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Legs · Sadovsky

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Seeing you with someone that can give you everything you deserve.

It doesn't hurt like i thought it would. I meant it when i said all of those things. Im not sure it will ever go away.

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I am working so hard to deserve the people that are given to me
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“The difference between a criminal and an outlaw is that while criminals frequently are victims, outlaws never are. Indeed, the first step toward becoming a true outlaw is the refusal to be victimized.”
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“Sometimes I think I have felt everything I'm ever gonna feel. And from here on out, I'm not gonna feel anything new. Just lesser versions of what I've already felt.”

My god what an oppressive thought to have

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When I can not sleep I spend my nights studying you
Learning and growing in the ways I love you.
With each flick of a past photo it becomes more effortless. More real. You become more real. More mine.
I live inside your world while you sleep
And I am like a child experiencing taste and touch for the first time. I am 34 and discovering my hands for the first time as they move the blanket on or off of you
Making sure the temperature of the open window we let ourselves out of all night-
Does not disturb your breathing/
I am feeling my fingers for the first time as they move inside of you
in the loud morning
These cars passing-
The people driving the cars-
Have no idea what kind of sweating/swearing(fuckdontstop) love is gasping through the cold morning air that they are
So lucky
To share with you.
I am always jealous of anyone that gets to share the air

While you are awake.

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I just met the girl of my fucking dreams. I don’t know how to turn that into prose.

I’m finally at a loss for words.

What a brat. I think I’m in love.

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there are also days where i feel like a dented can.
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visit your old high school. tell that teacher she changed your life. taught you empathy. Reach out to the hearts you have broken. tell them that they are worth so much, and that you are sorry for ever making them doubt it. tell your friends you miss them. tell your parents you love them. tell your partner they are everything, and that you are sorry.

no one recognizes you. no one knows what you are talking about.

How to prepare for a suicide you have already committed

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in the night you are alone


She tells me I make her feel drunk.
our bodies crawl inside of one another.
we spend the night, and most of the next day like this.

our mouths are so close that her air fills my lungs.
she exhales into me and I can feel myself expand and grow heavier

this is like the blood. this is like the new words we use, while our eyes are wide with amazement. we surprise ourselves with what we are willing to do.

we wonder at what will come next.
I have some ideas ...if you're interested.
And I know you are
Interested.

sweet girl I
am very pleased.
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