The Obsessive Ranting Place

Too much inspiration

2016-01-04T20:11:05Z

Yes, I know I haven't posted in a long while and now there's 2 posts... whhhaaaat???!

This is just a safe place right now. where I can just write things down that I really can't control.

Husband doesn't have a job yet and it's making me panicky. I'm stuck here at work and not really motivated to do any work at all. All I keep seeing is lovely people on instagram who get to stay home and create wonderful things... and that's what I want to do. The thing is, to make a living out of it, you need a market, a presence and really... popularity. I don't really have much of that.

Is it too much to ask to just stay home, putter around, create, make things, be creative with something yummy on the stove, in a mug and fabric, yarn and paper covering my house... instead of dishes, laundry and a multitude of toys that I could break my neck on.

I'm bursting at the seams with things I *want* to do, to make... and no outlet or time.

To the man who let my husband go

2015-12-30T19:56:22Z

.... it's been almost 2 years now since you let him go from a job he put 17 years into. You promoted him, twice, only to let him go. I would love to know why you promoted him and then just thought 'hey this guy could go'. I'm sure you'll say 'it wasn't up to me' ... well you vouched for him in the past, why didn't you this time?

My husband says that you were torn up when you had to do it. I don't believe it for a second. I'm sorry. I don't know you, but I don't think you gave a damn what happened to my husband or our young family... with a little baby. Maybe you thought 'better him than me'.

We're just in a bad place right now. I'm working like crazy to keep the bills paid and a roof over our heads. I'm exhausted, my nerves are shot, my fuse is short and our city is horrible for finding a job. Most of the time I come home more tired than I started and I still have to keep going and 'try' to keep a smile on my face. My husband has been on several interviews but nobody is taking him because of this whole 'fiscal restructuring' garbage. No one believes him. No one will give him a chance. They all say they'll call the next week but they never do.

So thanks for two years of hell.... I hope it was damn worth it for your company's bottom line.

No love ever,
me

P.S. If I ever see you, I will introduce myself and my little boy and tell you all of these things in person. I don't care what my husband will say to me after. You have to know that when you let someone go, you let a whole family go.

:/

2013-09-10T20:44:29Z

Gonna be a really short post but...

I really want to slap around the doctors in our region lately - especially those who only push pain medication and pills on their patients and don't follow up!!!

I'm just disgusted. I thought doctors were supposed to do no harm... well, when your dad almost ends up in the ICU with 2 infections, and your bestie is getting dicked around royally, I get more than a little pissed off and wondering what the hell these doctors are actually doing?

The lack of care in this world confuses and infuriates me... and I just don't understand it, at all.

:'(

And... of course, I'm helpless to help out when I want to so badly, yet there's nothing I can do about it. I have no power other than to just try and cheer up those I love, and sometimes I can't even do that properly. I wish I was a better person.

No sleep and no sleep make Katy something something

2013-08-09T17:20:14Z

Oh my lord. I love my little boy but he needs to learn how to sleep better. Given, he's got more teeth coming in ... early *sigh* After he got his last two I was so relieved and he gave me two really nice nights... and that was it, the past couple weeks he's been up every 2 hours or less no matter what I do. I give him homogenized milk at story time, cereal before bed, breastmilk when he's falling asleep, a tiny dose of tylenol when he's really chomping on his fingers... when he wakes up I nurse him, change him, make him as comfortable as I can and still, the poor little guy won't sleep and it's taking it's toll on me.

I'm getting overly irritable, annoyed and frustrated at the smallest things. I know it's not his fault, my poor little baby boy, it's hard getting teeth and growing and getting comfortable, but mommy needs sleep.

I think I've cried in the middle of the night every night for the last year. I wish there was a different way for me to express my feelings, but crying does it for me. It could be worse, I could throw things or get angry, but I cry.

Anyway, I'm rambling and I just needed to get somethings out without bothering anyone in particular with my mom stuff.

A whole year

2013-08-06T17:28:56Z

So, this time last year, I was hugely pregnant and still thinking I had one week to go before I had my little boy. Everyone was smiling at me and telling me how beautiful I was even though I was stressed out with the baby's room being remodeled and it going veeeery slowly, and I was moving very slowly as well.

Tomorrow is my little boy's birthday and I can't believe it. One year of cuddles, snuggles, little giggles, wondering when he'd be doing certain things like giggling, rolling over, crawling, waving, clapping... and I'm still wondering when he's going to be sleeping through the night.

In other words, I'm tired, I don't get as many people smiling at me, but they smile at my little man so I'm happy. I love my little boy <3

Feeling a little bit better

2013-07-30T19:54:43Z

I got a little bit more sleep last night but baby boy is still having a wrestling match with me between 1-3 am *sigh* Before, he used to roll over onto his tummy and keep sleeping, but now, he can crawl so being on his tummy translates into 'MUST CRAWL' and then he wakes himself up and needs me to help him back to sleep.

No one really prepared me for how much sleep I was going to lose and sometimes when I'm in Babies R Us and I see a pregnant lady, I want to go up to her and tell her to go home and take a nap!!!!

We're going to take pictures of him tonight cause he'll be 1 year old next week... omg.

Anyway, sorry I'm just kind of rambling on here, but that's my life right now, is my little boy and not a whole lot else.

lilacwitchtea and I ordered some stickers today!!! Sherlock stickers and such and I can't wait to get them in the mail :) I need to stop ordering things just to look forward to getting things in the mail, it'll get expensive XD

"...and when he's turned around, then it's time to kick some back!'

2011-03-07T15:09:28Z

OMG, have I mentioned how I dislike heavy snow? The day before we got piss-down rain, then Sunday morning... heavy snow! Didn't even realize until Ray was going to work and he said 'oh.... snow'. Usually my wonderful DH does the shoveling but it was my turn yesterday... and boy am I paying for it today. Feels like someone did kick me in the back, repeatedly.

If that wasn't enough (I know, glutton for punishment), I went out grocery shopping. I actually like going grocery shopping by myself but, not in the snow that feels like concrete clinging to my feet, and the cold in my lungs. It got done though. Plus I rewarded myself by making oatmeal raisin cookies when I got home and a 2 hour nap after that. Nice.

It was a really good weekend for movies though! Stranger than Fiction was on TV on Friday night and I had forgotten how much I looooooooove that movie. It's so funny and sweet and, well, if you haven't seen it, you should. :) Saturday we watched Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. It was really graphically disturbing. I was shocked and at the beginning I was saying I loved it, cause of the mystery, but then they got into her story and omg, yeah, I didn't really like those parts even though they were integral to her character. But the mystery in it, I loved. Then yesterday, 'Scoop', 'Hellboy' and 'Vicky Christina Barcelona' were on. I kinda slept though Hellboy just cause I've seen it so many times, and Scoop I only watched for a few minutes cause I have it, but I watched a good chunk of VCB. I really like it... but Ray doesn't like the narration, so I turned it off as we've seen it before too.

It was an okay weekend, it went by a little fast and I wanted to knit a little more but after yesterday, I couldn't pick up any needles if I could. lol I really hope this was the last snow we get this season.

"I hate my name, it has 'Nerd' in it."

2011-02-18T21:21:37Z

Lots of stuff going on, not a whole lot of it is important but the way I'm feeling right now, makes it feel important.

It's a long weekend this weekend and I wish I could stay at home and relax for most of it, but I have family obligations that I can't miss and I'd loathe myself if I did miss the events for being selfish and staying home just to stay home. Even thinking about it makes me feel ill.

So instead, I'm going to post a wicked song that's one of my favourites right now. This was kind of spurred on by Sean Maher tweeting some new music and... well, I'm putting it here cause I already commented to him and I didn't want to seem like a creepy stalker.

"She has a head start! I just found out there was good music 2 months ago."

2011-02-14T18:54:51Z

I don't think I've posted this here yet but this is the newest video from Spirits :) They're working on the 2nd album right now and I'm on pins and needles waiting for it! :D

"Caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar!!! Game off!".... "Game on!"

2011-02-14T14:48:09Z

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day everyone :) And if you don't like Valentine's Day then, .... have a happy day anyway :)

Second, I was watching television last night and CTV had their Anniversary of the 2010 games in Vancouver. It was so cool to look back on all the moments that made me into a blubbering patriotic mess! :)

I finally got to see Sid the Kid's Golden Goal too. I don't ever think I told this story but I was watching the game up until the overtime period. I was such a chicken... I couldn't watch because if we lost, I knew I'd totally barf. So I busied myself on the computer trying to figure out how to put songs on my new cell phone. The reaction from the other room from Ray was of total disbelief:

"Oh my god..."
"What?"
"Crosby scored!"
"WHAT? We won?!!"
"Yeah, he totally just scored off Iggy!"

And now that I'm telling this story, I'm sure I wrote about it last year! LOL But still, being able to see that goal and see all the reactions all over Canada, the whole country just kind of erupted!! I remember hearing reports about what was going on in Toronto and they had to shut down the downtown core just because everyone emptied into the streets to celebrate! I'm not a huge Crosby fan, like at all, but dude... way to save it up for the 'Holy Mackinaw, what a Beauty Goal'!! :D

So I'm wearing red today for 2 reasons now :) I think I may just knit those 2010 mittens that I have in my pattern stash - I do have some leftover Red and White yarn that could do easily. :)

And yes, just like last year, I wept like a little Canadian girl :)

"Are you okay, it sounds like you're having sex in here."

2011-02-11T18:30:01Z

OMG, I can't knit anything here without effing it up! stupid sock... why do I knit here???

Pretty socks, pretty yarn, had lunch, had tea (need more though, apparently) but my stitch count on my pretty socks were off and while I was counting... the needle just slipped right off, on the floor, with the stitch markers and the wonderful Malabrigo sock decided in that moment to get splitty as hell.

Needless to say, knitting was put away.

/Knitting rant

"This concept of WUV confuses and infuriates us!"

2011-02-10T15:18:21Z

It is fracking cold today -24, all of you in warm climates can bite my shiny frozen ass! LOL Hopefully I won't have to go out until knit night tonight.

I did have to go out yesterday - to the Doctor's office. This is a new doctor since my other one well, he took a dive into the Niagara Gorge off the rainbow bridge. All of our speculation (our as in my family) points to him having a terminal disease and knew what was coming. It was a huge shock to a lot of people but then again, he was a bit dramatic. Anyway, the new doctor I have is really nice and they have an after hours clinic which means if I get bronchitis again (*spits*) I won't have to wait 3 days for an appointment. But I had some blood work done and I found out the results yesterday - I am, perfectly healthy. In fact the nurse practitioner said my good cholesterol was higher than my bad. Okay, so I eat the same stuff as Ray does, actually, a little worse than Ray does, and how is my good cholesterol better? Butter is my friend... I don't get it, but I'll take it!!

Lately I've gotten back into anime, and it's sort of a rebellion issue. Some people rebel by getting tattoos, or being a dick, or seeking adrenaline - I want to change my hair. hexenhasel helped me out by dying my hair a reddish brown (so pretty, only a semi) and I cut small chunks close to my face ... just a slight change. But now I'm wondering how cool I would look if I had black hair and like, pink chunks?? I blame my want to push the envelope at work (hey, I've seen other girls who work for lawyers with awesome multicolour hair), and watching Ramona on Scott Pilgrim vs. the World... her goggles are awesome too, want! I don't think I'd go that far though, I'm a major chicken and even getting a permanent hair colour freaked me out and I returned it for the semi-permanent. Oh well, maybe one day.... when I've won the lottery and I've got a little knitting shop with a cupcake stand inside, I can afford to go a little wild like that.

Oh, and speaking of Scott Pilgrim, I really need to pick up the soundtrack now! I took a look on iTunes and the song that The Clash at Demonhead sings in the movie, on the soundtrack it's sung by Metric!!! And it's called Black Sheep!!! If you don't know what I'm talking about you need to watch the movie. Also, I need a Sex Bob-Omb t-shirt, the one that Knives wore .... I don't know why they don't make them, either that or I haven't looked hard enough.

Stay warm and toasty peoples.... knit fast, die warm! XD

ETA: here's the Black Sheep song by Metric :D

"Yeah, but even in the woodchuck suit I still fantasize about him"

2011-02-09T18:57:46Z

LOL, so as you can tell, Easy A is one of my favourite movies right now. Emma Stone is just so great and it makes me wish that there was a 'Woodchuck Todd' when I was going to high school.

Anyway, sitting at home today as we have a day off (not by choice anyway, losing $$$, boo) and watching Trinity Blood on Netflix. I miss having my anime club in college, it was always so fun. Plus, it was a nice survprise for the members when I could snag some new episodes.

I have to get a package together to mail out sometime before 5pm today so this is a short entry, with no other point than I'd like to keep posting here every day as much as I can. It makes me feel better to ramble on in this journal and people can choose to read it or not rather than ramble on and bore the hell out of whoever I'm talking with.

Oh, almost forgot, if you knit, check out 'Vampire Knits' - I checked it out at the library yesterday and it's awesome! I've purused it before but now I can take a nice long look and scour my stash to see what kinds of neat things I can make from it. Also picked up 'Naked Heat' the second Nikki Heat mystery by Richard Castle! LOL I just love how it ties in with the show, it's very cool and the books are fun and quick.

Take care everyone, off to feed my Sim Hospital addiction!

"I really am ruggedly handsome aren't I?"

2011-02-08T15:08:33Z

So, I finished reading 'Heat Wave' :) It was good - I had a hard time not picturing the actors from Castle as the different characters in the book, but it was a good quick, fun read :)

Just sitting here, having a tea from my Wonder Woman mug (it makes me feel a little bit better, like I'm actually doing something more than typing and going to the bank), thinking what else to write about.... hmm, hexenhasel got me hooked on Sim Hospital yesterday, lol. But I'm very prone to getting addicted to games. Not so much into RPing anymore, well, at all really. I've kind of lost my taste for it altogether. Another friend suggested having a one-off RP on a very non-committal community but, I'm still leary on that as well. Oh well, C'est la vie.

La vie.

"nice, solid joke"

"Have you seen a girl, her hair looks like this!"

2011-02-07T18:35:37Z

Yes, I am well aware that it's been forever since I've posted here - I have lots to catch up on, lots of things happened, I just don't have a lot of time to list them all out right now so....

Finished some nice gloves for slashfairy, still working on a lot of nice pretty knitted projects and really jonesing for a nice outing to a Spirits show. Made lots of yummy cupcakes this weekend with red_bansidhe and my husband proceeded to assume that I ate ten of them and decided he was going to eat a lot more of the ones that I brought home.... no, I had one on friday night, so I stopped him before he ate all of them.

Love to all, be back soon, I promise.

Get in the car Dammit! We're running out of time!

2010-06-01T20:45:49Z

Quick update! Hooked on 24, hence the above quote-esque statement above! Damn you kcountess lol

Second... stupid roof frickin business, and it still isn't done. Short story - Roof leaking, insurance company sucks, hole in my ceiling still, Ray working a lot and can't be home to be there for them to fix the ceiling. Switching insurance companies as soon as this is done.

Things have kind of sucked big time after my birthday. By the way, birthday rocked, got spoiled and red_bansidhe got Sean Maher to say happy birthday to me on twitter *SQUEEEEE* in a private message no less!!! We think it's cause he was freshly joined on twitter and he hadn't experienced the crazy yet. Not that we're crazy, but others can be.

Having fun knitting, spinning and hopefully this weekend delving into the world of hand dying/painting yarn :) Can't wait! Experimented with food colouring and got some really nice results :)

Other than that, playin xbox, going to knit night and hanging out at home, making new friends and missing old friends. *waves* Take care all and I'll have a real update soon enough. I'm still alive :*

Mmmmm Chocolate

2010-04-06T17:15:32Z

Hi all! Just a quick update... had a great long weekend in which there was an awesome Easter dinner and much early birthday presents coming my way. Most of the cash-specific ones were spent yesterday at Chapters and getting a really nice pair of pants that actually FIT me and look NICE! LOL

Mom crocheted me a gorgeous bamboo silk shawl that's this pretty blushy beige colour and I love it to pieces! Nana made a pair of Fetchings for me and gave me the most ginormous Laura Secord Bunny evar! I almost hated to eat him... but I ate his basket for starters! :)

And I really don't know what kind of drugs I was on this morning... it was raining, Ray left for work and I was UP! so... I cleaned off the dining room table (which was covered with clutter), took the leaf out of the table and made it smaller to have more room and voila, bigger dining room... all before I had to go to work. I have no idea what came over me.

But I will leave you with my favourite song at the moment - Ray got me 3 CDs on Thursday night for my birthday: Phoenix, Silversun Pickups, and these guys 'The Temper Trap' and I absolutely love this song! Enjoy!

"But never trust a fellow with a helmet on his head"

2010-03-01T16:25:22Z

Wow, just wow!!

I watched the hockey game yesterday up until my stomach dropped out of the bottom of my feet when Zack Parise scored with 20 seconds left. After that, I was too stressed to watch. Overtime is not good for me. lol. So, I was futzing around in the front room on the computer when this happened:

Ray: Oh my god.
Me: What?
Ray: Sidney Crosby just scored, off Iginla!
Me: What? We won? Holy S*&$!!! Really? Crosby?

Seems like Crosby was just saving up this whole series for that one goal. Well... good savin' there Sid! LOL But YAY IGGY GOT THE ASSIST!!! :D!!! And to make it better too, Kipper got the bronze for Finland! :D

I'm just putting this here because it's one of those 'where were you' moments. And it was just plain awesome! I'll admit, I cried and jumped up and down and Ray and I were beaming and hugging and wearing our Team Canada Hockey stuffs! It was great. I'm so happy! :D

"Here's your hat, what's your hurry?"

2010-02-24T16:36:57Z

I know maybe only like 5 people read this journal anymore, lol, and maybe I should do something constructive in here but... either I'm too lazy or anything I say will just to be to get it out of me, or to amuse myself so, you're stuck with it.

Anyway, my poor widdle feelings got hurt this morning and I'm trying not to take it to heart and it's working. It's just... I was barely awake and I was early for work and it just struck me as hurtful in my tired state. It doesn't matter but I'm just getting it out.

And I don't know why, but I'm hungry ALL the time lately. I can't stop eating sunflower seeds and just eating and snacking (especially at work) and I'm always hungry. Yes, I can see the comment now 'maybe you're pregnant' so.... yeah, I know what you're going to say, but no. I just find it strange... it's like very late hibernation preparation.

So, I'm gonna have lunch (HAHA) and knit some so maybe I'll get my Knitting Olympics scarf done on time - right now it's looking like I'm gonna fail but I'm gonna try my best, like an actual olympian pushing to finish the last lap.

"Excuse me? I believe I ordered the Large. HELLO!!!"

2010-02-23T17:25:09Z

I think I mentioned le coffee press that I picked up on the weekend, either here or on Plurk, I think and it is my new toy! I have had so much fun with this little manual coffee dealie that it's getting redonkulous! Ray's been watching me and laughing and saying 'omg you're so freaking cute' whenever I run to the kitchen to make him a treat.

So far, I've made regular coffee... well French Vanilla Decaf coffee (the hubby's ticker can't take too much caffeine :( ) but just the smell of it, the taste of it, perks me up. But last night, I made myself a really awesome latte when I frothed up some warm (skim!) milk with the coffee press after my coffee was ready and omg... just look!

And then, when Ray got home, I made him a Chai Latte! Which was awesome easy!

Step 1: put 2 chai teabags in the coffee press & pour water over top, let steep
Step 2: heat up milk
Step 3: fish out the tea bags and pour the milk right in with the brewed tea
Step 4: pump the coffee press filter dealie (technical terms eh?) until you've reached optimal frothiness! Dust with cinnamon/chocolate flakes/nutmeg/whatevers

And Ray proceeded to down the sucker in 2 minutes! So, I'm just trying to figure out what to make next. Any suggestions?

"Holy Mackinaw!"

2010-02-22T17:08:59Z

.... and I'm using it in the WTF context! Seriously?? What was that last night?? If anyone knows, please fill me in as to what our guys were doing! They were all over, there was no zone defense and Marty seemed like he was on Nyquil or something. Very spacey. I don't like to criticize my own team but omg. Just one more thing to say about this - they should've had Luongo in net.

Anyway, had a couple days off last week - Got to give Mum her birthday sweater (pics to follow at stitch_sisters soon) and she was so surprised and she absolutely loved it! :D Friday was good too - stayed home, watched movies, knitted and then we went to Swiss Chalet for dinner (one of the places I want to take you to when you come up slashfairy) and it was so yummy! I love Swiss Chalet.

The rest of the weekend kind of passed by in a blur of TV, knitting, Videogames and movies. Went out yesterday and I picked up a 1L coffee press! :D It's so freakin neat! and you can use it for more than just coffee! I was so happy though, I picked up some french vanilla coffee and we tried it out! Was very awesome and it takes up like, no space at all! So that's always good in a tiny house.

Well, back at work and I'm bored, but lunch is now... and I have a pastrami sammich and some knitting for the Knitting Olympics to do and finish! Have a great Monday everyone (is that an oxymoron?)

HUGS

2010-01-25T17:14:34Z

Just wanted to send hugs to my best friend, sister, red_bansidhe today.

Love you Hon :* :*

"Cause I don't shine if you don't shine."

2010-01-21T17:01:02Z

So, for months of living off of Firefly and Serenity and Livin Till the End and missing the pilot of Drop Dead Diva... tonight, I will finally get to see Sean Maher on TV again!! *does happy-butt dance* He's going to be on The Mentalist tonight and I even checked IMDB... his character is Wilson/Jasper... which means he's either playing twins, or the more likely scenario is he's got a split personality... which would rock!

He's also going to be on Human Target next week!!! :D This is awesome, I get a double dose!

Well, anything's better than that character he played, the creepy skeevy Girls Gone Wild producer in an episode of CSI Miami... but, you know, he was still pretty hot in that too! LOL Oh bad.

"Wake up Stupid!"

2010-01-15T17:21:20Z

It's been a long time since I've posted here... maybe because I've been avoiding teh crazee of the net. Actually, that is the reason. I don't really like the net much anymore since there's so much crazy and hate and impatience involved with it. I won't go into it, but that's how I've been feeling... like if I go on the net, a clock starts somewhere and I'm always against it (start the signature 24 'boop beep boop beep' now).

So instead, I posted over at mine and red_bansidhe's crafting blog stitch_sisters to dip my feet back into LJ. It's working out well and I'm addicted to Plurk for instant stuff as opposed to Twitter... Plurk is much more self-contained and you can have conversations within your posts whereas on Twitter you have to go scrolling backward to see what someone was responding to. If you're on plurk, or plan to sign up, friend me: kittyvankat. (duh)

Also, I've been playing on XBox 360 a lot... let me know if you're on Xbox live and I'll friend you if I haven't done so yet. I've been playing a lot of ODST to kill things, and just generally shoot at stuff if I need to, and Kingdom for Keflings is like CRACK! Especially if you play it multiplayer like wenchfaery and I have tried.

Anyway, gonna go knit my shetland triangle for the rest of my lunch and then it's back to a horrible medical incorporation document that's eaten up my whole morning. Good thing I have Lime and Violet to listen to while doing such things - and incidentally, Miss V makes such pretty yarn! ;)

"Someone's got a case of the Mondays" :/

2009-11-12T15:06:18Z

I know I complain a lot on here but still...

...I don't get some people lately. They're all snippy when I try to help, I've got people calling me at work being all bitchy from the get go... what's going on? Is there a collective rod up society's ass lately?

It's getting so I have to be overly cheerful in the morning in order to have a good day because, as the day wears on, that cheerful is chopped away bit by bit. And it's hard to be cheerful in the morning as it is.

Just kind of fed up is all; with the snark, with reading about people having to put up with unnecessary bullshit when they're genuinely good people (it's the good people that get screwed of course), with the assumptions that things have to get done NOW and not really saying so... I just kind of have to guess.

In all this, I'm trying to get a massive amount of Christmas knitting done - and that's totally my fault for waiting so long. I'm tense, and I don't need any more snark when I'm genuinely trying to be helpful or doing something nice or having concern... I don't want to be around that. I don't really deserve that when I'm actually trying to be a good person. I may be selfish at times, but at least I admit that I am. I try my best, sometimes it's not really good enough, or I totally space and am made of fail... but I actually apologize for it, profusely.

Just think before you snark people, sometimes people have good intentions or mean well and they don't deserve to be met with a snippy response to their efforts.

/rant

Anyway, I have kcountess coming over tonight to watch 24 and/or Long Way Round!!! Yay! Should be fun and I'm really looking forward to just sitting and knitting with a friend and watching some good shows! Just like Hallowe'en was awesome with red_bansidhe and shadowhawck, I love that tradition :) carving pumpkins, eatin pizza and watching the Broodwich! ;) That's the kind of stuff I like, relaxed, with friends and sharing a laugh.