| Hey...don't be confused, this is Jonathan |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|12:25 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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Hi everyone, its Jon...I was just scrolling through me and Shelly's old Live Journal updates and it kinda brought me back to some good times. Seems to me that things have changed all around us and different obstacles have been thrown in our way but the main reason that Shelly and I got together is still there. Every time I am with her its like a small part of me that was left empty before gets filled again...I don't know how to explain it except that it feels really good when its filled and it hurts when its empty. Well I don't wanna ramble on about that all day, I'll just give y'all an update on me and Shelly:
Well on December 24th (thats Christmas Eve) at like 2 in the morning though, Shelly and I got in a fight (about some fagot) and then when we made amends...she told me that she was gonna ask me out. We said our sorrys and she asked me to be with her. It wasn't the most romantic or easiest thing in the world, but it was a huge step to being happy again and I'm glad that it went out that way.
So me and Shelly are together again and I'm lookin' forward to being with her for a REALLY REALLY long and happy time!! I love her more than anything in the world and I know things will work out. I'm excited because yesterday I went shoppin' and got her a valentine's present...Feel free to ask me what it is and I'll tell you (unless your name is Shelly, then you have to wait 'till valentines) All I know is that she's gonna love he gift. Well I gotta jet, its time for me to eat something...I LOVE YOU SHELLY!!!
Seasons may change (things might be different
Winter to spring
But I love you (you'll still be the love of my life)
Until the end of time (forever)
Lots of love,
Jonathan |
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| Yay!!! I got the Job!!!!! |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|03:29 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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Yes, so I finally have a job!! Now hopefully I won't be broke anymore. I'm probobly just going to do register, which is fine with me...I want the easiest thing possible. The only problem is that they are going to have to work with my hours becasue I have so many activites going on...ya that sucks, but I can't help that I'm busy. bye for now! |
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[Apr. 18th, 2004|12:53 am]
Shelly and Jonny
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Anger can make us do such stupid things.... |
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| Yay I'm growing up! |
[Apr. 17th, 2004|05:28 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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Well today has been good so far, I actually got caught up on my sleep!! Also today I had an interview at JOANNS...my first interview ever!!! yay I feel old! It went really well... except when I forgot my social security #...ya oopsy!!also it's a good thing that my sis works there ( connections!! :) ) So I find out tommorow if I get it or not. It will be cool either way becasue I will either have more time or no time. But money would be nice to have about now!!
Well Spring show is this coming week...I am soooooo excited!! This is the one part of the year that I love the most!! Also I get to hand down my title as Sergeant Major :(...it makes me sad, I have nothing to hand down but still...hmmm better work on that. But at least I get to move up, I'm really looking forward to friday night! This year has been pretty awesome now that I look back on it...of course some parts sucked but ya I'm always gonna have those no matter what.
Well I really miss Jonathan, he's been gone since Thursday...and I'm feeling really alone!! I hate this I'm like lost without him...kinda sad. However Friday night was awesome becasue I got to have a girls night with my hotties!! I'm so glad that I have people to hang out with. I just wish others would stop thinking that I'm excluding them. I wish I could split myself in half so that I would have equal time for everyone. Ya, Jonathan is at an Orienteering meet...he's in 10th place right now and its a State Champions meet...So that's really good!! He normally gets first, so I hope hes doing good. I wonder if he misses me aas much as I miss him..? But at least he has my topcat blanket to cuddle with! ;) Well I'm really starting to like livejournal..so I'll write more tommorow and let everyone know how my interview went!! Good night!! |
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| I hate you |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|11:22 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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So I am really sick of being nice all the time! I hate how certain people are so immature. I tried to be nice, I tried to be the bigger person, but it didn't get me anywhere so now I'm going to be a bitch...
3 words to describe how I feel : I Hate You
20 Reasons why:
1. I hate you for being in control of my life.
2. I hate you for never thinking I was good enough.
3. I hate you for manipulating me.
4. I hate you for bringing me down.
5. I hate you for choosing my friends.
6. I hate you for being a hypocrite
7. I hate you for thinking only of yourself.
8. I hate you for not appreciating me.
9. I hate you for taking me for granted.
10. I hate you for taking credit of my accomplishments.
11. I hate you for being jealous.
12. I hate you for not understanding.
13. I hate you for putting me through hell.
14. I hate you for hating my happiness.
15. I hate you for hating my friends.
16. I hate you for trying to predict my life.
17. I hate you for trying to distroy my dreams.
18. I hate you for being immature.
19. I hate you for limiting my fun.
20. most of all... I hate you for blaming others for your unhappiness.
No....I hope "your" happy now....
I refuse to let anyone be in control of my life becasue I am the only one who is. Yes, it took me a long time to realize that becasue I was blinded for so long. Now, I am back and ready to stick up for what I believe in becasue I have finally realized that people who bring me down are not worth my time.I think finally after 17 years I will be able to be the real me. No longer is there someone holding me back or trying to take credit for my hard work, now I am free to make my own choices.
How dare you try to predict my future, how dare you try to say I don't have any friends. Look around you...how many people are standing by your side? ...that's right...1. I think I have always had more friends than you ever will becasue my heart is pure, it isn't blackened with hatred, unlike yours. I know I am a better person than you, becasue you were the one who deserted me. Also, I don't give a shit if I didn't wish you a happy birthday...it's not bothering me so get over it!!!!!!! I know that in the future I will have a career, a loving husband, and a happy life. Whereas you will most likely end up in a physciatric ward of a hospital for severe depression and suicide attempts.Thanks for the old happy memories, but now you changed...and trust me...not for the better. |
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| HAPPY 6 MONTHS TO THE BEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD!! I LOVE YOU!! |
[Apr. 3rd, 2004|06:17 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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I love you I love you I love you I love you!!!!!!! |
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| Its Jon Again! |
[Mar. 30th, 2004|10:10 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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Hey hey, Everyone! Well I haven't had much to talk about lately so I really haven't written anything on this thing in a long time...First off, HAPPY B-DAY to Shelly's Madre cuz today was it! So some interesting news is that this lady in Tyler Texas by the name of Deanna Laney killed her 8 year old 6 year old and severely beet her 12 month old boys. If you thought that all that violence wasn't enough, today in court she claimed that she did it because "God told her to" It doesn't make christians look very good when stuff like that gets on to national news so I was upset tonight, I don't know why that hit me so hard but it did, I was kinda sad. But on happier news: SATURDAY IS SHELLY AND MY 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!! I know some of you are saying "big deal" but it really is because I haven't ever gone out with someone and still be so happy after 6 months...I think it's really a long time I mean its half way to a year!! So all of you out there that said it would never work, look at us now!! While I am on a happy note, I just wanna say CONGRATS to next years officer and sergeant lineup and GOODLUCK to all the people who are trying to get Sergeant Major and Captain. I'm really looking forward to being your topslave..err..dog! (I'm just kiddin', you know I love it!) Tonight I went for a long run and while I was running, I was thinking about how lucky I am to have the perfect gurl...not only is she beautiful (I got that word from Jaime) but she's pretty smart, funny, talented (you all know I LOVED the belly-dancing) and to top it all off she is a friggin officer! Not to mention that she taught me soooo much about being a good boyfriend and about all kinds of relationship stuff that I always took for granted before. I wish I could tell you all how she makes me feel all the time, but I can't find the right words to put it down, but trust me...its beyond belief. So "Here's to Shelly" the gal who I look forward to seeing everyday and the girl I miss the most when I'm gone. I never knew 6 months could change someone as much as it changed me, but I know I'm better because I got the chance to love you! I'm lookin' forward to much more time that I get to spend w/ my baby, Shelly!
Tons of Love,
Jonathan |
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| CALLING ALL TOPCATS!!!! |
[Mar. 28th, 2004|04:29 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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Ok..So we are having an end of the year event, and I need to know what you all think about this idea...
So it will be a "Topcat Campout/ Potluck Picnic"
I'm thinking it will be the weekend after spring show, or the weekend after banquet..which would you all prefer??
It will be a family potluck picnic during the late afternoon, and everyone will bring a dish and we will have some activities to do. Then as it gets later in the evening people who would like to campout can stay...and we can get tents( either if you have one or we will find a way to get some) There will be plenty of fun activities such as ...hiking, rollerblading, biking, swimming(depending on the weather) and roasting marshmallows in front of a campfire. I think it would be a lot of fun!
Throw this idea at your parents...becasue we would need to have some chaperons..but I'm thinking about the $ issue..I don't know how much it is, but I might try to pay for it out of the Sergeant spirit $, so don't worry about that yet, just let me know if you all like the idea. :) |
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| YAY!!!!!! |
[Mar. 28th, 2004|12:17 pm]
Shelly and Jonny
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| | "Turning to Peace" -Lisbeth Scott | ] |
Well things seem to be going great!! I haven't been this happy in a really long time. I can't believe I made Officer!!!! :) However when I told everyone they said "I knew you would" so how come I'm the only one who didn't think that? I guess I should have more faith in myself...however I do feel that all the months of learning and preparing for tryouts paid off! People probobly think I'm crazy for spending so much time on my dance...but I just proved to myself that if you want something bad enough, and you try your hardest...than anything is possible. I can't believe I am living my dream! It's one of those things I never thought would happen..but am glad that it did!! When I opened that piece of paper..I sware I had to read it 50 times before I understood what it meant...then I just couldn't stop looking at it. :) I just can't believe how good things turned out...I think the Officer line is going to be awesome...and partly becasue all of us are such good friends! (Woo Hoo PANTY LINE!!):) but I am so excited to get to work with all my friends :) It still hasn't sunk in yet..becasue I still just can't believe it. Also it made me feel good that people actually liked my routine,and want me to teach them :) It's a really good feeling and makes me feel that there's something I'm good at. So now I have so much to look forward to!!! Congrats to everyone who made a position...good job!! :) |
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| The Lady of Shalott |
[Feb. 7th, 2004|12:50 am]
Shelly and Jonny
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On either side the river lie
Long fields of barley and of rye,
That clothe the wold and meet the sky;
And thro' the field the road run by
To many-towered Camelot;
And up and down the people go,
Gazing where the lilies blow
Round an island there below,
The island of Shalott.
Willows whiten, aspens quiver,
Little breezes dusk and shiver
Thro' the wave that runs for ever
By the island in the river
FLowing down to Camelot.
Four grey walls, and four grey towers,
Overlook a space of flowers,
And the silent isle imbowers
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
Only reapers, reaping early,
In among the beared barley
Hear a song that echoes cheerly
From the river winding clearly;
Down to tower'd Camelot;
And by the moon the reaper weary,
Piling sheaves in uplands airy,
Listening, whispers ''tis the fairy
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.'
There she weaves by night and day
A magic web with colours gay.
She has heard a whisper say,
A curse is on her if she stay
To look down to Camelot.
She knows not what the curse may be,
And so she weaveth steadily,
And little other care heat she,
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
And moving through a mirror clear
That hangs before her all the year,
Shadows of the world appear.
There she sees the highway near
Winding down to Camelot;
And sometimes thro' the mirror blue
The knights come riding two and two.
She hath no loyal Knight and true,
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
But in her web she still delights
To weave the mirror's magic sights,
For often thro' the silent nights
A funeral, with plumes and lights
And music, went to Camelot;
Or when the Moon was overhead,
Came two young lovers lately wed.
'I am half sick of shadows,' said
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
A bow-shot from her bower-eaves,
He rode between the barley sheaves,
The sun came dazzling thro' the leaves,
And flamed upon the brazen greaves
Of bold Sir Lancelot.
A red-cross knight for ever kneel'd
To a lady in his shield,
That sparkled on the yellow field,
Beside remote Shalott.
His broad clear brow in sunlight glow'd;
On burnish'd hooves his war-horse trode;
From underneath his helmet flow'd
His coal-black curls as on he rode,
As he rode down to Camelot.
From the bank and from the river
He flashed into the crystal mirror,
'Tirra lirra,' by the river
Sang Sir Lancelot.
She left the web, she left the loom,
She made three paces thro' the room,
She saw the helmet and the plume,
She look'd down to Camelot.
Out flew the web and floated wide;
The mirror crack'd from side to side;
'The curse is come upon me,' cried
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
In the stormy east-wind straining,
The pale yellow woods were waning,
The broad stream in his banks complaining.
Heavily the low sky raining
Over tower'd Camelot;
Down she came and found a boat
Beneath a willow left afloat,
And around about the prow she wrote
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
And down the river's dim expanse
Like some bold seer in a trance,
Seeing all his own mischance -
With a glassy countenance
Did she look to Camelot.
And at the closing of the day
She loosed the chain, and down she lay;
The broad stream bore her far away,
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
Heard a carol, mournful, holy,
Chanted loudly, chanted lowly,
Till her blood was frozen slowly,
And her eyes were darkened wholly,
Turn'd to tower'd Camelot.
For ere she reach'd upon the tide
The first house by the water-side,
Singing in her song she died,
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
Under tower and balcony,
By garden-wall and gallery,
A gleaming shape she floated by,
Dead-pale between the houses high,
Silent into Camelot.
Out upon the wharfs they came,
Knight and Burgher, Lord and Dame,
And around the prow they read her name,
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.
Who is this? And what is here?
And in the lighted palace near
Died the sound of royal cheer;
And they crossed themselves for fear,
All the Knights at Camelot;
But Lancelot mused a little space
He said, 'she has a lovely face;
God in his mercy lend her grace,
THE LADY OF SHALOTT.' |
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