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"Until The Sun"
and who the hell are you anyway?
coming into my life like that...
with your scene skullie and charisma.
running your fingertips across my skin
and whispering this and that.
vampire,
who the hell are you?
biting at my skin and calling me your friend...
pulling me further in.
i'm not too sure how to act anymore,
and i'm not too sure if the ache in my throat
has reason to even be there.
vampire,
who the hell are you?
you resemble the night sky,
and me? the stars.
i fall over your canvas and paint something memorable,
something red, something blury.
i walk from your cave to mine.
vampire,
who the hell are you?
coming into my life like that...
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| "...I need to know the nector was worth the squeeze." |
[26 Oct 2008|05:52am] |
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"Whimper"
I call upon the deadly disease of blasphemy...
Bring out the locusts,
sing me a song.
I can hear you...
Singing the same thing over and over again.
"...it's okay to hate yourself,
just lie still, don't cry for help."
Plagiarism on your behalf.
Speak in curses but maintain sanity.
..are
you
going
to
rape
my
mind
again
today?
I call upon the deadly disease of sin...
Pull on your boots and take heavy steps down
the hallway; make yourself noticed.
I call upon the deadly disease of filth...
The filth that lies deep inside of me.
In the pit of my stomach,
at the back of my throat,
on the tips of my fingers,
on the small of my back.
Are there consequences to look forward to?
Because I feel dangerous today.
I feel like I could match my fists with yours.
..you're
my
personal
butcher.
I call upon the deadly disease of life...
I'm in love with demoralization.
My bedroom floor has rotted from the bottom up,
and I'm burning your photos one by one.
I've nothing left to give you.
I'm your dying dove...
..I'm
your
dying
dove.
I call upon the deadly disease of 3 A.M...
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| January |
[24 Aug 2008|12:59am] |
January
where did you go?
that day soundly sleeping,
...only to be found hours later, not breathing.
where did you go?
was your head okay?
was your heart heavy?
were you thinking straight?
a demon inside of you named Joker...
did he get the best of you?
did he laugh at you?
did you weep?
where did you go?
did you try to move?
did you try to scream?
did the demon get into your soul?
...did the pills fill the hole?
but now...now there is no more sleeping,
no more weeping, no more demon.
the screaming eases off into silence
as the ghost is given up the light bathes over the body
and you recieve the Gold Chariot straight from God himself.
January rain devours Manhattan and all voices blur together
in suffocating questions of "why?"
but answers never come.
the days continue on.
Heath Andrew Ledger
April 4, 1979 - January 22, 2008
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[05 Apr 2006|07:24am] |
[ .high school fic. ]
Title: "Knock Me Down, Pick Me Up"
Chapter: [1]
By: me; Ivy /  _precious_fear
Coupling: Mikey Way and Frank Iero (of My Chemical Romance)
Rating: R - [eventual] drug use / language / violence / slash.
Description: Mikey was just minding his own business until he met the new kid.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Mentions of: Sonny Moore (of From First To Last), Bert McCracken and Quinn Allman (of The Used), John Nolan and Michelle Nolan (of Straylight Run), Adam Lazzara (of Taking Back Sunday), and Jesse Lacey and Vinnie Accardi (of Brand New)
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[02 Apr 2006|06:02pm] |
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"Tantrum"
a fucking slap in the face,
and the tears sting my eyes.
my throat tightens
and my lips quiver.
but, for a split moment,
i'm laughing and curling
up in sheets with a mind
full of memories.
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[29 Mar 2006|03:13am] |
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mood |
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"Exhibitionist"
...so fucking sad,
the life you wasted.
knives as your best friend,
freezers to serve you for an all too
hateful purpose.
but through it all,
through all the sickness you suffered
and the hate you lashed out with,
i can see beauty.
i can see love.
i can see it.
you're called a monster...
i call you a blessing.
a blessing?
blessed be, you are the damned,
cast into fire,
bound and tortured as you did to so many others.
experience the sorrow
from where you lay in the dirt.
listen for the cries,
ignore the lies,
and breathe.
...and breathe.
cast a horrid shock over the world
with a blink of your eyes.
contact the president and
laugh in his face.
and breathe.
...and breathe.
stars fade and are not of conversation.
but you remain.
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[08 Mar 2006|09:35am] |
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mood |
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"Nineteen Minutes And Eleven Seconds"
...does this mean a thing to you?
the lost, whispered promises that you
once made, now all faded into fog
that rises up from the lake,
and into the dark sky.
...do you regret a thing?
the false hopes,
the faked smiles,
the fucking tears shed over you.
...but, can you even hear me at all?
can you hear me screaming at the top of my lungs,
screaming in your face,
screaming for an answer,
screaming...screaming for fucking acknowledgement.
...instead,
you laugh in my face
and spit a few words of blaspheme my way.
you're falling so hard...
so fucking hard, kid, and I promise
I will not be there to catch you.
...not this time?
...not this time.
I'll let go of your hand,
suck it up like a big girl,
and move on.
...hey?
I'm a big girl,
I'm a big girl,
I'm a big girl...
I'm a bleeding girl.
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[07 Mar 2006|09:22am] |
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mood |
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Note: A lot of people have asked me to continue this story, so I'm finally going to try. I didn't mean to just...stop, after chapter two. I just kind of lost interest, but I'd really like to finish it. I can't start something and not finish. It may take me some time, but. It'll get done. Eventually.
Title: “Morose”
By: me; Ivy / _precious_fear
Coupling: Jesse Lacey (of Brand New) and Conor Oberst (of Bright Eyes) - although, they're not really coupled together in the story. ...yet.
Rating: PG-ish for now.
Description: Jesse and Conor, past lovers, write to one another long after their split. [...I don't do descriptions.]
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Dedication: To _rad_x_core_ - just because. I use the word "radcore" in real life all the time, and well, she rocks.
[chapter 1] A Wretch Like Me
[chapter 2] Selfishly Sick
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[06 Mar 2006|07:06pm] |
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mood |
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Title: “Slut, Slut, Slut”
By: me; Ivy / _precious_fear
Coupling: Vinnie Accardi (of Brand New) and Mikey Way (of My Chemical Romance)
Rating: NC-17 - slash/language.
Description: Look at him. What a fucking slut.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
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[02 Mar 2006|04:35am] |
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mood |
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"Motorcycle Lighters And The News That You And Your 300 Pound Girlfriend Are Smoking Blunts Laced With O.C's"
i may have parted my thighs for you,
but that does not make me a fucking whore.
i may have stood shameless in light before you,
but that does not make me a fucking whore.
i may have kissed you like a long lost love,
but that does not make me a fucking whore.
i may have made love to you as if it were the last time - each time, -
but that does not make me a fucking whore.
i may have let you hold me while i slept and touch me to wake me up,
but that does not make me a fucking whore.
i may have let you take me however you desired,
but that does not make me a fucking whore.
hardcore, "gangster" attitude for what
you're lacking between your thighs.
fuck you.
fuck what you stand for.
fuck you.
fuck you for what you took me for.
this time,
...i'll play the killer.
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[23 Feb 2006|09:23am] |
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"Serving Size / less than zero point two"
The loneliness of three A.M twists through my mind, and I finally come to realize I'm just a desperate kid for a pleasurable taste. I just need an easy friend; a person who knows nothing, but understands everything. A person who won't talk, but just listen. I need something beautiful to live for...something precious to turn into trash. The loneliness of four A.M brings my conscience to life. It's that inner voice in the back of my mind, whispering rights and wrongs. Making me realize I long for the burning scratch of nails across my flesh, and teeth digging into my lips. Someone to tell me I'm not alone in this. And I think I want to slow down now...stop sweating more than I have to. This is the value of a summer spent and a winter earned. My life could be so peaceful if I cover my ears. So glorious if I cover my eyes. It's like sitting outside in the summer time in a lawn chair...but, I don't think it's summer time, yet I'm still sweating. I'm going a bit fast today and I think I may slow down. Give me salvation, and fuck my redemption. No one likes to sweat more than they have to. I created this disaster, now I leave myself to witness the fall.
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[22 Feb 2006|04:24am] |
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mood |
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Title: "Tear Straight Into You"
By: Ivy
Coupling: Gerard Way and Mikey Way (of My Chemical Romance)
Rating: PG-13 - language/mild content of Waycest.
Description: "Fuck you, Gerard Arthur. Seriously. Fuck you."
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Note: To all of the people who have been reading my stories for the past three years, I really want to just say thank you. You guys have just stuck by me and have appreciated my writing to an extreme extent. Thank you for your wonderful comments and hardcore critisism. It's all made me want to be a better writer. <3.
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[12 Feb 2006|04:47am] |
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mood |
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Title: "Fuckin' Asshole"
By: Ivy
Coupling: Sonny Moore (of From First To Last) and Frankie Iero (of My Chemical Romance)
Rating: NC-17 - graphic slash.
Description: "I can show you how much of a fuckin' asshole I really am."
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
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[11 Feb 2006|04:58am] |
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mood |
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cold |
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Title: "I Believe I'm Winning"
By: Ivy
Coupling: Gerard Way (of My Chemical Romance) and Bam Margera (of Viva La Bam/Jackass)
Rating: NC-17 - graphic slash.
Description: "Look at you. Overreacting because I won't let you fuck me up the ass."
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
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hopeful
devious
anxious