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So.. I had a dream last night, and I woke up crying this morning..


I'm not telling you what it was about, but it was horrible. Really really horrible. And, it's one of my worst fears.
I dont feel too bad right now, but that will probably all change tonight, when I'm laying in my bed, and, that same old empty kind of feeling comes back to me.






goodbye.

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What's yr bet that I'm not going to keep this layout more than a week?


My bet is that I wont. But who knowsss.





I'ma go order dinner, because I dont feel like cooking.

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So, I plan to phone Jonah tomorrow and ask him when he has a day off before I leave, because I relaly want to hang out with him, and, I hope he does too...

Me and my mom and dad went driving tonight, and I drove for most of the time, which is exciting. =D It was fun. I like driving. :P



It's kindof hard to believe it's almost halfway through holidays, like, holy crap. Its just like... o.o





anyways, nothing more to report. I finished Harry Potter. I cried. :)

it was soooo sad. and, unexpected. I read from page 450 to the end of the book. There are 607 pages. I beat seans bet. He told me I wasn't going to finish the book in one night. And I did.

-eme.

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So youth had a girls night last night. We watched movies and hung out in Carols basement. =D

There were a whole bunch of girls there. It was soo much fun. I dont know all of them trumendously well, but they're all really nice girls.

There was Me, Toria, Kaily, Megan, Jessica, Carol ((Youth leader)), and probably about... 5 others. They were all new this week though, so, it's not like a huge deal. We watched two movies. Abandoned and Ever After. & then me and Kaily and Toria were downstairs, pretending to sleep. We ACTUALLY, stayed up until like.. 5 playing X-Box, and talking.


Then we all got up at 8:30, had some breakfast, and then we booted it off to church, which we were late for. So we had worship, which was about two songs because we were late. So that all went fine and dandy.
=)


amd now. Ima go finish Harry Potter. I'm on page 450, and it's VERRYYY good.

<33 love, all you.

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I got my drivers license.


well, my learners. But still. I'm legal to drive now. :)



hurrah.



okay, so, I really need to go to the mall so I can find some sort of Bathing suit to wear for Ontario, because mine has gotten much too small.


>.< i'll probably just end up going to American Eagle or like.. Old Navy. I know they have some.



who knows. but the point of this entry is, is that I can drive, and my dad is going to help me with it tonight when he get's home from work hopefully.


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So, still sick, I am.
:P

but, I have to go to the dentist tomorrow, so maybe I can just give it to him. :)


then he'll get sick, and be all "GLAHHH"




Talking to people right now, and stretching, because thats how much of a retard I am. This is what I do at night. Turn on dance music, and stretch, and practice jumps and stuff.

I've even worked on a couple new jumps I saw in movies/pictures.



yea, shut up.




So, I did get my classes. for next year, I dont know if I told them to you already, but here they are.

Hip Hop
Jazz 4
Ballet Gr.3
Tap
Modern



woo!



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So, I'm still sick. Not as bad as yesterday though. Yesterday sucked.

Hummahh... I dont really know what to put right now. I know what I feel, I just dont know if I want to put it down here, for people to read, because, honestly, I doubt you would want to hear it. And I'm kindof tired of posting random entries that mean nothing to anyone.






Because, I really hate having something so important to say, and then I post it, and I realise just how pointless it really was.
So, I'll go write it all in the journal no one looks at, and that will mean something to me. And, I guess thats good enough.


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We're going to a concert, maybe. The Used, Alexisonfire, Underoath, and some other bands they decide not to show.
I really dont want to see the used, but, for Underoath, I'll live through anything.
:)


My mom probably wont be driving though, so, I dont know what we're going to do about thatttt little situation.

-em.

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So..


OMG, Warped Tour was a fricken BALL. I loved it. I got a major Sunburn, and thought I was going to pass out a couple times.

We saw alot of bands, and made friends with one, and there was like, tonnes of free stuff, and plenty of mosh pits to get into.
My first moshpit ever was at a Matchbook Romance concert, where me and Toria were having an awesome time.
Then we wandered around, saw some bands that were just starting out, along with MCR, Avenged Sevenfold, and Billy Talent. We also saw Kiros, The Fully Down,& Calico Drive. Katie & Alexis saw Alexisonfire, but they said they were really far away.

And we saw Underoath from wayyy far away. But we could hear them fine.

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Now for today.

I had a Podietrist appointment today, so I had to get up pretty early. ((11-ish)) Then I got on a bus, and went downtown, where I met my mom, and then she took me to the place, and I got my feet taped ((will have pictures)) and I have to get Orthotics in my shoes. Because my feet are apperantly pretty bad, and my legs are significantly differant lengths.

so after, we went and visited my dad for a while, and brought him a sub, and then we went home, and then we went to a movie.


Charlie and The Chocolate Factory is an amazing movie. It is honestly the funniest movie I have ever seen.

And Johnny Depp is amazing. He has a high-pitched voice, and it was just really funny.
they have gnomes that got lighted on fire. Come on, guys, who doesn't like that?



Anyways, now we're home.

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so thats it, thats all.

Hope you had fun reading.
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Lets play a game.


I count to ten, and everyone dissapears. Everywhere. Ever.

Lets skip from now until the first. When I'm away to Ontario, and I can see my cousin, and give my aunt Cathie the biggest hug I've ever given her.







I fucking cried myself to sleep last night, and I'm ready to combust. And I dont feel good. And I dont knwo what to do, because I dont know what the problem is.


well, I do.



and it's stressing me out.
it's killing me





and it's not something like love, because that has gotten me no where in the past how many months.
So I'm dropping it. I cant handle this.


Maybe I just hold grudges too much.







or maybe I'm just confused to the point where I cant take it anymore.










I'll be better. Ignore this entry.
ignore everything

-eme.

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haha, moodswings?


I'm talking to JOnah and I just realised something.

What happens if I come back from Ontario, and everything's changed. Between everyone? What happens if I come back to some people I thought I knew so well, and they all changed, and I dont know any of them?


Not just between me and Jonah, but between me and everyone. What happens if I come back, and all I hear is a bunch of inside jokes, and shit like that?
What do I say? Do I just nod and smile?






I'm mostly scared of me and Jonah, honestly. I'm scared that by the end of the summer, he's going to have moved on, and found some great girl, and I'll still be here.


A big idiot for falling in love.






i'm sorry, i have moodswings sometimes.







well, i guess if i can't say it anywhere else, i'll say it here.


fez-- blackandwhitewasalwaysmyfavorite says:
i love you.

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So I went to the Stampede with my parents today, which was nice, because we haven't done that in ever.


Thursday is Warped Tour, and I'm looking forward to it, so bad!


<333 i cant wait.








thats about it. nothing else to report.

<3-em.

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Okay, so, I owe you guys a shit load of pictures, and, as promised, I shall give them.
I forget if I posted some already, so, if I did, I'm sorry.


<33 much love, girlies and boy.




( DanceCollapse )
( Grad Pictures.Collapse )
( Drama BBQCollapse )
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( My pink hair.Collapse )
( And then I turned into a little bit of a cammera whore.Collapse )

Props to Katie for doing my hair. It took a long time. but it was ooo worth it.


other than that, I had a pretty boring day. Going to the stampede tomorrow, so I should be getting to beedddd.

<3 good night.

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So I went to see the parade today, and I'm going to the Bowness one tomorrow.

Me and Alexis and Mickey went today. The parade was good. Kinda weird this year, but still good.
I'll post a bunch of pictures, along with my hair soon.



Oh, update on my hair:
It will be pink either next weekend, or maybe sometime this week.
I wanted to do it pink and blue, but my mom said one color.
:(
but at least its one color, right?




so, after the parade, we walked down the mall, and watched a magic guy do tricks and stuff. It was funny. He had some pretty slammin jokes.
like, "Whats pink and fluffy?"
"Pink fluf."


haha, i laughed. its pretty corny, but i laughed.




yea, thats about it.

my personality color is extroverted green.
^ ^ we were at the library for a while, while my mom finished work.



so, thats all.
<3 love for all.