my some slack

I gotta go get my oil changed today
it's 60 out today and that makes me very happy
it's probably the last day of decent weather
until 6months from now
so I plan to play in it
and drive with my window down

Yesterday on my way to work taking river road
which is always my favorite way to go
I realized that the tree's standing against the sunrise
sky of light pink and baby blue both passive colors but so intense
in the morning
the tree's looked like veins and nerve endings without their leaves
and so the whole drive looked like a complex set of nervous systems

it's a little bit
awesome

a lot of funding for the free clinic is being cut and that's
a major bummer but joyce told me we weren't depending at that money
anyways so that's good
I volunteer there next week

I also found out saginaw has the only free mental health clinic
in the state
I'm gonna go talk to someone about volunteering there too b/c I miss
my mental health days a lot....

anyways

I better go get my car's oil changed and go visit
my mom at her new house and go hang out with brooke and lennon
since the other day lennon on the phone kept saying
"Ammo go bye ammo see lenny I'm lenny" lol

anyways
<3
peace
amberjoy

sorry for the poor quality of some of the pictures
my sweet transvestites....we were popular people
everyone wanted our pictures