I need to get this off my chest...
This has been killing me for quite some time now... but i believe its time to let it all out.
A couple months ago, Jeff and I started talking again (in secret) while he was dating this girl named Liz. We told no one, and thought of it as a little affair (which only involved talking on the phone). It was fun while it lasted... and then we decided to see eachother again. He drove out to my house and we ended up getting chinese food (i was introduced to some weird bbq pork stuff) and watching "Love Actually" which was an amazing movie... During that time, Jeff tried to kiss me and believe it or not, I said no. (yeah, i know... i was surprised myself). I didnt think it was right for that to happen while he was with Liz. But he kept trying, and eventually i gave in. It quickly turned into a one-sided groping frenzy which i would not give in to. I pushed him off and would sit on the sofa instead of the bed.
This happened twice... the second time he came bearing gifts. A huge polar bear stuffed animal. Its as big as me... seriously. But on this second time, I wasnt comfortable doing anything with him... knowing that he had a great girl that cared so much about him back at home... and knowing she would never cheat on him. Knowing that I could be the cause of some sort of pain for her.... i wanted none of it. I gave him a quick kiss goodbye, and that was it.
It was after this day that I was never able to speak to him again. I feel as though he was just interested in getting physical... like most other guys have been. I refused to do anything with him the second time, so he refused to speak to me again. I should be used to shit like that... but I just didnt expect it from Jeff... but then again, i never would have expected him to cheat on one of his girlfriends...
A couple months ago, Jeff and I started talking again (in secret) while he was dating this girl named Liz. We told no one, and thought of it as a little affair (which only involved talking on the phone). It was fun while it lasted... and then we decided to see eachother again. He drove out to my house and we ended up getting chinese food (i was introduced to some weird bbq pork stuff) and watching "Love Actually" which was an amazing movie... During that time, Jeff tried to kiss me and believe it or not, I said no. (yeah, i know... i was surprised myself). I didnt think it was right for that to happen while he was with Liz. But he kept trying, and eventually i gave in. It quickly turned into a one-sided groping frenzy which i would not give in to. I pushed him off and would sit on the sofa instead of the bed.
This happened twice... the second time he came bearing gifts. A huge polar bear stuffed animal. Its as big as me... seriously. But on this second time, I wasnt comfortable doing anything with him... knowing that he had a great girl that cared so much about him back at home... and knowing she would never cheat on him. Knowing that I could be the cause of some sort of pain for her.... i wanted none of it. I gave him a quick kiss goodbye, and that was it.
It was after this day that I was never able to speak to him again. I feel as though he was just interested in getting physical... like most other guys have been. I refused to do anything with him the second time, so he refused to speak to me again. I should be used to shit like that... but I just didnt expect it from Jeff... but then again, i never would have expected him to cheat on one of his girlfriends...
