...and we all shall grow up to become alcoholics!

just something i have been meaning to ask...

2012-02-01T04:46:32Z

since postmen are getting lazier and sloppier around this part of the world.

so did anybody receive a postcard yet?
or did they really get blown away and end up somewhere in middle earth?
omg did you guys see the trailer for the hobbit yet?
i am totally freaking out about that movie and it is only coming out in december ARGHHHH

i feel sad that i have no update about my teeth anymore, they are being bracketed by the retainers all day and night and that's REALLY BORING! >=[

and also a little late but i guess it is better than never,

TO THOSE CELEBRATING, WISHING YOU
THE HAPPIEST LUNAR NEW YEAR EVER &hearts &hearts &hearts

GOT YOUR CARD i_am_zan THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

ETA:
LET'S HOPE THE WORLD DOESNT END AFTER ALL AND WE GET TO SEE 2013 WOOHOOOO
2012 AWWW YEAHHHHH!!!

ETA: GOT CARDS FROM maichan AND uglyduckling_me TOO~~~ WHO ELSE SENT ME ONE? DID U SEND ME B_C? CUZ I SORT OF MOVED HOUSE DURING THE NEW YEAR AND WAS FORCED TO GO TO TURKEY FOR HOLIDAY LAST CHRISTMAS (MORE ON THAT LATER ON) SO IF ANYONE ELSE SENT ME ONE, IM PRETTY SURE I GOT THEM CARDS AND I THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU <3

ETA: lauand, I JUST GOT YOURS TODAY, HOLY SHIT! YOUR 58 CARD MAKES MY ENTIRE MONTH!

SO IT HAS COME TO THAT TIME OF THE YEAR AGAIN

2011-12-08T09:15:36Z

A FRIEND TOLD ME A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO, "DECEMBER IS LIKE THE FRIDAY OF A YEAR."

WELL, GIVEN HOW MANY SHOPPING SPREES I HAVE INDULGED IN (2), HOW MANY DRINKING PARTIES I HAVE PARTICIPATED IN (3), HOW MANY BBQS I HAVE ORGANISED (1) AND TODAY'S STILL ONLY THE 8TH DAY OF THE MONTH AND WE ARE ALL STILL WORKING, IT IS SAFE TO SAY THAT MY FRIEND IS QUITE RIGHT MAHAHAHAHAH...

SO, IF ANYONE WANTS AN END-OF-YEAR POSTCARD FROM ME, (WHICH MIGHT ONLY GET SENT FROM SINGAPORE DURING THE FIRST WEEK OF 2012 - SINCE THAT'S WHEN MY MUM IS GONNA BE FLYING TO SINGAPORE NEXT - YEA, I KNOW SO MUCH FAIL FOR SOMETHING CALLED AN END-OF-YEAR THING) PLEASE PM ME WITH ADDRESS DETAILS. OR IF YOU ARENT GONNA HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THE PUBLIC FINDING OUT WHERE U LIVE AND GAIN A FEW STALKERS IN THE PROCESS THEN BY ALL MEANS, REPLY HERE :PPP

DAMN IT'S BEEN ALMOST 4 MONTHS SINCE THE LAST UPDATE

2011-10-28T06:16:13Z

I HAVE BEEN REALLY BAD IN KEEPING THIS JOURNAL UP, LIFE HAS BEEN HECTIC BUT GOOD. HOW'S EVERYONE DOING? I HOPE EVERYTHING'S GREAT TOO...

ANY BIG NEWS I SHOULD KNOW OF? IF YES, JUST MAYBE DROP A LINE OR THE URL IN THE REPLIES AND I'LL GET TO IT! HAHAHA...

SO IT IS NOW LATE OCTOBER AND FOR ANYONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW, I AM WORKING IN THE WEDDING INDUSTRY AS A DESIGNER FOR A PROFESSIONAL WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER.

IDK WHAT IS IT ABOUT THE MONTHS ENDING WITH "-BER" BUT IT SEEMS THAT THESE MONTHS ARE MUCH MORE PREFERABLE FOR WEDDINGS. WELL, I KNOW SOME REASONS ARE TRADITIONAL, SOME OTHER CULTURAL, AND OTHERS JUST THOUGHT THAT SINCE WEDDINGS CAN BE EXPENSIVE THEY PREFER TO HOLD IT TOWARDS THE END OF THE YEAR SINCE BY THEN THEY HAVE ACCUMULATED MORE MONEY IN THEIR BANK *SHRUGS*

AND SO I HAVE BEEN WORKING A LOT SINCE END OF JULY TRYING TO PREPARE FOR A CHAIN OF WEDDINGS WHICH STARTS ON SEPTEMBER. AND BEFORE I KNOW IT, I DON'T NEED TO WEAR MY BRACES ANYMORE!!! I AM NOW WEARING RETAINERS DAY AND NIGHT EXCEPT FOR WHEN I AM EATING AND EVEN THOUGH I ~*~*~REJOICE~*~*~ AT BEING ABLE TO EAT ALL THE CORN I CAN EAT, I AM GREATLY SADDENED BY THE FACT THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO THINK UP OF THE NEXT COLOR WANT FOR MY BRACES ANYMORE :[[[[[

OH AND HERE ARE SOME PICTURES OF THE JOURNEY OF MY VAMPIRE TEETH HEHEHE...

MY DENTIST TOLD ME THAT SINCE MY TEETH REARRANGES THEMSELVES FASTER THAN EXPECTED (NOT EVEN A YEAR) I NEED TO WEAR THE RETAINERS RELIGIOUSLY FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF. USUALLY PEOPLE NEEDS TO WEAR RETAINERS ABOUT AS LONG AS THEY WEAR BRACES OR MAYBE LESS, EX. 2 YEARS OF BRACES, A YEAR OF RETAINERS.

SO I GUESS SINCE THE WORLD ENDS IN 2012, I WILL BE WEARING THE RETAINERS TILL THE END OF DAYS HAHAHAHA... OH, I UNDERSTAND THAT MOST OF YOU ADVICED ME TO CONTINUE WEARING RETAINERS ANYWAY BUT WHAT I MEAN IS THE KIND OF RELIGIOUS WHERE I NEVER TAKE IT OFF EXCEPT WHEN I EAT. BUT AFTER A YEAR AND A HALF, I CAN JUST WEAR IT DURING SLEEP.

LOL THAT'S LONG! KAY THEN, HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE!!! <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE

2011-07-08T19:32:22Z

OK FIRST, I JUST FOUND THE FUNNIEST PIC ON THE NET

BAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHA

SRSLY OMG CANT STOP SNICKERING

NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SO AMUSING

IT IS ALMOST 3 WEEKS AFTER JUNE 21ST BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY BECAUSE NOT ONLY YOUR CARD HAS ARRIVED maichan - AND FROM EUROPE NO LESS - jillybean_6939'S CARDS AND GIFTS ARRIVED TOO! AND JJ, YOU SENT ME 2 CARDS, ONE FOR MY BDAY AND ANOTHER FOR LAST XMAS AND THAT WILL NEVER BE NOT AWESOME HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HERE'S WHERE I SHOW OFF THE VARIOUS GIFTS I GOT! STARTING WITH YOURS, JJ!

OMG FISHIESSSSSSSSS ILUUU JJ

HAND DRAWN CANVAS BAG, IT IS A RUNNING JOKE THAT IM A PRINCESS WHO HAS PILES OF GOLD BARS STORED UNDER MY BED HAHAHA BUT RLY, IM RLY RLY NOT

ONE THE ANGRY BIRDS, NOT VERY WELL MADE I ADMIT SINCE IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE A LOT MORE TRIANGULAR, BUT STILL FLUFFY AND NICE TO CUDDLE

I GOT THE ACCESSORIES FOR MYSELF AND I MEANT TO BUY ONE EACH BUT I JUST COULDNT DECIDE :P

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, BRACES COLOR FOR THE MONTH OF JULY IS MINT GREEN <3

HAPPY HAPPY SATURDAY TO ALL :DDDDD

summer summer summer!

2011-05-31T17:10:57Z

not that the weather has been anything less (or more) than friggin hot here in indonesia, but it is 3 minutes to june now and i am beyond excited and i dont know why!

i have always favoured the june month for as long as i can remember. i suspect it is largely due to the fact that june meant a long month of school break, but i dont feel the same for december even though it also meant month-long break from school so i dont know, june june june! and i got a very cheery, light-hearted braces colors to match my inexplicable bouncy mood :DDD

check it, alternating baby pink and light blue for which vodkashakes voted at the poll! loooooving it

now i just need to figure out what kind of dress i should wear to a friend's wedding to match these braces colors come the 4th of june. hmmmmmm...

cant believe it is now my fourth month wearing braces

2011-04-11T17:04:01Z

hey hey hey guys, what's up? what's happening? what's going on??? today's monday and it has been raining the whole day and i got nothing to do so i thought i should just hang out in lj since i haven't been here since well, since forever it seems!

this month i got my lower braces fitted and i got light orange for both upper and lower ones, so that's the monthly update of that. some friends over at fb commented on the quite noticeable difference my teeth are now showing compared to my first month in and that made me goddamn happy! i mean i have been swearing off food that you guys told me not to eat and following your advices as closely as i could and it hasn't been for nothing after all :DDDDD so now im just gonna continue not eating corn on the cob and wait for all of my teeth to line up straight and tidy hohoho...

alsooooo, the rain won't stop and i found this site so instead of forlornly looking out the raindrop spattered window and sighing all day, i did this to your icons instead.

i guess it is like a keep calm meme, and replacing the last two line with my first thoughts to each of you guys, but some are also from our online/lj convos and stuff that reminds me of each of you the most.

I SWEARRRRR NONE OF THE ICONS INVOLVED ARE HURT IN THE MAKING OF THIS LONG-ASS POST <3 <3 <3

so i guess lj just fucked up their notif system again

2011-03-18T06:44:30Z

and i spent the last week wondering if everyone has actually stopped liking me and bothering to reply to my comments/entries haha... i wont be offended if you do, though :DDD

so i heard that capslock_spn has been resurrected and i would love to be included as a member again, because i had quite a number of favourite entries from there all mem-ed and now that im not a member anymore i cant access them... so you, the clspn mods who are in my flist and who are probably reading right now, pls pls pls i implore you to take me back into this zombified version of clspn comm, pls and thank you <3

also a meme i did way back in may 2009, i filled it up in fb and forgot about it, and when i stumbled upon it and went through it again just now, i realise almost all my answers are about the same, discounting what i just said and how old i will be in a year, it is more or less the same answers for the rest, even including the length of my hair and what i need to go shopping for right now hahah... im either perfectly content with my life or i have been stuck in a loop this whole time.

Can you do this without deleting any questions?
will try

Do you smoke weed everyday?
no

What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
what kind of question is that?

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
infinite amount of accesible cash readily available at all time

Are you going anywhere for this summer?
to the movies :D

Do you put ketchup on top of your french fries or on the side?
I dont use ketchup when eating fries

Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
all the time. i hate pens.

Has anyone ever given you roses?
one stalk. wait, two i think? yeah 2 stalks.

If somebody liked you, would you want them to tell you?
again, what kind of question is this?

Is anything bothering you?
where should i start?

What time in your life would you like to put on repeat forever?
there are times i'd love to pause and just let time pass really slowly or something like that but i'd never put any of them on repeat. i think i might go crazy.

If the last person that you kissed said they wanted to marry you, what would you say?
but when? timing is important here!

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
it is crazy cute, yes.

Do you regret anything from your past?Do you regret anything from your past?
hahaha yeah where do i start?

Who is the last person you physically hit? Why?
not telling!!!

How many people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
hmmm i dont know, one?

Someone texts you at 3:00 AM; who do you expect it to be?
the apocalyse. seriously, 3 am, guys!

Do you eat whip cream out of the can?
i'd love to try this

If the last person you kissed moved away, would you be sad?
again, when? also where? away from me, or away with me? be specific!!!

Your phone rings, what do you say?
hello?

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
???

Was last night enjoyable for you?
very. im still bloated from all the good food. thanks for asking.

Is there someone you will never forget?
yeah?

What if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
wheeeeeen??? you keep asking these weird question, and i keep asking back!

Do you get distracted easily?
chronic

Have you ever received a really long apology?
nope

Can you make brownies without looking at the instructions?
not even when im looking at the instructions, i think

Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
not really

Honestly, if you could go back one month and change something would you?
no, this is a good month

Something you do a lot?
giggling

How old will you be in 12 months?
25

Do you still talk to your ex's?
havent got one

What brings out the worst in you?
waiting, stupid people

Do you think you are a good person?
no

Do you have tan lines?
not really

Want someone or something you can't have?
these somethings, they come in pairs

Ever kissed someone who smokes?
100% of the time

Why do you think people cheat on their bf/gf so much?
what makes you think i know?

Have you ever thought about killing someone in detail?</b>
haha what

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them?
?????

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
some parents

Have you ever had a garage/yard sale?
i'd LOVE to

What kind of dog do you have?
i dont have any awww

What's for dinner tonight?
fried chicken, green chilli chicken, fried tofu, grilled rice... etc etc

What is the last drink you drank?
milk

Last time you were sick?
i dont know

How long is your hair?
the tip reaches down to my waist

Are you happy right now?
yeap

What did you say last?
iya ada tulang

Who came over last?
denni

Do you drink beer?
yes

Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
nope

What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
this plate with my name and dob on it

What is in your pocket?
it is empty

Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with?
teddy

What DVD is in your DVD player?
there isnt any

What's something fun you did today?
where to start???

What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"?
a cat

What are you listening to right now?
background music of restaurant city

What have you had to drink so far today?
plain water, milk, sweet ice tea, ice tea...

When is your birthday?
june 21st

What's the area code for your cell phone?
62

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
singapore

Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror?
nope

What are you going to do after this?
sleep

What is something you need to go shopping for?
pair of black flats

Do you like pickles?
they are alright

How about olives?
better than pickles

What is your favorite kind of gum?
healthy strong gum

Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher?
no

Who was the last person to call you baby?
the bf i think

When you're at the grocery store do you used the self checkout?
if only we have self-checkouts here

Has anyone ever sang to you?
yes

What is your favorite color?
yellow

What color are your eyes?
black

How tall are you?
168cm

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
the bf, about half an hour ago

Do you like your parent(s)?
not enough

Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
the bf

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
either china or australia, whichever is furthest from here

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
sleep

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
i like to think im a good mix of both

How long does it take you to shower?
depends on what kind of day it is

Can you do splits?
not anymore

Can you use the grill?
no way

What movie do you want to see?
where to even start???

What did you do on New Years Eve 2007?
barbeque ♥

Was your mom a cheerleader?
nope

What is the last letter of your middle name?
a

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
about 6 hours

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
yes

Are you scared of flying?
nope

What do you sleep in?
old clothes

Do you have any tattoos?
no

Have you ever been to Los Angeles?
no

What jewelery do you wear all the time?
a ring and a necklace

What is your favorite song at the moment?
anything in the cure's greatest hits cd

What song do you HATE?
lady gaga's just dance, gawd i despise her but it is so catchy!!!

Do you like chocolate?
i love it

Are you easy to get along with?
im not sure

Any up coming events you're excited about?
not really

annnnnddd something i saw on youtube today that wont stop making me smile, god knows we all need one these days.

awwwwww cutie pies <3 i have always wanted a corgi

SO IM DUE FOR A VISIT TO THE DENTIST NEXT WEEK

2011-02-09T08:50:46Z

\O/\O/ WHO WANTS TO TELL ME WHICH COLOR SHOULD MY BRACES BE FOR THE NEXT MONTH? \O/\O/

THE THREE COLOR COMBINATION I SUGGESTED WERE ACTUALLY SOMETHING WHAT I WANTED TO HAVE WHEN I GOT MY BRACES FITTED LAST MONTH BUT I THOUGHT MAYBE FOR THE FIRST MONTH I REALLY SHOULDNT BE SO SHOWY HAHAHA ALSO SUGGESTIONS OF JUST ONE COLOR AND NOT A COLOR COMBINATION IS ALSO MOST MOST WELCOME!!!

ACTUALLY I LOVE YELLOW A LOT BUT THE DENTIST DIDNT HAVE THE OPAQUE YELLOW, HE HAD THE SEE THROUGH ONES THAT I IMAGINE WILL MAKE MY TEETH LOOK LIKE THEY ARENT BEING BRUSHED AS OFTEN AS THEY SHOULD BE INSTEAD SO I DISCARDED THAT IDEA, ELSE AN ALTERNATING LIGHT PINK-YELLOW-BLUE WILL BE QUITE AWESOME IF U ASK ME :DDDDD OH AND I LOVE THE COMBINATION OF LIGHT PINK & BROWN TOO BUT IM PRETTY SURE THE DENTIST DOESNT HAVE THE LATTER -________________________-"

OH AND PLS DONT SUGGEST BLACK AND/OR PURPLE (AS A COMBINATION OR OTHERWISE) BECAUSE I SAW A FRIEND WITH BLACK ONES AND IT LOOKS LIKE HER TEETH ARE DIRTY ALL THE TIME HAHAHA AND I HAVE NEVER LIKED ANY KIND OF PURPLE MY WHOLE LIFE

View Poll: COLORED BRACES FTW

ALSO, vodkashakes, UR CARD HAS ARRIVED!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH, TENTACLE RAPE YOU BACK, SWEETIE <3 ALSO I DIDNT END UP GETTING THE BOOTS BECAUSE THE SELLER STILL HAS YET TO REPLY TO MY INQUIRIES ><"

YAY NEW YEAR!!!

2011-02-03T17:32:04Z

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYY &hearts WISHING EVERYONE THE MOST PROSPEROUS YEAR AHEAD &hearts
\O/\O/\O/\O/ HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR \O/\O/\O/\O/
SOOOOOOOOOOOO WHATS UP GUYS? I HOPE THIS POST FINDS EVERYONE IN GOOD HEALTH AND GREAT SHAPE! IM STILL DRUNK ON NEW YEAR HIGH, BEEN GOING AROUND RELATIVES' HOUSES VISITING, AND EATING LOTSA GOODIES TODAY AND I HOPE TO DO THE SAME TOMORROW AND TEN MORE DAYS AFTER THAT :DDD WHEEEEEEE

ALSO THIS AFTERNOON I SAW THIS ACROSS A CARTON IN THE KITCHEN:

AND MY IMMEDIATE THOUGHT AFTER THAT WAS OMFGTOPLESSJENSENYESPLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! CLEARLY I HAVE BEEN READING WAAAAAAYY TOO MANY HOOKER JENSEN AU FROM THE VARIOUS KINK MEME FILLS XDDDDD

IF ANYBODY IS WONDERING, TOPLES IS THE INDONESIAN EQUIVALENT OF A JAR HAHAHAHAHA

TWO OH ☆ ONE ONE

2011-01-03T19:50:13Z

A SUPER DUPER HAPPY NEW YEAR!
♫ MAY 2011 BE YET THE BESTEST YEAR IN OUR LIVES ♫
\O/ YAYAYAYAY!!! \O/
eta: ooops, forgot to add that i have received both maichan's and uglyduckling_me's cards! thank you thank you so much, they are lovely <3

more eta: to those still expecting a card from me, please dont lose hope cuz they are on their way to be posted! i cant apologize enough for being lousy at sending cards but my grandma passed away a week before christmas so i kinda forgot all about it until everything cooled down... i really hope i do better next time around.

merlin orgy, anyone?

2010-11-19T16:26:03Z

soooooooooooooooooo i have contacted the seller of them boots in my previous entry but it has been 3 days and she has yet to reply me hmmmff... also, hp7 tickets are sold out till the 22nd so this friday night is gonna be spent watching merlin s1 & s2 while i apply some nail polish to my toes hahaha... i hope your friday night isnt as sad, flist! mucho hugs!

and yes, im online in both ym and aim if you wanna chat and/or join in the merlin orgy <3

FADE LIKE A SHADOW - KT TUNSTALL

2010-11-15T14:41:11Z

OMG I HAD THIS ENTRY ABOUT OCTOBER PREPARED AND EVERYTHING AND HAD CLEVERLY NAMED IT ROCKTOBER BECAUSE I KNEW THAT OCTOBER MONTH WOULD BE AN AWESOME MONTH BUT IT WAS ALSO A CRAZY HECTIC MONTH AND I NEVER GOT TO POST THE ENTRY LOL! STILL,
YAY FOR ROCKTOBER!!!

SO I NEED YOUR HELP WITH THIS PAIR OF BOOTS THAT I HAVE BEEN CONTEMPLATING ON BUYING FOR THE LONGEST, LONGEST TIME YEAH? HERE GOES:

ARENT THEY GORGEOUS??? BUT SHOULD I BUY THEM? WHERE DO I WEAR THEM TO? I DONT EVEN TRAVEL ANYMORE DUE TO MY COUNTRY IMPOSING CRAZY HIGH TRAVEL TAX ><" ALSO WTF AM I GONNA WEAR WITH THEM?

View Poll: OMG SHOULD I OR SHOULDNT I???

ALSO ANYBODY WONDERING WHY KT TUNSTALL IS IN THE SUBJECT LINE, IT IS BECAUSE SOMEONE *COUGH* krisd81 *COUGH* TAGGED ME IN THEIR MEME POST AND I THOUGHT IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I DO THIS SOOOOOO...

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

1. If someone says, “love,” you say? SOUND OF SILENCE - SIMON AND GARFUNKEL

2. How would you describe yourself? WHEN WE WERE YOUNG - THE KILLERS

3. What do you like in a guy/girl? SHE'S A MANIAC - HALL AND OATES

4. How do you feel today? ECHOES - KLAXONS

5. What is your life’s purpose? DEUCES - CHRIS BROWN

6. What's your motto? COLD WAR - JANELLE MONAE

7. What do your friends think of you? HOW TO BE DEAD - SNOW PATROL

8. What do you think of your parents? BILLIONAIRE - TRAVIS MCCOY FEAT. BRUNO MARS

9. What do you think about very often? IF I HAD YOU - ADAM LAMBERT

10. What is 2 + 2? LIVING ON A PRAYER - BON JOVI

11. What do you think of your best friend? ONCE IN A LIFETIME - ENIGMA

12. What do you think of the person you like? EYE OF THE TIGER - SURVIVOR

13. What is your life story? VANILLA TWILIGHT - OWL CITY

14. What do you want to be when you grow up? AFTERLIFE - BUSH

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like? STUCK LIKE GLUE - SUGARLAND

16. What will you dance to at your wedding? ONE HEADLIGHT - THE WALLFLOWERS

17. What will they play at your funeral? HANDS - THE TING TINGS

18. What is your biggest fear? ANIMAL - NEON TREES

19. What is your biggest secret? DYNAMITE - TAIO CRUZ

20. What will you post this as? FADE LIKE A SHADOW - KT TUNSTALL

MOST OF THE ARE STRANGELY TRUE. WOW.AND IM GONNA PLAY THE TING TINGS IN MY FUNERAL. DOUBLE WOW.

AND THE FOLLOWING IS FROM THAT ENTRY I NAMED ROCKTOBER.

1. A FRIEND CAME BACK FROM JAPAN AND GAVE ME A NIPPLE ZOMG EXCITE OR WHAT?!? I MEAN I ALWAYS HAVE STUFF DANGLING FROM MY PHONE TIME AND AGAIN AND THEY ALWAYS GIVE ME GREAT JOY. AND A NIPPLE! ZOMG

2. I BOUGHT VOL 1 & 2 OF SHERLOCK HOLMES PAPERBACK BUT BECAUSE OF SOME J2!SHERLOCK CRACK ALL I PICTURE IS SHERLOCK!JARED AND WATSON!JENSEN INSTEAD OF THESE MUSTACHIOED MEN IN STUFFY CLOTHES I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT OF THEM TO BE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER

3. I FINALLY MANAGED TO PERSUADE A FRIEND TO BAKE ME COOKIES EVEN THOUGH IT ISNT MY BIRTHDAY. I MEAN SINCE THE TIME SHE WAS JUST MAKING COOKIES FOR KICKS, I HAVE BEEN PESTERING HER ABOUT IT, AND NOOOO SHE HAD ME BEGGING FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS TILL THE OTHER DAY WHEN I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF GOING PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS AND SHE JUST SAID ALRIGHT OMGGGGGGGGG

ALSO ALSO WEDDINGS! I MEAN IDK ABT YOU BUT HERE THE NUMBER OF INVITATIONS USUALLY SPIKE TOWARDS THE END OF THE YEAR, STARTING IN SEPTEMBER AND I THINK I HAD 6 OR MORE WEDDING INVITATIONS FOR OCTOBER BUT 3 OF THEM MATTER A LOT TO ME. ONE WAS OF A LONG-LOST BESTIE FROM HIGH SCHOOL WHOM I ONLY GET TO ME ABOUT 3 - 4 TIMES THROUGHOUT THE 10 YEARS AFTER WE GRADUATED, ANOTHER WAS A DEAR COUSIN WHOM I LOOKED UP TO A LOT WHILE GROWING UP AND ANOTHER ONE IS A GOOD FRIEND'S BROTHER WHO ENGAGED THE BF'S EXPERTISE IN DOCUMENTING THE WEDDING. SADLY I GOT NO PICTURES FOR ALL THESE EVENTS.

ALSO ALSO ALSO BOTH MY SISTER AND MY BROTHER CAME BACK HOME FOR THE ABOVE-MENTIONED COUSIN'S WEDDING! AND THAT MADE MY ENTIRE MONTH!!!

SO HOW ABT YOU GUYS? ANYTHING EXCITING LATELY?

hay everyoneee

2010-09-17T22:33:52Z

here pimpin "FANART-THAT-LOOKS-DRAWN-BY-A-FIVE-YEAR-OLD CONTEST!!!!!" which is organised by lauand, where you submit fanarts that looks drawn by a five-year-old and win prizes! you can submit as many as you want to, which also means that if submit enough fanarts from a fandom not listed by lauand, you might actually create a category on your own! also, you can even ask real life five-year-olds to draw them fanarts for you! YAY!!!

1. find a five-year-old
2. employ them to draw you a fanart
3. ???
4. PROFIT!

so, what are you waiting for? go to the nearest kiddie park, loiter around the nearest pre-school, wait for them around the nearest candy store, go go go!

in other news, i went to bed around midnight but got woken up at about two by i-dont-even-know what and three hours later, which is now, i still cant go back to sleep! so i heated up some leftover rice and made myself a bowl of my favourite cheese fried rice. and then i thought why not and start taking some pictures of it. and then my fingers got trigger happy and start taking pictures of random things in my room. so here are a picture of said cheese fried rice, three of the latest additions to my poor, bursting-at-the-seams wardrobe, and my toes.

still yummy, even though bitter_crimson refuses to believe me. i swear i was only joking when i said i wanna internet-kiss you while i have cheese breath.

black lace!

jumpsuit + plunging neckline!

more lace!

it is more hot pink in rl, damn camera doesnt do it justice.

OMG STILL CANT SLEEP AUGHH

YIPPPPEEEEE

2010-09-10T12:51:06Z

FOR THOSE CELEBRATING, AFTER ONE WHOLE MONTH OF RESTRAINING YOURSELVES YOU GUISE DESERVE A BLINKING SPARKLY GREETING, I SAY! \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/
SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI, MOHON MAAF LAHIR DAN BATIN!

ALSO, ONLY 2 WEEKS TO THE FIRST EPISODE OF SUPERNATURAL SEASON 6 AND GUESS WHAT MY FAVOURITE GHOST-BUSTING, DEMON-HURTING, BITCH-SLAPPING, EMO-TEARING BROTHER IS DOING AT THE MOMENT??? SORRY I COULDNT RESIST, JENNYBEAN NEEDS TO LOSE THAT POUCH AND HE NEEDS TO LOSE IT FAST!

NOW ONTO MOAR SRS BZNS, AKA NAMING UR CHILD. FOUND THIS SITTING IN MY HARD DRIVE, GOT IT FROM ONE OF THOSE SEKRIT COMM I GUESS.

I MEAN GEEKERY IN ANY AND ALL KIND WILL ALMOST ALWAYS GET A NOD FROM ME BUT VINCENT DOESNT SOUND REMOTELY LIKE WINCEST UNLESS I HAVE BEEN PRONOUNCING IT WRONG...

ETA:

THERE I'VE FIXED IT FOR YA.

OR!

SORRY.IM JUST GONNA GO NOW. CLEARLY IM BORED.

QUICKLY NOW

2010-08-30T06:30:55Z

SURGERY TO GET THE OTHER TOOTH OUT IS IN AN HOUR - FOR THOSE WHO DOESNT KNOW WHATS GOING ON, IM GETTING TWO OF MY WISDOM TEETH TAKEN OUT, ONE ON EACH SIDE. 2 WEEKS AGO I HAD ONE TAKEN OUT AND MY CHEEK SWELLED RIGHT UP PREVENTING ME FROM GETTING THE SECOND SURGERY THE NEXT DAY BECAUSE MOM PANICKED SO - WISH ME A WHOLE LOTTA LUCK SO THAT MY FACE DOESNT SWELL AS MUCH AS IT HAD THE FIRST TIME AROUND KAY?

ALSO THERE'S THIS CREPES PLACE AT THE MALL THAT AMUSES THE SHIT OUTTA ME. I MEAN IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE, JUST THAT I ONLY GOT AROUND TO CHECK IT OUT YESTERDAY AND BOY I WAS IN FOR A TREAT. WATCH.

MAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NARUTO IS AN OREO ICE CREAM CREPES

AFTER NARUTO, WHY DO I HAVE A STRONG FEELING THAT ICHIGO REFERS TO BLEACH?

AND THE KICKER! A.K.A WHAT I HAD YESTERDAY, BECAUSE WITH A NAME LIKE THAT, HOW CAN I NOT GET ONE???
SAIYUKI = BANANA CHOCO!

MY LIFE IS NOW COMPLETE.

i miss you, spn.

2010-03-12T16:26:49Z

im kinda battling an allergic reaction to the meatballs i had this afternoon and there's still no spn, boohoo.

saw this over animemetoo's lj, i cant help but wanting to play the song meme too!

Go to Pop Culture Madness (http://www.popculturemadness.com/Music/Pop-Modern/2006.html) and select the year you became 18. Snip the top 50 songs (or however many may be there) from the list and paste the list in your journal. Bold the ones you like, strike the ones you dislike, italicize the ones you know but don't care one way or another, and leave the ones you don't know as plain text.

51. Pass The Courvoisier Part II - Busta Rhymes with Diddy & Pharrell
52. Days Go By - Dirty Vegas
53. Rollout (My Business) - Ludacris
54. Don't Let Me Get Me - Pink
55. Stole - Kelly Rowland
56. 7 Days - Craig David
57. Take Ya Home - Lil Bow Wow
58. Objection (Tango) - Shakira
59. The Rising - Bruce Springsteen
60. Just Like A Pill - Pink
61. Down Ass Chick - Ja Rule
62. Dilemma - Nelly & Kelly Rowland
~~63. Youth Of The Nation - P.O.D.~~
64. All You Wanted - Michelle Branch
65. Where Are You Going - Dave Matthews Band
66. Happy - Ashanti
67. Feel It Boy - Beenie Man
68. Still Fly - Big Tymers
~~69. The Ketchup Song - Las Ketchup~~
70. I Need A Girl (part 2) - P. Diddy, Usher and Loon
71. Roc The Mic - Beanie Sigel & Freeway
72. No Such Thing - John Mayer
73. Don't Mess With My Man - Nivea with Jagged Edge
74. Like I Love You - Justin Timberlake
75. Overprotected - Britney Spears
76. One Last Breath - Creed
77. Wherever You may Go - The Calling
78. Disease - Matchbox Twenty
79. I Love You - Faith Evans
80. What About us? - Brandy
81. Here To Stay - Korn
82. I'm Gonna Be Alright - Jennifer Lopez with Naz
83. Love At First Sight - Kylie Minogue
84. Why Don't We Fall In Love - Ameries
85. Hey Ma - Cam'ron with Juelz Santana
86. Jigga - jay-Z
87. Break Ya Neck - Busta Rhymes
88. Don't Say Goodbye - Paulina Rubino
89. Hands Clean - Alanis Morissette
90. uh Huh - B2K
91. More Than a Woman - Aaliyah
92. Oh Boy - Cam'ron with Juelz Santana
93. Die Another Day - Madonna
94. Lights, Camera, Action! - Mr. Cheeks
95. I'm Gonna Getcha Good - Shania Twain
96. Standing Still - Jewel
97. Ordinary day - Vanessa Carlton
98. Insatiable - Darren Hayes
99. The Cowboy In Me - Tim McGraw
100. Thank You - Lil Bow Wow

lol, seems like i was living my 18th year with no radio in sight! and just to make this interesting, since we have no spn episode yet again this week, pick one song from the meme that i know of, (so either the bolded or italicized ones) and i will record a short voice clip of me singing my favourite part of it! \o/ \o/ \o/

eta, omg you guys, you should know that my friends gave me so much shit over my closely-cropped bangs. SO. MUCH. SHIT. but a week after and it is still funny!

HAY Y'ALL

2010-02-19T00:31:23Z

GUESS WHOSE MYLJVALENTINE IS A BUST? YES, ME! ALL 5 AND NO MATCH, SIGH... MAYBE I'LL TRY THIS DATING THING IN REAL LIFE INSTEAD, PEOPLE HAVE BEEN TELLING ME THAT IT DOES WORK LOLOLOL

SO, IT WAS BOTH VALENTINE'S DAY AND THE LUNAR NEW YEAR LAST SUNDAY, 14TH OF FEBRUARY AND I DIDN'T EVEN MANAGE TO POST A GREETING SO TO WHOEVER CELEBRATING, I REALLY HOPE IT IS BETTER LATE THAN NEVER?

WISHING YOU THE BEST FEBRUARY 14TH EVER!!! <333
MY BROTHER FORWARDED THIS TO ME THE OTHER DAY AND I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING

SRSLY THE GUY'S FACE IN THE THIRD PANEL IS FUCKING PRICELESS

AND THIS AMUSES ME TO NO END

I RLY RLY NEED TO START FOCUSING ON THIS CAREER CHANGE

AAAAAND HAPPY FRIDAY!!!

this is what succumbing to peer pressure feels like

2010-02-06T22:24:13Z

http://my.ljvalentine.com/

... and behold the insanely attractive banner that comes with it!

so, come play?

in other news, it is 5 am on a sunday morning here in my part of the world! WHAT'S UP EVERYONE? well, me obviously. *bricked*

TWENTY TEN MOFOS

2010-01-01T04:36:59Z

SOOOO I MIGHT STILL BE A LITTLE BIT HIGH FROM ALL THE FOOD AND THE DRINKING LAST NIGHT, ALSO I KIND OF EXPERIENCED MY FIRST LUNAR ECLIPSE LAST NIGHT WHICH IS TEH AWESOME BUT I DONT REALLY REMEMBER MUCH BECAUSE OF SAID FEEDING AND DRINKING, BUT IM AT WORK ON NEW YEARS DAY. SUE ME!

I'D LIKE TO THANK EVERY ONE OF YOU WHO GIFTED ME LJ VIRTUAL GIFTS FOR BOTH CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR! getyourguns, bitter_crimson, safebehindteeth, maichan, amai_kaminari, smallcaps, vaginasaurus AND winged_sandals YOU GUYS ROCKKK!!!

ALSO FOR BOTH maichan AND lauand FOR SENDING ME GREETING CARDS THROUGH SNAIL MAILS, I LOVE THEM!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

W I S H I N G . T H E . H A P P I E S T . N E W . Y E A R !
MAY THIS NEW YEAR BE AN EVEN BETTER ONE THAN THE LAST, EVERYONE! &hearts

ETA JANUARY 03: YOU CARD ARRIVED TODAY, jillybean_6939! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

1:11, 11/1

2009-11-01T07:44:42Z

IT IS NOW 11 MINUTES PAST 1 PM ON THE FIRST OF NOVEMBER, OR IT WAS WHEN I STARTED WRITING THIS ENTRY, AND I JUST GOT SETTLED IN TO MY NEW ROOM. WE ARE OFFICIALLY MOVING HOUSE TODAY AND EVERYONE IS STILL SCRAMBLING AROUND AND PUTZING BACK AND FORTH THIS NEW HOUSE AND THE OLD ONE MOVING BOXES OF STUFF. IM BEING THE SPOILED PRINCESS THAT I AM AND IM LAZYING IN MY AIR-CONDITIONED ROOM WHILE I SET UP A NEW INTERNET CONNECTION MAHAHAH...

SO... I HAVENT BEEN ONLINE FOR THE LONGEST TIME AND IM REALLY VERY SORRY TO ALWAYS ASK THE SAME THING EVERY TIME I POST AN ENTRY BUT,
HOW ARE YOU, GUYS?
TENTACLES <3 TENTACLES <3 TENTACLES

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, TWO RANDOM THINGS I FOUND ON THE NET WHEN I WAS BORED THE OTHER DAY...

1.

Find your own pose!

I RLY DO HOPE I DONT CARRY MY BF LIKE THAT WHEN WE SLEEP TOGETHER

2.

I DONT EVEN

HAPPY NOVEMBER <3

GODDAMNIT I NEED TO LOSE MY JOB

2009-06-20T17:50:39Z

OMG I MISS U GUYS SO MUCH! &hearts &hearts &hearts

I MIGHT HAVE HAD MORE THAN WHAT I COULD HANDLE SO THIS MIGHT BE A DRUNK POST AHAHAHA BUT DRUNK OR NOT I STILL MISS YOU ALL!!!
CHEERS AND HUGGLES!!!!!

ETA, WTF MY HTML TAGS ARE ALL WORKING IM APPARENTLY NOT DRUNK ENOUGH

an update!

2009-04-16T16:43:51Z

i didnt say anything because i thought by not talking about it, im actually not confirming the fact that i now have a job that takes up to 11 hours-a-day of my time daily thus rendering me unable to keep up an internet appearance. but i guess it really is time to admit this. so, let's make this all official and yes, flist, im so sorry my favourite pastime of commentspamming your journals/entries/communities will be less frequent from now on. ~~unless i lose my job! :DDD~~

also i will now be only be able to check my flist page once in three to four days, maybe more - i also owe a lot of people stuff, not to mention that it has been forever since i sent a postcard. aughhhh im so sorry guys, i promise i'll get around to doing those tasks okay??? - and i usually give up when i hit previous 50 entries of my flist, so if you have anything exciting/awesome/absurd that is going on with your life, please go straight to my inbox, do not pass go, do not collect two hundred dollars, okey???

hmmm, what else? oh right! i just sent a request to rejoin capslock_spn, because i had realised sometime ago that my lj memories have been rendered useless the moment i left the community since all of the 50 something posts i had saved in my memories are all clspn entries. yeah. the push came when someone named estellasharina asked me to tentacle their icon in my clspn tentacle post earlier today. ahahaha goddamn you, my fixation for tentacles and my lifetime passion of tentacling things and if thats one of you people's sockpuppet, then well-played my friend... well, all those assuming im allowed to join again. hmmm...

okay, i have just realised that this entire post is only important to me and nobody else so im gonna cut it, shut up and... oh! here, have something else to look at!

HAY THUR BIG SPENDHURR

2009-03-29T17:29:54Z

IT WAS MY GRANDMAMA'S 76TH BDAY YESTERDAY AND EVEN THOUGH I KNOW MY BAKER!AUNT WILL DO SOME KIND OF HER KITCHEN MAGIC AND PRODUCE THE DREAMIEST BDAY CAKE EVER FOR HER, I STILL WENT OFF TO ORDER ANOTHER. ANOTHER BIG ONE, MIGHT I TELL YOU. SIGH... I SEEM TO BE SPENDING WAYYY MORE THAN MY PAYCHECK ALLOWS LATELY... BUT THEY ARE GIFTS SO WHAT THE HELL RIGHT?

AHEM. SO APART FROM BUYING A REDUNDANT CAKE, I SPENT QUITE A BIT ON A WACOM FOR MY BRO AND A RED WALLET FOR MY MOM. AND NOW IM STARTING TO FEEL JEALOUS OF THEIR PRESENTS CUZ... COME ON THEY ARE JUST ADORABLE ARENT THEY? SO WHY DONT I GET KEEP THEM? WHY? LOLOLOLOLOL

View Poll: TO KEEP OR NOT TO KEEP

THIS IS THE WACOM IN QUESTION

AND THIS IS THE RED WALLET

AAAAAND I JUST REALISED I GOT TAGGED BY NOT ONE BUT TWO OF YOU GUYS FOR THE HANDWRITING MEME SO HERE IT IS, xlickthespark AND lilithhecate, MY HANDWRITING!

1) Write your lj username
2) Write your two favorite bands/artists at the moment (not overall, just currently)
3) Draw a heart
4) Write the name of your favorite person of all time
5) Right down your recently favored person
6) Tag 5 people to do this meme

HEEEEE

~~[TO BE CONT. WITH MOAR MEME, STAY TUNED!]~~AND IT SHALL CONTINUE!

1. Comment and I will give you 3 people.
2. Post this meme with your answers.
3. Provide pictures and the names of three people.
4. Label which you would marry, shag, or cliff.

lauand GAVE ME

SHAG FEILONG, HANDS DOWN. COME ONNN.

MARRY LEGOLAS. IDK GUYS, I HAVE ALWAYS REGARDED THE ELVES SO ETHEREAL AND INHUMAN THAT SEX/MARRIAGE WITH THEM NEVER COMPUTES BUT THE THOUGHT OF MARRYING HAKKAI IS EVEN WORSE =P

CLIFF UH, HAKKAI. HEH.

amai_kaminari GAVE ME

SHAG VIGGO, OHHHH VIGGO AND AGAIN VIGGO.

MARRY RYO. I'D TOTALLY RISK DEE'S WRATH IF IT MEANS I HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CHANCE OF MARRYING THIS PERSON.

CLIFF I'D VERY MUCH WANT TO SHAG LIGHT BUT IF IT IS VIGGO THEN THERE IS NO CONTEST. OFF THE CLIFF YOU GO!

lillypuff GAVE ME

SHAG GOJYO <3

MARRY L! I'D TOTALLY MARRY THIS GUY JUST FOR HIS SWEET TOOTH. WE'LL BREAKFAST AND LUNCH AND DINE ON SWEETS AND WHILE HE STAYS SLIM, I'LL BECOME A BLIMP. THIS IS OUR HAPPY ENDING.

CLIFF OOOPS SORRY LEGOLAS, OFF YOU GO~

xlickthespark GAVE ME

SHAG ~~JOHN~~ ~~JEFF~~ ~~THE COMEDIAN~~ ~~THE COMEDIAN~~ ~~JEFF~~ OKAY OMG JEFFREY DEAN MORGAN OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

MARRY ~~JEFF~~ ~~JEFF~~ ~~THE COMEDIAN~~ ~~JEFF~~ ~~JOHN~~ JOHN WINCHESTER, I JUST... WANT TO TAKE CARE OF HIM. AWWW

CLIFF ~~THE COMEDIAN~~ ~~JEFF~~ ~~THE COMEDIAN~~ ~~JOHN~~ ~~JOHN~~ THE COMEDIAN, OMG SORRY SORRY SORRY... OMG TAY, THIS IS SO UNFAIR! MY LIFE IS SO HARD! :DDD

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!

1. I’ll respond with something random about you (probably an inside joke of some kind).
2. I’ll challenge you to do/try something.
3. I’ll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I’ll tell you something I like about you.
5. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of.
6. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you.
7. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

COME ONE COME ALL! \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/ \O/

ETA: WILL GIVE EVERYONE COMMENTING THE LAST TWO MEMES BUT NO WORRIES CUZ IT IS STILL UP TO YOU GUYS WHETHER U WANNA DO IT OR NOT OKEYYY

HEY GUYS, KNOW WHAT?

2009-03-22T17:27:09Z

U WANNA KNOW WHAT?

I &hearts U GUYS BY THE TRUCKLOADS!

AND NO, THIS IS NOT A DRUNK POST HAHAHA SORRY TO DISAPPOINT <333

SO,
HOW'S EVERYBODY?

a post to while away the time~

2009-02-06T16:42:55Z

spn dl is going reallllly slowly and i am getting desperate for things to distract myself with!

in other news, i didnt know what got into me last week, but i applied for a teaching job at a nearby learning center for pre-preschoolers. so i had been singing/counting/playing/gettingdrooledat/wipingbabies'butts for the week as a trial of five teaching days is required at the start of the recruitment process. although i decided to not pursue it - since the week made me realise that when it comes down to it, im not ready to give up on graphic design yet - hell yea, i love playing with children all day as a pretense of a job!

TO PRESCHOOL TEACHERS IN MY FLIST, YOUR JOB ROCKS FOR HAVING TO SEE CUTE FACES ALL DAY \O/ \O/ \O/

and, here's a nod to my new favourite community, pie_for_peace! posts are few and far between - and i cant help any since im hopeless around the kitchen - but just like a slice of pie, when a good one comes by, it is enjoyed immensely.

IDK GUISE, BANANA + CREAM DOESNT SOUND THAT CRAZY A COMBINATION OR IS THAT MY IGNORANCE SPEAKING?

this is for the poem meme that has been going around for a while, i was torn between the two poems that had accompanied me through two different stages of my life and both still affects me till this very day. i chose an entirely different one below because i dont think i can ever choose one over the other...

When you see this, post your favorite poem...

COMMUNION

We've left shore somehow
Become the friends
Of early theory
Close enough to speak
Desire and pain of absence
Of mistakes we'd make
Given the chance.

Each smile returned
Makes harder avoiding
Dreams that see us
Lying in early evening
Curtain shadows, skin
Safe against skin.

Bloom of compassion
Respect for moments
Eyes lock turns
Forever into one more
Veil that falls away.

This after seeing you
Last night, first time
Smelling you with
Permission; Shoulders to
Wonder openly at
As carefully kissed
As those arms
Waited impossibly on.
They've held me now
And your breath
Down my back
Sent away night air
That had me shaking
In the unlit Anglican
Doorway.

Are we ruined for
Finding our faces fit
And want to know more
About morning? Is
Friendship cancelled
If we can't call
Each other anymore
In amnesia, invite
Ourselves to last glances
Under suspicious clocks
Telling us when we've
Had enough?

Your steady hands
Cradling my grateful
Skull: were you taking
In my face to
Save an image
You've rarely allowed
Yourself after leaving
That cold alcove?
Am I a photograph
You gaze at in
Moments of weakness?

You ordered me
Off my knees
Into your arms.
Wasn't to beg
That I knelt; only
To see you once
From below.

Tried to say something
That filled my mouth
And longed to rest
In your ear.
Don't dare write
It down for fear it'll
Become words, just
Words.

-(1999-2002)
Viggo Mortensen

...AND BECUZ I STILL BELIEVE HE WROTE IT WHEN HE WAS ANGSTING OVER FALLING IN LOVE WITH ORLANDO :DDDDD