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So yeah since my life isn't actually stressful right now, I guess it's time to actually pull up a chair with my demons.

Stuff I'm not afraid to talk about anymore.

Like for one, did you know I had an ex stalk me for 8 years?

I tell everyone about that now, because I just love to see the looks on their faces.

This person did everything they could to track me down, including using other unwitting people to carry out his dirty work.

So fun. That's all over now, I guess he aged out, or is too busy to care.

Good for him, I say. Healthy decision.

Also, I was really taken advantage of for the majority of my 20's and 30's.

Short list of culprits won't make this post, but they'll show up in others.

 
But yeah, I was suckered into some fucked up shit, on more than one occasion. I mean on some level, smarten up, right?

Well, I did. Now I'm really good at documenting shit and holding people accountable. So yeah, I don't recommend fucking with me any time soon.

But the thing that still really burns me up, was that I was made to feel GUILTY by the same people who I was exceedingly generous with, and that's not cool. They really need to take their part and at least own how demanding they were. At the very least.

See, my generosity was misinterpreted as naivete, first time around, second time I think the next person was genuinely naive themselves and couldn't even really comprehend the level of understanding they required. 

And they just kept asking for it. Not considering that I was a person and not a human emotion-ATM. I never really got anything back. Like, ever. 

...again!

I've actually learned a ton about myself in the last three years.
And apparently I've taught someone else how to be a better person in those years as well. I was floored by his vows, they were full of happy surprises <3

Three years ago I didn't think this would happen for us, really. 

And then when we got engaged, I couldn't even imagine how the day would turn out and it was better than I could have dreamed!

We are both super happy, which is apparently such a RARE thing you guys!