I can't figure anything out.

Nervous... flitting about the house trying to figure out what exactly I want to be doing with my time. Thinking that there has got to be something I'm supposed to be doing but I forget. I tried to do that thing where you sit down and eat, not doing anything but chewing and tasting your food, but every time the food was in my mouth I forgot to enjoy it. I brought the rain south with me and after the rain stopped there was a rainbow and bunnies. I feel like my life is already way too short. I found a grey hair on my head today.