Catholic Veteran commuter in his parents basement & on the mortgage

Good time. Might've gotten the runs from something here? Anyways here was a compliment. I've told my parents I think Five Guys or some fast food places can have a better burger than at some of the 'nicer' restaurants. Not much room for comments. Think I might play video games next. Thanks.

So catching up. Bring up this point. The POTUS promises. And revitalizing the store and company. So one story was bring the college vibe to all of us. So the point of pointing out issues assessments and addressing ideas. It was not being hurt saddened rejected insulted humiliated embarrassed. Instead avenues to answers. Encouragement. Options. Choices. Inclusion. Feasibility. So it'd be also maybe some censorship. Not being offensive. So my parents married. Things they would like out of college? Both being foodies maybe. So restaurants. Another was dad being a gamer. Think he wanted to play apples to apples with other people before. So the height of that connection point. All those people grouped together and available. Another was oh comparing some of the downside or negativity to the Suave shampoo brand. A little bit generic? Maybe gives a goofy hair style? Cheaper than the other stuff? So options from there. A barber and knowing your hair cuts. I need to learn the different cuts I am ignorant. I think I got a number 1 on the sides every two week for a little while now and then some off the top too. Shorter. So the story of me and a younger fertile girl? Hypothetically? It was thinking of the parts like I'd probably have to groom her. Show her normal things. But it can be done? Anthony Kiedis pictures of him with a younger girl online. Like my Karl Lagerfeld jacket I got. Had no idea about that or him. Asked my mom and she knew. So explaining the college part another one. You pay for the supplies the books. The books show all the functioning unembarassing things out there. A book on designers. So other alternatives and options. The trades network and groupings of things. The ways of getting lessons or education. The school system seems rather unapproachable. No time for night classes for a blanket degree that doesn't make quite sense. But other parts. After the 2 year intro the 4 year specialized school. So options. Options. Harpers Bazaar? Was that one? But here was a barrier. Trying and being rejected or discouraged. So passions? Priorities? Shooting out the gates with he's on fire baskets. https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ https://www.youtube.com/@aubreynesbitt/playlists So some things that VA might seem to disapprove of? Veterans Affairs. Paid pornography. Maybe I liked masturbating to underage girls before. So actually skateboarding and longboarding. One reason maybe I'd lose others who weren't in the Army would be better than me. Or I could fall and hurt myself. Less guitar maybe? Not being a show off or trouble maker. Didn't see the Brooks Brothers sweater till afterwards now interested if it's still there. Maybe a little bit like that Bill Wyman story. But parts like the long delay and when it finally got there. So skate shoes? That style? And other influences out there. The brotherhood. Fraternal activities. Chemicals. Mopped floors. Bagel dogs. Warm. Cold. Unsweet iced tea. https://www.facebook.com/DKOldies/ So here was one. Was I cheating? Or bringing up this. Since I didn't get married maybe using my free time like I was bonding to these things. Revolving around DK Oldies for new drops. It was a modest amount of money to spend at Marshalls occasionally. Maybe not being so stiff or tough or cheap or stingy. Maybe letting things go. Maybe treating myself to things here and there. I think pants size I wear 40x30 but am losing weight. Size 11 shoes but that can vary a little bit. Size XXL tops or XXXL or XXLT lately. Mom wears size 8 or 10 bottoms. Size medium or large tops. Size 8 to 8.5 shoes. It varies on styles and fits and brands. She likes Nordstrom and Talbots. She likes silk cashmere sweaters quality wool good nice cotton all those pure fabrics. So the fun of the store. Memories? Marshalls as a boy. Maybe reliving that. Going to Marshalls in high school with my mom. Maybe trying to get party clothes back then or skate stuff. Prep for VCU. Memories back then. Ordering from American Eagle online. Other orders online or in person. Hollister and Abercrombie. Me maybe guilty? Were my babies really born? The comparisons of them through those opportune years. A lightbulb getting turned on on a lamp without a shade. Blinding. A tree with branches. A sapling sprouting. Amish horse and buggy pussy muscular muscle down there. College coeds yeasty. British underage girls. 13th floor of the hospital psych ward blonde pale white fat butt a euphoric dream. But does that ruin my chances from there? Confession. Honesty. So grossness not in a bad way. People in my family shopping. My aunts pussies at thanksgiving or christmas. Was my brothers son actually my biological son? Is this why I can't get married? So German products. Things sold like it was a BMW or Mini Cooper. That dealership. Hardtops. Coupes. Sleek small compact good prices. There's some for now. Next block.

Started a survey earlier but had to get off the computer because the meeting ended and a agent needed to get on and he was higher priority on that and I had to walk my dog so he could take a dump. So catching up again? Bringing the college vibe to our country. And bringing the POTUS' promises to all of us each one even candidates. So inputting issues and wants to get them resolved or handled. The college vibe. So mom and dad included. A good time for the whole family. Things they'd be interested in. Maybe censorship from offensive sex scenarios and not cheating or being tempted. Next it was dad is a gamer and likes games. I think his feelings got hurt when I told him about apples to apples being played but he didn't get included. Mom might be a bit of a foodie. So both of them and restaurants. Another basically was getting like a retirement to them. Some of that one was like being undergrad dropping out felt like a vacation. Carefree but about to go pay off all my student loan debt and get a pseudo tenure from my US Army retirement. So that'd be like less stress or bad feelings. No tensions. Better socializing maybe? https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ So everyone getting chances to do things. Maybe them as a married couple being able to have good times too. So we are practicing Catholics now. We go to Sunday mass every week. And being aware of past constraints. Apparently being aware of people in the military suffering and not being abusive or evil to them. Adultery can seem offensive and hurtful. Would I ever be able to start a family myself? Seems I can't escape Ebenezer and will be seeing that in theatres if I can trying that. So our party. Our country. Improvements. Things getting to us. Specials. https://www.youtube.com/@aubreynesbitt/playlists Assimilation. Chikfila. So mom liking clothes. Us going out shopping on dad's game night. Dad and his gamer friends liking historical miniature tabletop wargaming. A story was the men appear to be interested in the opportunity to father babies as old men but it seems to have stumped them and there is not answer for that desire. So college days. Starting at the suite. Having a roommate. Each room having two people in it and common bathrooms and a common area connecting them all and several rooms with that. Coeds. Traffic of people. Strangers and some familiar faces. The effect of chemicals. Different ways of doing that. Warmth. Cold. Bagel dogs. Mopped floors. Unsweet iced tea. Mood stabilizers. Injections. So story was things not embarrassing humiliating or hurtful. Not getting rejected. Not getting ones feelings hurt for trying. Different avenues available. Things improving. Progress. Quests. Open world games. RPGs. Cutscenes. Joy. Outfits. Mom wears size 8 or 10 bottoms. Size medium or large tops. Size 8 to 8.5 shoes. It varies on styles and fits and brands. She likes Nordstrom and Talbots. She likes silk cashmere sweaters quality wool good nice cotton all those pure fabrics. I might be losing weight now. Tirzepatide. Zepbound injections weekly. So not putting my parents in suicidal scenarios. Not having crashing lows. But highs? Manic ups? No downs? So college parts probably envied. Lots of smoking drugs. Lots of spooning with coeds in beds. Variety too. So the cafeteria all those food options. And everything all available and affordable to an extent. Was Buc-ees a win? So deals. Real Estate. Cool cars. My parents liking their Teslas. A Cybertruck too. Vacations. Excursions. Things not gross in the wrong way. Belittling. Insulted. Stumped. Confused. Saddened. Instead answers. Choices. Upgrades. Options. Family. Country. Faith. Problems resolved. Brother appears to want to be a drug user. Think he's better off not quitting seeing stories of people dying. So Eric Foreman from that 70s show? Charles Town. Harpers Ferry. St Peters. St James. New restaurant in Mount Vernon Mi Sol. Doing things different. Not being offended. Solving my porn issue? God.

So catching up. Apparently things I didn't know that others blatantly knew quite clearly. Here was one thing that is going on. I am going to Williamsburg VA for our Christmas vacation. I had a friend from VCU who went  there and seemed to know all about what was going to happen to me. Was this stuff funny? Basically I had a student loan. More of it was I didn't know who Ebenezer Scrooge was. Apparently thinking West Virginia doesn't know him since there aren't really any theatres over here when I searched. However Ebenezer is going to be in theatres soon so there's that. I guess explaining some of these jokes? It was young people doing anything they could to avoid what happened to me maybe? I think that's a interpretation of it? Like how I can't smoke weed. Or how I didn't graduate. Or how I am around my family 247 now. Or how I joined the Army. Yet however these things don't appear to be direct insults for me. Rather things they really didn't want to happen or harsh truth jokes for me and my family. Dickens dad went to a debtors prison but was released. So I've got a bit of the ticklebug now thinking about some of this. My Williamsburg friend having college level grade immaturity and appropriate jokes I guess? I think he literally said he was gay before. Some of this stuff was apparently how bad people dreaded what happened to me. Apparently my US Army escapade being something others might not have been as fortunate to have as the outcome. Maybe many babies born along these journeys and excursions? So mom really enjoys the pumpkin yogurt display here. She loaded up on pumpkin yogurt when she came here. What happened was she first tried it and liked it. Then she went to Alexandria and searched all the grocery stores for it for weeks of our commuting and couldn't find anything like it. Then we came back when we were back again and she loaded up. I think she likes the flavor. Maybe English on it? Was it like pump kin like baby or was it like maybe how I might have fathered biologically lots of kids. Some of that was like different comparisons to it. My penis being like a tree and starting a sapling and branches when the underage  Germany girl was sitting on me cowgirl it was like turning on a lightbulb. The Amish woman's muscular old world buggy drawn pussy and pale white skin. The fat white blonde womans milky body. My aunts older thanksgiving puss. My brothers spouses philipino knocked unconscious thrill ride. Asleep. Asleep. Asleep. Coeds yeasty pussy pajamas spooning. How I got walked directly into this one. But would women now have my babies? I have military benefits. If a woman has my babies I believe if I enroll them in DEERs which I would we would get additional pay for each baby until they turn 18 years old. So apparently men getting sour over this. Me having military benefits. Choices my dad made that helped me get to where I am. I think overseas deploying to the middle east where ever it was I think my unit could have literally taken me outside and shot me in the back of the head and left me dead over there and said I just died in battle or something. I could have died many times in my life. There's some for now.

So catching up. Let's see. Being a practicing Catholic. Why won't women give me a chance now? Did too many women have my babies in secret in the past? What can I do now? You see how I am a good deal now don't you? I am retired and disabled. Two basically guaranteed paychecks for life. I have military benefits and would get a pay increase I believe for each baby had raising those children. I think my parents would love to help me start a family. I have long term housing. I have a good  car and can afford a replacement. I don't have  substance abuse problem. I don't cheat. I don't want to get divorced. I am assimilated. I am a veteran. So a barrier? men getting big with me. Younger men blocking me. Them harassing me if I try to talk to women. Isn't there at least one woman who'd be interested in me? And then they are not ready they can't have them all they can't afford to raise family they didn't do what I did. You see my points. And my obligation I have to helping my family. So next? Playing video games. https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ https://www.youtube.com/@aubreynesbitt/playlists So overnighting. Commuting. Playing handheld video games at home. Rev Fest tomorrow I think. That's in New York colonial reenactors for a American battle I think. So our Christmas this year. A vacation to Williamsburg VA. Brother has tattoos he might need help with not being embarrassed about. Can't seem to escape Charles Dickens and Scrooge. Seeing the play again this year I believe. So was my brothers son actually my biological son? Help with his vocation and future starting a family. He didn't get a date to home coming. So sources of joy? Current issues? Assessing and addressing things. There's a pumpkin yogurt and Weis that mom really liked. My cleaning job. Cleaning my downstairs in WV. Cleaning my parents office weekly. Cleaning their big house occasionally. Those being draining and saving me money and earning me money. So really liking DK Oldies lately. https://www.facebook.com/DKOldies https://blakeuptin.blogspot.com/ So what to do? Things the VA seems to disapprove of or suggest against. Stopping using paid pornography. Waiting for my subscriptions to end. What else? Maybe less skateboarding and longboarding? Less guitar? So assimilating. Were my babies born before in the past? So studies. Using my time on myself to get smarter. Exercising my mind. Reading Conan the Barbarian comic compilation hard cover. Finished Rick Rubin's book on creativity. Miss making movies. When I used to use my camcorder and youtube. Have a some new camcorders I haven't used and my smartphone too. Heard about how camcorders are outdated now because of smartphones according to google ai. Finally finished Big Sur and the Oranges of Hieronymus Bosch by Henry Miller. Very challenging difficult read. So studying. Haven't been painting miniatures lately. Guess that's some for now. Thai Ghang Waan for lunch? Rocklands BBQ sometimes.

So a story was when I go here I literally never find anything I am interested in here mostly what so ever. But I have seen my ideas maybe come out and they did look ok. So here was a two sided part of this. One was not accumulating more junk (what if we move again). And two was maybe keeping an eye out for things I was interested in. For example lately I like DK Oldies. I revolve around them and stay up to date on the latest game restock drops. But what if I spent a little bit of money on decor for my downstairs in Charles Town WV? Here was a little bit of the idea? Money isn't disposable. But generousity or showmanship? It was maybe things I previously would've spent money on instead. Bartenders. So posters? Wall art? Or things that help a video gamer? Handhelds. Messenger bags. Chrome Industries. And explanations about things? Obamacare? https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ https://www.youtube.com/@aubreynesbitt/playlists So thinking of merch before? Posters hoodies vinyls t shirt socks sweats jackets etc. So help with mom and what she is addressing and assessing? One was her son my brother who may be my half brother has tattoos and seems to not want to quit doing drugs seems to be a pothead? Another was her grand son my nephew who I thought I might be the biological father of he doesn't know what he is going to do with his life and didn't get a date for homecoming and wants to go to college maybe JMU. Dad is a gamer. Likes historical miniature tabletop wargaming. We shop on dad's game night. The other day went to a different location and didn't find anything. We went to one in Frederick Maryland. So we are having a vacation in Williamsburg VA this year for Christmas. A week there. We are going to New York for Rev Fest soon too. A revolutionary war colonial reenactor battle. So articulating points. Being a practicing Catholic. Doing rosaries. Would a woman give me a chance? And you see how I am a good deal especially in comparison to younger men? I have two paychecks. I am retired and disabled and that's basically guaranteed. I have long term housing. My parents would love to help with me starting a family. I am ready. I don't cheat. i don't want to get divorced. Other men blocking on me they can't afford it they aren't ready they can't take all the women they are annoying me harassing me. So commuting. Overnighting. Back and forth weekly. Charles Town WV. Alexandria VA. So new material? The women doing their stand up on each other about life and what's going on. So old connections and memories. Seeing other childrens parents houses as a boy inside. Here was one. With the video games the experience. An open world. All types of adventures to begin. Quests to seek out. The community. My house. So the interface. A map a task to complete companions common grounds. Liking Grand Home Furnishings some times. So lately studying. Trying to exercise my mind. Reading Conan the Barbarian a compilation a hard cover. So the old world. The 1900s. My grand parents when they were alive. Looking back? Nostalgia? So decor elements? Good wood. That being sought after. Thrifters and resellers. Sturdy enough. Donations? Replacing things out? Momm shopping Target too. TJ Maxx. Having a card for that. Music videos. Rick Rubin so a home owner art decor sculptures replicas famous art pieces. What about smaller scale copies of big famous art pieces? And the issue with some of the wall art? Claude Monet spouse died? People focusing on these things. So that issue people demanding famous references then focusing on downsides or nit picking it instead of being understanding or letting it be. Intentional misunderstandings basically. To constricting and not making sense. Prescription for someone else or a tailored suit for someone else that doesn't fit right. Metaphors? Next block. There's some.

So I think I'll try to comeback for another Marshalls surveys later. Was distracted thinking of a HomeGoods survey. https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ So my material? Hearing the term 'stand up' for people joking with others. My mom and my brothers spouse their best 'stand up' about whether it was me or the kids or other things. So the interest with starting a family but the lack of progress and barriers. Countless people blocking my shot. Making me uncomfortable? Harassing me? Have I given up? So next was the talk of the recent studies. Video games. So the open world feel. Places to explore. Places to interact with marketplaces merchants leaders etc. allies. Quests to complete. Places to go for quests. So errands. Translating some of these into reality? Or the stories behind it. The plot. The story arc. But not wanting drama. So static stuff? Disability? Remembering a video game developer I went to VCU with. So apparently not understanding why but remembering a tv commercial that hurt his feelings if I remember right. It was video game university a commercial for that. So the cutscenes. Pictures of his life and even issues? Playing Assassin's Creed Black Flag on switchlite remembering our interactions at VCU. Little momentoes. Don't know if his parents ever divorced or not. Searching for men's pouches but haven't really found anything. Messenger bags. https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/3L634MZPN66R4/ref=nav_wishlist_lists_1 But the messenger bag might be what I request for my Christmas gift this year from our gift draw our secret santa. So to be encouraging? How much money to spend each time and the comfort level. Spent a little more this time maybe $200 with mom. There were some good deals I didn't want to turn down. Also one of the workers I get a good vibe from and that encouraged me too. Looks like a manager. Later on we went to TJ Maxx on Rt1. I found a generic Washington Football team shirt that I liked a lot and bought. So here was one. Mom telling me to donate stuff when I get new stuff. So being able to let go of things I can replace out. What to keep and what to be ok with parting with. Is it junk then? Or should I use it more to get more money out of it? So explaining things. Not wanting to accumulate more junk according to my parents. But generousity? Or showmanship? Some of that would be a competitor for y'all would be DK Oldies. I really enjoy shopping there. Even if it's all online. Getting fun games to play and revolving around being a gamer. Waiting for a new game drop to come up on their site refreshing the feed. So men's clothes? Not looking or feeling gay. Maybe a tinge of the wind hitting me and remembering the 1900s or the 20th century and my grand parents? Or feeling cool and smart and other good adjectives funny. So clothes that were alternatives to tattoos or that idea? Posters? Treats? (was thinking of a frozen trader joe's breakfast ham and cheese croissant I had that I wasn't sure if I'd microwave while waiting for the day to start at my parents office). So married parents. Contributing to that. Tried I think it was Mi Sol in Mount Vernon yesterday. Get the vibe Mt Vernon people can be very cheap. So maybe being charitable at times? Scraps? But getting my moneys worth. Explaining advantages to charity? Someone being very thankful for what I did for them. Maybe being idolized as a result. Being a practicing Catholic. Confessions. Points? Midwife? Secret babies? Being a biological father? So me losing weight. Zepbound injections. Tirzepatide. So not doing bottoms for now since they might not fit soon. Also Costco pants were way better what I found the other day. Got 3 pairs. Banana Republic Wrangler. Grey like an elephant like a Republican. So they weren't too baggy or that style I didn't like. When I wanted a better fit of pants? And it did have the early Dylan style I mentioned before. Some timelessness? So when things get cosy or building up a reserve and having things be awesome. Maybe wearing size 40x30 pants now. Tops maybe XXXL or XXL or XXLT. So band tees. Graphic tees. Recently a good reference for my brother who I thought might be my half brother actually. Rancid. Lars Fredericksen and Tim Armstrong and Matt Freeman those were the only members whose name I knew. So think my brother might have been in a big love thing as a teenager that fell through. Cambodian maybe? His immaturity back then. Liking Fast and the Furious series back then. And the Rock. Dwayne Johnson. So fashion. Outfits? Punks? Hoodies? Hoods? Foreskin. Uncircumcised. So current affairs? Babies that might've been born from me? One in Warrenton? One in Pennsylvania? VCU times. So was my brothers son actually mine? Was his daughter actually someone else's? Things other people noticed back then that I was too meek to talk or think about. Time passing and things surfacing to an extent? Rolling on my back like a baby? Different memories of sex scenarios. A tree shooting out of my penis with a german woman on top of me. Then like a sprout getting turned into a sapling. So throwing water on pavement. Sizzling. Putting a coin in a drawer and closing it. Fat white butt and blonde hair. Amish horse drawn buggy pussy. A muscle. An organ. Coed cheese yeast. So spray paint? Designers? Spike Lee? But articulating points. Music videos. The big one of the effect of drugs on my clothes and body. Think my uncle and others noticed this one on me before. Bringing out hot bagel dogs from the convention oven. Eating a pepperoni roll hot out of the microwave. So my medicine. Mood stabilizer. Antipsychotic. Weight loss injection. Would women give me a chance? Not wanting to get divorced. Being all ready now. Never married never divorced no kids. Not wanting to deal with interracial sex issues. Not wanting to deal with black men. Is it possible for me to do this? How did other older men pull it off? Who will I end up leaving all my money to? 

https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ So catching up. The shopping experience? Let's see. A food I learned that was awesome was grits jelly and butter. That for saving money and being independent. So this as a checkpoint. Parts to improve or think of? Referencing my current studies. Video games and a comic compilation. So working through a Conan the Barbarian vintage collection hard cover. That being remembering my dad's parents and that era clearly. Reagan and the 80s? It was before things changed with especially the smart phones. Next was the RPG dynamic. That stands for role playing game. But thinking of that one more for exploration leveling up quests missions etc. Playing in which ever universe. So some of that would be like the market place. To get into character? And other nice highs as references. The amusement park with the character costumes. Big heads. Or a walkable experience and what all can be done. So thinking of me as my character. Upgrades. In those games usually there's things bought like health potions or armor stuff. So this ain't Walmart. Food mostly only and house goods. So dental products. Actually using them and following up with that. Time spent on my teeth. Got some good mouth wash from Costco. Describing some of these the term product. It was like something that seems special like a miracle cure. Good packaging. Good marketing. It might tell a little story or have some writing on it and good colors. But then again the generic options. Saving money and getting bigger sizes. So  the medieval lifestyle? Carnivals? The 1800s. I wonder why in those fantasies there isn't any real references to Jesus Christ. So western society. So the uniforms. Shoes that aren't embarrassing or too cheap? Different hair styles. Different workers. So here might be a little one in general. Things I can bring in my pouch I am interested in getting. I currently have a light carrier bag from a HMGS convention. So it's not a purse but it can feel nice bringing things with me since I commute and overnight. But I don't really have much time or anyone to interact with with my pouch goods so maybe not even using it really. Like no one to shoot dice with and I don't gamble. Or having pocket hand sanitizer with me. So the displays. Achieving the effect of a military influence? Remembering Norfolk VA and VA Beach. So that'd be like industrial grade things. And with the workers grade products not using the term blue collar insensitively or meanly rather I thought of that for good work wear products that came out around when I did VCU. Carhartt and Dickey's being awesome. So that'd be like strong sturdy and not arrogant or oofish or stupid. Polish and prestige. Improving the homeliness and coziness factors of the store. From workers to products to displays to arrangements. Like a focal point could be men or women adults who still live with their parent(s). So that being like answering questions about drug use or terminal life spans. It's crazy to think when you see older people that a lot of their peers are now dead. That being a story about me listening to advice warnings suggestions see going in the military or dropping out of university and being concerned with paying off my student loan. So where I was was those networks and friendships. Side not are you better off alone though? It was like football games late nights garages hang outs home decor. Posters. Here's one I just thought of that I think is a reasonable brilliant idea. Martins merch. EG at concerts the nights act would a lot of the times sell custom merch for their event. So what about Martin's graphic tees or a Martins poster? In some ways that's better than a band shirt or band poster. My experience and research has shown that almost every single time which ever famous example it is there is some deal breaker trivia about it I didn't know that later sort of ruins it to an extent. Like Fight Club I didn't know that I think they said the source material writer was gay. Or Brad Pitt he has a tattoo. But not letting those details interfere with things if that's something someone else enjoys. Just noticing some people could try to ruin those things for me over details like that. But is that reality to hear the other side? Or did I just get a good pressing or copy or performance of it and understand it? Truly having a good time. So mom made homemade pita's and had Greek I think any way chicken breast with it and toppings. Lettuce we forgot tomato and it was too late when we remembered tzatziki olive oil fetta cheese. The other day I ordered Texas chili mix from Hard Times Cafe online for my mom. I like that restaurants image. There was times there where I had LSD flashbacks or memories of designer stuff. That was like Ralph Lauren when they had a limited edition company Denim and Supply or thinking of some entertainers like models Jakob Dylan and the Wallflowers or others. Rockstars who had a jewish influence or good denim or cold fall days or other things associated with it. So the workers best 'stand up'. That being their understandings of where things stop at. That's like how I got to different conclusions. Giving up talking to trying to get women's phone numbers in public strangers. Complaints police teasing no follow through men harassing me men getting big with me food poisoning acting like I was crazy. Seemed believable right? No luck and spirit broken though. So work days. Stories. Gamers? Finger foods. Snacks. Treats. Cleaning products. Dental products. Bracelets? So maybe the local Martins with a local element added? The being near Hollywood Casino. Or whole some stuff. Catholic stuff. Or team spirit? Commanders? But that guy keeps getting injured Jayden Daniels. Grinding. Sharing. So a story was growing up for me people peers parents teachers friends etc would maybe play devil's advocate with me or tell me what would happen if I didn't do such and such. Now no one is in my life. So no more voices influencing me. Also my parents are still married. So that was maybe age brackets? On surveys you see different age choices like 18-24 25-36 36-44 44-50 50-60 etc or so. So different aged problems. Dental pay long term housing independence. Family offspring etc. Enjoying your work. Not going crazy from being not challenged or stimulated? Got some protein cheese gouda crackers from Costco that seem like they are an upgraded version of Cheez Its because I said those were like borderline poison these days. Knife in my fatty liver. Haven't had Cheez Its in a while so not sure if that is the case but another would be them having bad seed oils foods that put me to sleep. There's some for now. Next block.

So catching up. Where am I? Really? Am I supposed to try to start a family now? Did that already happen for me? So barriers. When I talk to women then men start harassing me and blocking me and getting big with me. When I was a boy I would've been terrified to do that. I'd lose my job or get in trouble or not graduate etc. So you can see why I am a good option now? I have two paychecks basically guaranteed. I have parents who want to help. I don't cheat. I never want to get divorced. I am retired and disabled. So you can see where I have advantages now over the boys there age right? I have distanced myself a lot from a lot of problems. So now being in West Virginia. Practicing Catholic. Catholic for almost a decade now. Why can't the men let me get one? Just one. It's not like they are entitled to all of them. And plus there's got to be one that wants me because I keep getting blown up about this. You see the advantage of fixed income payday now? So me being an older man now. About to turn 38 or 39 years old or so. Guess that's some for now.

So catching up. Little drained from an earlier survey. My point on that one was I am ready and think I am a good candidate for getting married (never divorcing) and starting a family. Having babies to raise to adults. https://aubdays.livejournal.com/ https://www.tumblr.com/helpfulson https://blakeuptin.blogspot.com/ https://www.youtube.com/@aubreynesbitt/playlists So I have basically two guaranteed paychecks. I am a disabled veteran. I am retired. I am a practicing Catholic and have been for several years now maybe since around 2020. I have military benefits. Moving on. My criteria? Basically a fertile white woman. Not much else. Is that a low bar? But parts like not wanting to deal with interracial sex or adultery. An issue I kept dealing with was not being able to get any opportunities with women. If I tried talk to women in person than I would get complaints police mislead faked teased turned down. Then also men would start getting big with me and harassing me. When I was a boy growing up I never would have done something like that. One my jobs were always at the border of firing me for no reason. And what else I had no way of supporting myself really back then. See that advantage? I already retired. I have free time. Think I might have chlamydia and that's about all as far as STDs. Suspect women may have had my babies while I was asleep before. All I really wanted was a woman to birth my biological children. Not too much to ask right? And I can provide. And I have parents who can help. Grand parents. So tired exhausted drained. Styles? Oh but past issues. It was all these cockameeny things I was dealing with. Epstein Petraeus Nidal Hasan. Now I seem to have escaped the drama and problems. So life in West Virginia. Commuting. St Peter's Harper's Ferry. St James Charles Town. Like DK Oldies lately. https://www.facebook.com/DKOldies/ https://www.facebook.com/aubrey.j.nesbitt/ https://www.dkoldies.com/ So I have assimilated. Current interests? Studying. Using my brain. Exercising my brain. Currently working through a Conan the Barbarian comic compilation hard cover book. Just finished Rick Rubin's book on creativity. Before that finally finished Big Sur and the Oranges of Hieronymus Bosch by Henry Miller that was very difficult. I can turn thing on and off. I can listen. I can understand. So haven't painted miniatures lately. Like helping my parents. They are married and never divorced. So keeping them alive and happy. Don't you see how good of a deal I am? Why aren't there women lunging at me? I don't have a drug problem. I have family. I have money. I am on a fixed income but it is secure. I have VA healthcare. If I died before my partner I could leave it all to her. Isn't that a big help? And isn't that quite a long guarantee? I am all the way ready. I don't cheat. My dad is my caregiver. I have long term housing. So I commute. I overnight. Between Alexandria VA and WV. I took care of my dog for this long if I could do that I think I could handle a baby. And a baby would be more rewarding. My own blood line. Couldn't just one woman give me a chance and have my biological baby and not divorce me? Hearing divorce was a high statistic in Virginia not liking that. So past issues gone. Haven't been playing the guitar. Missed making my movies. Have a new Campsnap CS8 camcorder. Have my smartphone. Have a Sony vlog video camcorder. Haven't really used my new camcorders. Maybe it's for the best I stopped doing those things. I can teach. I can access learning materials. I am responsible. I have a good car. I never had kids or got married. I could afford to raise children. Taking care of dental issues. Buying them clothes. Having a home we own. Having my parents overjoyous to be a part of that. Mom can cook. So many failed attempts. Have all my chances just passed me by? So explaining Ebenezer. Charles Dickens was a writer was that his pen name and persona. So that was I am not some stingy giant ahole gay man. I am in reality. I can only afford so much. So I am a disabled veteran. I try to help my brothers family too. So don't I deserve a chance? I served my country. I helped my unit and the military. I never really got in trouble or did what I wasn't supposed to. Always some explanation. So observations. Assessing things. Mom's been looking at rugs. Just one chance. Mom and me regularly go out shopping on dad's game night. Marshalls HomeGoods other places Trader Joe's Fort Belvoir PX Class 6 Commissary Kingstowne Mama's Kitchen El Paso Fresh World Costco Dishes of India. My favorite restaurant lately is Thai Ghang Waan. Another good one is Chef Huang. So healing. Recovering. Past evil bad people no longer in my life. Malicious intent. Me naive and taken advantage of and abused. Gone is that. So reading. Playing video games. Working through Assassin's creed Black Flag on the Nintendo Switch. The Switch 1. Have other games I haven't got around to yet. TMNT. NES classics compilation. Octopath Traveler. Mario Kart. Mario Golf. There's some of them. So the experience. Parking lot. Entrance. Workers. Aisles. Cashiers. Checkout. Bathrooms. Departments. Floor. Pinesol? My cleaning job lately. Exhausting. There's some for now.