ego monster
yes yes i am, an i have a right to be, i am very proud of myself.
because today after many weeks of eatin healthyly(most of the time) and workin my fat ass out i have managed to get down to 12 stone.
not much u might think, but i went through this mad head state after christmas where i didnt like me, i didnt like alot of things about me, but most of all i didnt like the way i looked anymore. alot of this has to do with the fact that my brother has put on a good 5 stone since he came back to live at home and its farely shocking to see someone who used to keep himself in reidiculously good fitness become so over weight. im all for people been comfortable in there own skin, but been honest half the time people just say that. Now dont get me wrong, i love my brother hes a god damn hero an has many qualitys i wish i had, but with him been around so much i started to see myself becoming him. I mean hes 26 has a degree in a subject an doesnt have a job even remotely related to it, he hasnt had a serious relationship in 3 years and all his friends seem to be getting married or doctors or what not. when anto was my age everything came easy to him, he was a smart ball and never had a problem gettin a girlfriend or what not. im not to sure of exactly what happened but some girl broke his heart an he just sorta gave up.
i started to see alot of him mirrored in me an so i decided to sort out myself a bit. Now condssiderin after christmas i was a little over 14 stone i felt like shit. but i didnt want to just fall into bein comfortable with it. so i did somethin. an it wasnt easy, but im happy i could do it. i can say without the slightist bit of ego that i am in the best shape of my young life, an probably the best shape i will ever be in.
nothins easy, anything worth having is goin to take time.
lets see how long this lasts haha
because today after many weeks of eatin healthyly(most of the time) and workin my fat ass out i have managed to get down to 12 stone.
not much u might think, but i went through this mad head state after christmas where i didnt like me, i didnt like alot of things about me, but most of all i didnt like the way i looked anymore. alot of this has to do with the fact that my brother has put on a good 5 stone since he came back to live at home and its farely shocking to see someone who used to keep himself in reidiculously good fitness become so over weight. im all for people been comfortable in there own skin, but been honest half the time people just say that. Now dont get me wrong, i love my brother hes a god damn hero an has many qualitys i wish i had, but with him been around so much i started to see myself becoming him. I mean hes 26 has a degree in a subject an doesnt have a job even remotely related to it, he hasnt had a serious relationship in 3 years and all his friends seem to be getting married or doctors or what not. when anto was my age everything came easy to him, he was a smart ball and never had a problem gettin a girlfriend or what not. im not to sure of exactly what happened but some girl broke his heart an he just sorta gave up.
i started to see alot of him mirrored in me an so i decided to sort out myself a bit. Now condssiderin after christmas i was a little over 14 stone i felt like shit. but i didnt want to just fall into bein comfortable with it. so i did somethin. an it wasnt easy, but im happy i could do it. i can say without the slightist bit of ego that i am in the best shape of my young life, an probably the best shape i will ever be in.
nothins easy, anything worth having is goin to take time.
lets see how long this lasts haha
