Mea Culpa
I am up this morning at 6 am because i finally got a night of amazing sleep. Z and i had a rough day and could not make it to the things we wanted. He went to the MC Frontalot concert because it was a block from our place and he had time to get there.
I have fucked up a lot in the last 6 months. A LOT. I have been through the extremes of depression for months. I flaked on promises i made for people because I simply could not get them done. No matter how i tried, or what i did couldn't do it. For everyone i have flaked on, you know who you are. I am SORRY. In ways that are not explainable, I am so very sorry.
Joe, i am sorry i could not get the costuming done. I am working on cloaks right now to at least give you something for your third movie. Forgive me, i know you had to scramble to get stuff done. I am very sorry.
Inge. I am sorry i could not finish your tribal pieces by your birthday. I wanted so bad to have them done for you. I am sorry other things have been put in the back round also. Please forgive me.
Jamie. There are many things that we should have talked about. There are so many times i should have been there, just as family. I have missed so much. Please forgive me.
Margie. I knit my little fingers off only to be defeated by pain. I made a promise and i broke it. let me know how i can make it up. Please forgive me.
Dave. I made a promise to you and only kept part of it. I am sorry. I want to continue where we left off. Meaning if you feel like it, gym tomorrow. I swim and finish the spread sheet of your work out and we can go over it again.
Zach. I love you.
Sheri. I have been promising coffee for ages and i never offer, mostly due to intimidation. So i offer now, give me a time i got the place and we can meet and talk.
Krista. I have needed to get pictures to you a Chris for ages. And pictures for you. I am setting my studio, for reals so when you get a chance and you have time to sit down let me know and we can talk.
Corry. I wish i could have been at your party. i am very upset i missed it. I' am sorry.
Ohana. I have hidden from friends and loved ones like Grendel in his cave. I love you. And i might need some help getting pulled from that cave, emotional and physical, i ask for your help and forgiveness for hiding and forgetting that there are people who love me and only want the best.
Anyone else. I tried to think of all the people i may have wronged and list them here. If i have wronged you, broken a promise, know that i am sorry and beg your forgiveness.
I offer no excuses. I do hope if the door is still open to our friend ship i can try again, and work towards make amends.
I have fucked up a lot in the last 6 months. A LOT. I have been through the extremes of depression for months. I flaked on promises i made for people because I simply could not get them done. No matter how i tried, or what i did couldn't do it. For everyone i have flaked on, you know who you are. I am SORRY. In ways that are not explainable, I am so very sorry.
Joe, i am sorry i could not get the costuming done. I am working on cloaks right now to at least give you something for your third movie. Forgive me, i know you had to scramble to get stuff done. I am very sorry.
Inge. I am sorry i could not finish your tribal pieces by your birthday. I wanted so bad to have them done for you. I am sorry other things have been put in the back round also. Please forgive me.
Jamie. There are many things that we should have talked about. There are so many times i should have been there, just as family. I have missed so much. Please forgive me.
Margie. I knit my little fingers off only to be defeated by pain. I made a promise and i broke it. let me know how i can make it up. Please forgive me.
Dave. I made a promise to you and only kept part of it. I am sorry. I want to continue where we left off. Meaning if you feel like it, gym tomorrow. I swim and finish the spread sheet of your work out and we can go over it again.
Zach. I love you.
Sheri. I have been promising coffee for ages and i never offer, mostly due to intimidation. So i offer now, give me a time i got the place and we can meet and talk.
Krista. I have needed to get pictures to you a Chris for ages. And pictures for you. I am setting my studio, for reals so when you get a chance and you have time to sit down let me know and we can talk.
Corry. I wish i could have been at your party. i am very upset i missed it. I' am sorry.
Ohana. I have hidden from friends and loved ones like Grendel in his cave. I love you. And i might need some help getting pulled from that cave, emotional and physical, i ask for your help and forgiveness for hiding and forgetting that there are people who love me and only want the best.
Anyone else. I tried to think of all the people i may have wronged and list them here. If i have wronged you, broken a promise, know that i am sorry and beg your forgiveness.
I offer no excuses. I do hope if the door is still open to our friend ship i can try again, and work towards make amends.
