bunch of crap. 11

i'm having a bad day. i can't talk to kyle until tomorrow morning and it sucks. we couldn't talk yesterday either. kyle's parents are (once again) driving me insane and have now found out that we've been married since november. his mom got all pissy w/ me and i was like WAIT! DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHY?! we totally hid it for the FAMILY for cyring out loud. once i told her that she was much better... sort of. now i have to sit down w/ his parents on wednesday and talk to them about everything that's going on. i'd like to do it with kyle PRESENT but i have not been afforded that luxury. i sware once this is over i'd love to never speak to them again.

i have to work 16 hours tomorrow night which sucks. then i get to see kyle wednesday, thursday & saturday... and then hopefully next week we don't have to deal w/ this BS anymore. i got a bunch of info today & i'm just torn. sometimes i'm so positive and sometimes i'm so negative about it. it's all in gods hands now. he'll decide exactly what's best for me, for him, and for us. i know he knows what i need. what we need. i think i'm going to go to church on wednesday night, too. i need it. i missed yesterday because i was waiting for kyle to call -- but i did watch online.

work sucked today. not so busy. well.. i'm getting super tired & i can't wait for tomorrow so i'm done.