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I lay here in this bed alone in this hotel room as my eyes drift out beyond my window, where the city is buzzing with life.  Yet here I am smiling at your text and thinking how wonderful it will be when our days and paths finally are shared and you are here with me.  The first kiss that I long to taste.  The first inhale of you with a smile.  The first touch of your hand.  The chance to talk to you while looking into your eyes. Though this Valentines day finds us in distant parts of the world I would like you to know that I find you on my mind looking forward to the future smiling for what can be.

Happy Valentines baby....

You were the reason,
I was the believer,
You had to bleed me,
I let you deceive me,
No one said it had to be this hard...
You told me loved me,
I let my heart feel it,
You led me to the river,
I let myself drown in your words
No one said it was easy...
You always told me I was easy,
I always thought you were playing,
You wiped my tears away,
I let you shoot me from behind,
No one said it would be this destructive...
You moved on to your next victim,
I lay here waiting for your return,
You told me this was life,
I told you then I'm glad to be dying,
No one ever said this would last forever...

Lets not talk,
We've already wasted time,
Lets not waste our hearts on madness,
Kiss me now,
Hold me tight,
Lets not talk,
Lets make love...

We've had our fights,
Devastation and rage,
We've said our peace,
Thrown our stones,
I'm exhausted and tired of being alone...

Lets not talk...

Take my hand,
stare into my eyes,
I know this is how,
we're meant to try and live our lives,
Passionate and engulfing,
Trusting and electric...
 
Lets not talk...

We've had our chance at misery,
To tell you the truth that was a long shot,
We know where we belong,
long before we chose this pain
Within each others arms,
are where our hearts are truly fulfilled...

Lets not talk...

You look down at me,
As you grip me wrist,
you feel me as our bodies collide,
Filling this room with our essence,
with our energy,
satisfying and true.
Through thick and thin,
Through fire and flood,
Through love and devastation,
This right here in our eyes is where we are home...

I woke up this morning
My heart can feel your hand upon it,
asking me to stay strong but I miss you,
How I do...
As tears drain from my eyes,
I can hear your words,
Still telling me to watch out and
stop and think before I do the stupid things I have in mind,
You've made me better...
My soul feels your love still guiding me,
leading me to better days,
Even after all you've done.
For you I will live in hopes that I can make you proud...
May you smile from above,
watching and knowing that here you have left me,
But you left me with everything I need to make it in this world...

THANK YOU....

Against All Odds I Am Willing To Fall

Bite the bullet and fight for the cause,
They all considered it a lost.
I stand there alone take your hand in mine,
You smile at me knowing what the end may be.
But here we stand against all odds,
Taking a Risk that could kill,
I hope that you know when we take this first step,
my heart is real an my soul will seal the deal.

Even when I tried to believe I know the truth...

Here you stood with pure emotion as you said you'd try,
Your words were held strong as I told you I'd believe,
How you swore this was it and I was who you loved,
I easy those words trickled off your tongue,
How easy my heart fell for the same words yet again.
My hands trembled with rage and pain coursing thru my veins,
as your lies were revealed beneath your clever words,
You tore into me with such vicious intent,
I can see with clarity as your words run backwards.
I can see the wolf in your eyes with an evil glare.
Even when I tried to believe I should have known,
Cause you were to good to be true and I was jus a kid lost within you...

I Don't want this to be Goodbye

I look down at my phone,
My heart aches to call,
hear your voice and feel better inside,
if only temporary I'd still chase that high.
How did this become us,
I don't want to say Goodbye,
Because you've already taken within me,
a permanent residency with a full lease on property.
I don't want this to be Goodbye,
I want us to fly!!! 

Every day ends...

I lay here upon this bed,
Lost in memories of you and I,
Held together with beauty,
Unable to disguise my soul,
I am entrapped in your smile,
Though I am not there with you,
Beside You I lay living in our dreams,
I over sleep with every nights rest,
Visions of you laying upon me,
Smiling up to me has my mind,
Heart and soul at a lost for words.

Though every day ends,
I will still remain,
Within these moments of you and I,
I'll sit on park benches,
stare out of my window into the distance,
Take a drive remember these days,
These times, these lovely days,
And be brought the overwhelming feelings,
That I won't escape but engulf myself in it.

Cause tho these days end,
I will still look back and towards the future,
Thinking of embracing you,
Kissing you,
Loving you...

Moment

Though we have these few days
I have held my breathe within them
Not wanting to give this back to time
I want to freeze here in these moments with you
lay upon my chest
look up at me
share this kiss with me
My soul has been touched
It reaches for you
I look beyond my window
memories take me back to you
How these days with you will hold me
My heart woke up today knowing the full extent of the day
Missing you has been weighing heavy on me
your lips, your nose, your eyes,
Your touch, your loving ways,
Your smile, Your voice,
Though I am without you
I am with you.
within these moments...

You were the perfect moment in a miserable world, where beauty hides and worlds collide!