I'm not that crazy >.<

Here I am!

jessi41684 — Fri, 21 Nov 2008 13:41:05 GMT

Well Here I am with my yearly update lol.... We got married!!! it was great I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day! Payton has turned 3! were moving again! long story short shitty neighbors moved in downstairs from us im not dealing with it. I refuse to put my son or my own health at risk so were moving. Im working for national grid its the power company here. its a good job pays well good benefits. so life's going up. I graduated college.. go me!! i actually finished something. though if you ask elizah I only graduated because I showed up every day... So there ya go my yearly update.... lol

life goes on ... and on...

jessi41684 — Fri, 08 Feb 2008 20:28:28 GMT

well i quit chopper big surprise there! ha... I actually got a a job we will see how reliable this is I get to work at home and I am going to be a graphic artist for cheapbooks.com my weight is at a standstill I try and get nuthing is it really worth it? i donno... im waiting to hear on another interview earlyer in the week... so wish me luck!!

Happy new year....

jessi41684 — Sun, 06 Jan 2008 19:18:27 GMT

Well happy new year to all .... and I wish you all the best... my new year isnt starting out so hott but it can only get better right... im working the bakery at price chopper what a loser job i have i need something else eather full time or another part time job. im thinking maybe waitressing... but we will see. school starts back up tomarrow Im happy but im not ya know... I got the gym membership to ballys for xmas and i couldnt be happier.. I have been going as often as i can but not working in the city and not making alot of money right now its tight but thats not an exscuse to wast my membership... ok maybe a little one but i have been very good and going as often as i can. things between me and Elizah are rugh right now. the stress of the money and the wedding and the house always being a mess.. theres so much going on he thinks I dont do my part around the house i dont think he does his neither of us is doing what we should be its just rough... hes not happy at work and I feel bad that he cant just switch to a new job because of he's not working we will lose everything... things are so tight ringht now. i'm making just enough money to pay the baby sitter and have gas to get back and forth to work ... it sucks... there are days where i just want to throw in the towl say I give up and thats it.... move back home... but i cant im an adult and im so close to being done...

miss me much...

jessi41684 — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 20:43:40 GMT

not that i really think anyone even reads this thing anymore. just a general update. Payton will be 2 in about 10 days. we did finally set the wedding date for 9/6/08. Elizahs mom is making the trip up here for the very first time for paytons b-day. were all really excited!.. and thats really about it. works suks on a different program were about to buy a seond vehial all beause 1 day a week we both work and its impossible for us to get to work on time and home and all that. but oh well and thats abuot it. lifs boring.

omg im back from sabatical!

jessi41684 — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 01:45:54 GMT

NO not really im using my myspace way more now but I dont get much time to do anything Payton is almost 20 months hes walking and well not really talking but close enough anyway. we have moved out to the freaking boonies. and we no longer have a roomate lets just say things did not end well and were really not friends anymore. guess that happens alot anyhow. on the up side I finished semester# 5 at ITT woot go me! exactly 12 months from now I will be walking the stage! yeah that will be fun times!any way in the mean time Im working fro this company called sutherland. I work on the ATT bronze department.. woo hoo.. if you live in michigan and you want high speed internet let me know I'd be happy to let att fuck up your bill! lol anyway... nuthig much else happening.. life is going. not exactly great but in a general upward motion.... im working Elizah's working we still cant pay all our bills we just seem to accumulate more. well one day we will pay everything off. im off I might want to get soem sleep i needs to get up early gettign the breaks done on the car.. ~ laters~

California here I come!

jessi41684 — Tue, 06 Feb 2007 05:02:30 GMT

Thats right kids were going to san diago! I am super excited. but not so excited about 5 hours on a plane with Payton so any help would be greatly appreciated.... thanxs a bunch!

Bad day

jessi41684 — Thu, 28 Dec 2006 02:02:00 GMT

I have had a really horiible day... My kitty Passed away today at about 12:15 pm. Im heart broken he was just a baby. not even two. Ive prepaired myself if something were to happen to my older cats but Him? it was so unexpected! Ultimatly it was liver failure that was the probelm. the vet said he could have been born with it and thats why he never gained alot of weight. and that could have been part of the probelm a few months ago when he got really sick.Either way it was too unexpected. and my own vet was of no help to me! I called this morning told them he was sick ahd to be seen right away. I explained my situation that I have no money till I get paid on friday. could I post date a check? they were like no blah blah we dont so that .. then the bitch had the nerve to ask if I could barrow the money from someone! I was pissed Ive been going to them since my older cats were babies. thats like 13 years! and this is how they treat me? Ohh I was pissed. so I call my grandma PISSED and crying and she tells me to take him up to her vet. they get me right in. they start him asap on fluids. the vet said he diddnt have a good chance. i got him there at 10:45 I left arounf 12. they called me at 12:25 and said he was passing did I want them to take heroic measures.. I wanted to say yes but I knew. even if they did bring him back I couldnt afford to keep him alive. there was no way. so I said no. I brought him home for the night so Elizah could say his good byes.. I bring him back in the Am there going to creamate him. I love him... and miss him so much.. im going to cry when I walk in the door and hes not there on the banister waiting for me. :(

And lets top the day off with my poor loving fieances car breaks down on his way to get Payton and my dad and robbie had to tow him back to the house.. so now were down a car till god nows when we can get it fixed. :O/ I just want a big chocolet bar and my bed right now!

Sabastion 04-2005 *~* 12-27-2006

Merry Christmas!

jessi41684 — Mon, 25 Dec 2006 13:47:52 GMT

Merry Christmas!

jessi41684 — Mon, 25 Dec 2006 13:46:06 GMT

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My Xmas Stocking

jessi41684 — Fri, 15 Dec 2006 23:26:14 GMT

Xmas Stocking

leave a gift for jessi41684

get your stocking

IM BORED

jessi41684 — Mon, 04 Dec 2006 17:24:50 GMT

Go to www.popculturemadness.com and select the year you became 18. Paste the list of the top 40 songs. Bold the ones you liked; strike the ones your disliked; and italicize the ones you know but don't exactly like nor dislike. The ones you don't know will stay common text.

1. Hot In Herre - Nelly
2. Complicated - Avril Lavigne
3. Jenny From The Block - Jennifer Lopez Featuring Jadakiss & Styles
4. A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson
5. Sk8er Boi - Avril Lavigne
6. The Game Of Love - Santana Featuring Michelle Branch
7. ~~Girlfriend~~ - N Sync & Nelly
8. The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
9. How You Remind Me - Nickleback
10. Heaven - DJ Sammy
11. Without Me - Eminem (edited)
12. ~~Can't Get You Out Of My Head~~ - Kylie Minogue
13. U Got It Bad - Usher
14. Hero - Chad Kroeger Featuring Josey Scott
15. A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
16. Ain't It Funny - Jennifer Lopez & Ja Rule
17. Just A Friend 2002 - Mario
18. Gotta Get Thru This - Daniel Bedingfield
19. Cleanin' Out My Closet - Eminem (edited)
20. Whenever, Wherever - Shakira
21. Underneath It All - No Doubt and Lady Saw
22. Just Like A Pill - Pink
23. Work It - Missy "Misdemeanor" Elliott
24. Lose Yourself - Eminem
25. All You Wanted - Michelle Branch
26. Foolish - Ashanti
27. U Don't Have To Call - Usher
28. Don't Let Me Get Me - Pink
29. Dilemma - Nelly & Kelly Rowland
30. What's Luv? - Fat Joe and Ashanti
31. Happy - Ashanti
32. It's Been a While - Stained
33. Days Go By - Dirty Vegas
34. Still Fly - Big Tymers
35. Starry Eyed Surprise - Oakenfold Featuring Shifty Shellshock
36. I Need A Girl - P. Diddy, Usher and Loon
37. She Hates Me - Puddle Of Mudd
38. No Such Thing - John Mayer
39. Objection (Tango) - Shakira
40. Like I Love You - Justin Timberlake

jessi41684 — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 01:08:49 GMT

Just so you all know My camera came in today!! Super happy me!! makes me happy on such a crappy day!

My christmas wish came early....

jessi41684 — Sat, 25 Nov 2006 12:52:02 GMT

So last night elizah bought me the canon rebel Xti 10.1 megipixile digital caera last night!!! omg I am so excited I absolutly cannot wait til it comes in... So I think because Im a big dork Im going to wrap the box anyways and put it under the tree.. and Yes I will take pictures of the box under the tree... hhahaha
In other exciting news in the world of Jessica. I got a new job.. yes another one. but this one is full time all the time lol and perminent. Ill be working for the sutherland company. and well indirectly working for cingular. inbound cutomer service calls. so ya know its all good. Im super excited so know Im going to hit up ebay and mark all the things I want to get a portable studio going and send it to all my family so thats what they can get me! lol...

http://www.bestbuy.com/site/olspage.jsp?skuId=8141511&type=product&productCategoryId=pcmcat99300050011&id=1158323822437

and just incase your interested this is what Im getting...

Payton at the pumkin patch

jessi41684 — Sat, 18 Nov 2006 12:14:48 GMT

I took payton to the pumkin patch before halloween... and Im a loser I just got them developed... lol...

jessi41684 — Sat, 28 Oct 2006 19:37:43 GMT

Your Boobies' Names Are...

Breastasaurus

Boobie Name Generator

I saw this and couldnt resist this is too funny!

Payton turned one!

jessi41684 — Fri, 27 Oct 2006 14:22:02 GMT

So paytons party was last weekend and fo course I have pictures! thanxs to my mom.
the cake and my brothers...
just hangin around waiting for presents!

48!

jessi41684 — Wed, 18 Oct 2006 01:29:28 GMT

whoo I got a 48 yes a 48 on my fucking mid term and why because I am a giant loser and am totally lost and I have no clue what the fuck is going on!! go me!

Birthdays!

jessi41684 — Tue, 17 Oct 2006 22:57:30 GMT

Payton is about to be one on sunday!! Oh my god where did the year go? it went by so fast my 10 months of pregnancy diddnt go by this quick what the fuck!? So yeah anyways my job is ehh.. im getting kinda sick of all the long hours and the driving Im not so sure now if I wanna stay for the spring I guess it all depends on what I get next. So school is sucking bad im doing ok in my 2 classes its just this freaking programming class im sucking at so bad... it is horrible I defintly will be retaking this class. yeah.. Paytons birthday is sunday like I said. I cant wait for pay day Im going to take him to stride right and get him his first pair of shoes. and some other things.. hehehe..ohh we went to the pumkin patch yesterday. he was so cute we got a few pumkins about 6. of course I took pictures and I will share those as soon as I get them back. ok well im off to take my second part of my miderm to witch I am boming big time... laters!

grease baby

jessi41684 — Fri, 06 Oct 2006 01:56:41 GMT

http://i.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/12925/greaserbabies.swf this is soo cute!!

a thought

jessi41684 — Tue, 26 Sep 2006 00:07:03 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/anti_wow/6984.html?style=mine I think there is someone who needs to read this I think you know who you are... :P

jessi41684 — Tue, 19 Sep 2006 02:29:36 GMT

I know everyone misses pictures of my little bugger.. He is soooo close to walking its scary.. Im always afraid Im going to miss it... today the dog jumped over the gate and scratched his little face :( poor litte guy.. but I think he will be okok so on to the new pictures [IMG]http://i68.photobucket.com/albums/i36/Jessi41684/Payton%2010%20mo/Picture006.jpg[/IMG]
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first popsicle:

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Life long entry sorry

jessi41684 — Sat, 16 Sep 2006 22:32:33 GMT

So I have been super busy latly. Working full time school full time and little payton.. wow Sleep when I die I guess. Lets see Im working for Life touch Studios. We take year book pictures. I have a on of fun but It is early mornings like 4am early till like 7:30 at night... ouch!Payton is about a half a step from walking.. omg Im so excited but not at the same time ya know...Elizah And I are doing ok I guess fighting as usuall over money as usuall... its just I dont want to give up control over my own paycheck... and well he wants me to close OUR M&T account wich I just bought checks for not even 2 months ago. and I just got my direct deposit set up for work.He keeps telling me thatI need to go talk to a credit counsler... wtf are they going to tell me that I dont allready know... this is how it would go
them- wow you have alot of bill here
ME- Yeah Guess I do
them- so how much do you make
Me- roughly 400 a week.
them- wow you dont make enough to pay all your debt
me- No SHIT!

Im just so irritated because we live beyond our means... that And god damnit I want eggs and a bagel this morning for breakfest. and we have no eggs,no bagles, I just used the last jar of baby food, thankgod there is some left over he can have some for dinner. and elziah's all like we have food he can eat he doesnt need baby food... UMMM YES HE DOES!! HE ONLY HAS 2 FUCKING TEETH!!!
I dont want him to have control over our money and here is why;
1. I doubt my bills will be payed
2. If they do get payed it will only be after all of his are payed first.
3. he never leaves enough money for food.
4. damnit I want some of my debt payed down!

He thinks that if and when we get married that magically all my credit problems will disapear.. umm no sorry hun that wont happen..
and Im really sick and tired of NO ONE doing ANYTHING around this fucking house but me.
*the diaper pal had needed to be emtied fopr a few days at least.
* no one else feeds the cats or they are playing me very well.
* this week I diddnt take the trash out to see if anyone else would and nope they diddnt.
* the bathroom trash hasnt been taken out in probly two weeks (eww)
* No dishes have been done since last weekend.. I see this as an on going trend. Elizah makes all sorts of food on his days off and leavs all the dishes for me to clean..

He shrugged off our 3 year anniversery like it was no big deal.. Ill tell you what pal your walking on some thin fucking Ice...!! THIN ICE!

Im so sick of the dog Pissing and shitting all over my damn house! she ruined the rug absolutly ruined it. I threw it out last week.. the shock coller that was supposed to work so well obviously doesnt..

I feel like I havent actully talked to elizah since I started working... and I swear if he spends all day on that fucking game Im going to lose it on him... I fucking will.. I hate that game and the pasion of hate I have for this fucking world of war craft game is getting to be too much. I cant stand it and Im about to lose it with him. Hes all bitching about how I dont show any affection to him any more. LIke I wont give him blow jobs and such sexual favors for him and Im making him feel bad... well good goddamn it. How do you think I feel him talking to all these girls on the game about how awsome it would be if I would go down on him while he was playing the game. and im sure these stupid whores are like I would do it.. ohh fuck no. If he doesnt start taking some time away from thar game im ganna go all physco girlfriend bitch on his ass.. and start freaking out and think he is having some sort of twisted online wow love relationship with some gaming whore! Ive had it.. He laughs all night long on that thing he spends more night up with it then he does in bed with me.

and lets talk about what happened last night. with my friend charleen in the house who liked him up until this point now she doesnt btw. anyhow. charleen asked me to go to walmart with her I said I would I had to pick up a few things anyway.. I asked Elizah for his card so I could get some baby food and some aggs and a few things for uches this week. He says 25 dollars fine then he asks me about the m&t account I remind him fir one billionth time I get paid every other week so how could I fix it if we just got it on monday? then he makes some rtemark about taking time off. then It blew way up because I cant take time off of work just to go the bank with him and tried explaing why I diddnt want to do it right now a freaks out n me snatch the card out of my hand taking a chunck of my skin off with it by the way. and says u cant use my card so charleen thinks he is physco and to be honest I dont like thatside of him and he is showing it more and more.. and if he thinks im oing to put up with that he is sadley mastaken. he can just leave right then fuck now that is not the person I fell in love with.. an to be honest Im missing that person pritty bad right now. I feel like were roomates who share a bed and occasioonly have sex and to be honest latly not the best sex just lets get thins over with so he can go to sleep sex..

God he is so selfish sometimes.

jessi41684 — Sun, 03 Sep 2006 13:12:01 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/adoriable_kids/

I have started a new community. a baby of the month with theams and stuff... Im looking for another moderator so if someone wants to help out let me know. email me. so go check it out and join damnit!

more pictures cause im a freak!

jessi41684 — Tue, 01 Aug 2006 16:06:53 GMT

so I took payton to get pictures taken of him in his baptism gown... he looks so cute!

Payton and his nine month pictures!!!!

jessi41684 — Sun, 23 Jul 2006 11:17:15 GMT

You know you wanna look!