alyshoney

My only breakup was accomplished with such a painful lack of finesse that I'm not sure I'll ever be able to forgive myself. I'm still working on forgiving him for the things that led to me breaking up with him, too. It doesn't help a bit that he had been one of my closest friends for more than a decade before we began dating, nor that, despite everything, I'm still in love with him.

I've emailed and IM'd with him a couple of times since then, but I'm still actively avoiding any face to face encounter, because I don't yet trust myself to behave in a suitably civilized manner.

I'd actually been thinking about this a lot for the last several days, because this weekend was the anniversary of our last date, and the last truly happy time I spent with him.