言葉を刻む／Carving My Words into Time
この日記は日本語と英語の両方で読めます。
英語版は下にあります。
This diary entry is available in both Japanese and English.
The English version is below.
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【2026年5月18日】
Xのアルゴリズムにより、軽率にポストできないためnoteで書いてみようと思い、開始しました。
わたしは政治にくわしくありません。
だけど、2026年3月あたりから、なんか世の空気がおかしいということに薄々気づいていました。
なぜなら、わたしのおすすめにあがってくるポストが、政治色の濃いものになり始めたからです。
でも、わたしは政治にくわしくありません。
だから流れてくるポストを、ただ受け身で見ていました。
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記憶が曖昧で、時期が前後するかもしれませんが、以下のふたつのポストを見て、わたしは強いショックを受けました。
ひとつは
「徴兵制を断る」ってやつ。
天才漫画家の岸辺露伴先生でも、こればかりは断れねーんだよ！と憤りを覚えました(当方ジョジョのファンです)。
もうひとつは
「今の世の中の動きを親が軽率に受け止めているが、自分は今日遺書を書いた(意訳)」というもの。
そうだよな。
これから、言論統制がはじまったら、自由に発言が出来んくなるんよな。
ならば、今遺書を書いておくというのは、有効であり未来から過去を振り返った時に証拠になるよね。
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｢国が悪の組織でつらい｣
今思う不安な気持ち、悲しい気持ち。
そういう気持ちを刻んでおくことにとても意味があると思います。
今後、日本の流れがどうなるかは、わかりません。
だけど、誰かが気持ちをネットの海に刻むことで、今後なにかのきっかけになるかもしれません。
わたしは発言の影響力がない弱小者なので、わたしの言葉は誰にも届かないかもしれません。
それでも、わたしの気持ちが折れない限りは刻んでいきたい。自分のために。
国民が国にころされるかもしれない危機の今、これは、わたしにとっての遺書でもあります。
今起こっている世界は全部フィクションで、
すべて杞憂で終わればいいのにね。
何年後かに笑っていられるように。
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Carving My Words into Time
【May 18, 2026】
I decided to start writing on note because X’s algorithm made me feel that I could no longer post my thoughts as freely or casually as I wanted.
I am not an expert on politics.
But around March 2026, I began to feel that something about the atmosphere in society had changed.
The reason was simple: more and more political posts started appearing in my recommendations.
I still knew very little about politics, so I simply watched them as they came across my timeline.
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My memory may not be perfect, and I may have the timeline slightly out of order, but two posts left a deep impression on me.
One was about refusing military conscription.
As a fan of JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure, I remember thinking, “Even Rohan Kishibe couldn’t simply refuse something like that.”
The other was a post that said something like:
“My parents don’t seem concerned about what’s happening in society, but today I wrote my will.” (paraphrased)
Reading that made me stop and think.
If freedom of expression were ever to become more restricted, it would become much harder to speak openly.
In that moment, I understood why someone might feel that writing down their thoughts for the future had meaning.
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“It’s painful to feel as though your own country has become something you fear.”
The anxiety I feel today.
The sadness I feel today.
I believe there is value in recording those feelings.
I do not know what direction Japan will take in the future.
But perhaps if enough people leave behind an honest record of what they felt, those words may one day help someone understand this moment in history.
I am just an ordinary person with almost no influence.
My words may never reach anyone.
Even so, as long as my spirit does not break, I want to keep writing.
For myself.
In a time when I feel anxious about the future of my country and its people, these words also serve as something like a personal testament.
I hope that everything happening in the world today turns out to have been unnecessary fear.
I hope that, years from now, we can all look back on these words with a smile.
