Poster:	ladybela
Date:	2005-09-19 00:51
Subject:	Hello, I'm a newbie to the community
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Hello, I just joined and to say hi.

Just wanted to say, I have been looking to find a group that delves into dealing with everyday stuff, working it through. The sensitivities of it all. I think I have found it.

Will post soon, Ladybela

Poster:	girl19
Date:	2005-01-10 09:54
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Ive made a lot of mistakes and a lot of bad decisions. Let me make it right! Let me forgive myself. Fuck, if I can't have anything else in the world, can I at least be allowed to forgive myself for my mistakes. Id trade the rest of my life to be at peace with myself. Why must all of this bubble up now. The flood gates are open I suppose and now its time to do some internal winter cleaning. I realize that sort of unintentionally I have begun purging myself of all of the secrets that have been rotting in the belly of my brain. I have been taking all of the things that scare me the most and pulling them up from the depths of the sea in my mind and laying it on the table for all to see, hopeing that somehow through this purging I'll find peace with it. I need to accept my life and mistakes and accept that it all has made me what I am today, and what I am today is not so bad. I have to love myself, and stop flogging myself for things I cannot change. I think right now I'm turning around and facing my worst fears. Im looking the beast within straight in the eye and I have to have faith in understanding. That somehow if I can see the nature of this beast I might be able to accept everything that mulches in my heart that makes me flinch. I think I can kiss this beast and watch it soften and curl into a corner and take a long sleep. I feel more alive right now than I have felt in years. What I'm trying to do right now is intensly difficult for me, but its time that I stopped being my own worst enemy, its time that I give up on fear. Its strange how one can be so afraid to let go of fear.

Poster:	girl19
Date:	2005-01-07 11:29
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Things are always as they should be. They can be no other way otherwise risking a catastrophic paradox. Under that pretext though, there are infinate possibilities for the way things ought to be. And so they will continue always to be the way they are. Acceptance of this truth is difficult, but it seems the only peace that I can rely on. It is easy sometimes to allow yourself to float through the web of experiences, letting one experience flow into the next without conscious forthought. I don't know if it is better to control and analize and rationalize befor moving on to the next experience. And I suppose it doesn't make a difference, because you'll always end up where you are. At this point I can't claim to be either an optomist or a pessimist. Maybe a title would make it easier to direct my thoughts. If I could construct a box around my ideas keeping them neat and tidy and conforming. Just knowing I try to build a box though nulifys it. I become aware of the box and its transparency and realize it doesn't exist, and so it doesn't. Is this just a theory that Ive built to avert my own responsabilities and make them the responsabilities of the universe. Do I construct a fantasy to take the blame from my shoulders and dilute it in the expansive everything of infinate possibilities? I suppose if I'm right about all this, it doesn't make a difference, because no matter my intentions the result will be as it will be.

Poster:	orderinthis
Date:	2004-12-27 17:48
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this is what i have to say :)

Poster:	orderinthis
Date:	2004-12-27 16:14
Subject:	In the act of observation, you change things.
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Has anyone heard of Shroedinger's Cat?

Poster:	girl19
Date:	2004-12-23 10:02
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I look forward to letting go of the bitterness and excepting the tide of life once again.

Poster:	bodhi_ronin
Date:	2004-09-06 17:46
Subject:	....pain and suffering....
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Mood:	contemplative

Is inevitable, neh? I'm considering everything I used to stand for... politics.... stopping war. Contemplating further... if it is all inveitable, one will suffer, why give way to hedonistic societies obsessed with drowning the inevitable? Death will happen. Pain will happen. Suffering will happen. Why must we deaden our senses of such natural effects? Why do we not embrace this inevitability?

Poster:	_cherry_picker_
Date:	2004-09-01 18:17
Subject:	From where doth this banter flow?
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Mood:	aware?

Is writing just an expansion of our egos? where does this process come from? When I sit back and allow for the thing in my head to simply flow i'm not attatching to them. When i write is there a subtle attatchment? I am letting go of the thoughts but it seems that i'm just trying to come up with more of the same egoo driven banter to fill the pages.

Perhaps this will pass.

Poster:	watchingmefall_
Date:	2004-08-29 09:53
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I used to love watching other people, studying them from afar.

These days, I can barely stand to look at them.

Poster:	watchingmefall_
Date:	2004-08-25 22:05
Subject:	Seems like an interesting community...
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I'd introduce myself, but that would be contradictory to the purpose of my journal. I'd like to share a snippet from my first post and hopefully get some feedback...

I constantly tell myself I would love to wake up each morning with a smile on my face, looking forward to another day. "Be careful what you wish for..." a voice tells me, "you just might get it."

Would that, in fact, be the worst possible fate? To completely love yourself and love your life? What, then, would one look forward to?

Poster:	cherryfractal
Date:	2004-08-13 19:06
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I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems dont rhyme, and some stories dont have a clear begining middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the most of it without knowing whats going to happen next.

Poster:	cherryfractal
Date:	2004-08-08 21:59
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Mood:	puzzled

People think because I'm happy all the time, that I don't have emotions.

Poster:	uvitic
Date:	2004-08-08 20:35
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I often find it hard to communicate my thoughts and feelings through English, though I speak it quite fluently. My voice sounds so alien to me.

Poster:	eclipsingcherry
Date:	2004-08-05 09:21
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I want to live each moment like I've lived it before,
but like I'm there for the first time...

Poster:	eclipsingcherry
Date:	2004-08-03 19:14
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nowadays most people die of a sort of creeping common sense, and discover only when it is too late, that the only things one never regrets, are one's mistakes.

Poster:	eclipsingcherry
Date:	2004-08-01 11:55
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id like to set a fire to my house...then rush back in
collecting and saving all the things....that mean the most to me
i wonder what they would be
those things, as the banisters and parts
falls down, smoldering around me
which would make the running, the flames....worth it.

Poster:	eclipsingcherry
Date:	2004-07-31 13:46
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I know why I'm so scared to be connected, I just wish I could fix it. This community is for betterment, improvement. I think that's one of the things I need to work on right now. *nod* my conciousness is completely expanded, and i love it. I can touch base on things that others only dream about - and that makes me extremely lucky.

But as for me..
I sometimes feel my energy is a curse. I attract too many people, in so many ways, and it's not the best thing at times. It happens everywhere..the street, where I live, people i meet.

I wonder why.

I guess I have to learn how to deal with having an attracting energy, and being able to deal with that. Being able to embrace the fact that people need me, and I'm here to help others.

I'm a massive ball of spiritual gunky energy floating through time.

I love this 3D spin around the sun

Poster:	_cherry_picker_
Date:	2004-07-31 13:20
Subject:	Ten Virtues?
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Mood:	thoughtful

Generosity
May I be generous and helpful

Morality
May i be well disciplined and refined in manners.
May i be pure and clean in all my dealings.
May my thoghts words and deeds be pure.

Renunciation
May I not be selfish and self possessive, but
selfless and disinterred.
May i be able to sacrifice my pleasure for the sake
of others

Wisdom
May i be wise and able to see things as they truely are.
May i see the light of truth and be able to lead
others from darkness into light.
May i be enlightened and be able to enlighten others.

Energy
May i be energeitc, vigorous and preserving.
May i strive diligently until i achieve my goal.
May i be feasless in facing dangers and courageously
surmount all obsticles.
May i be able to serve others to th ebest of my ability.

Patience
May i ever be patient
May I be able to bear and forebear the wrongs of others.
May i ever be tolerant and see the good and beautiful
in all.

Truthfullness
May i ever be truthfula nd honest.
May i not swerve from the path of truth.

Determination
May i be firm and resolute and have an iron will.
May i be soft as a flower and firm as a rock.
May i ever be high principled.

Loving Kindness
May i ever be kind, friendly and compassionate.
May i be able to regard all as my brohters and my sisters
and become one with all.

Equanimity
May i ever be calm, serene, unruffled and peaceful.
May i gain a balanced mind.
May i have pefect equanimity.

May i serve to be most excellent
May i be most excellent to serve

TO understand this article profoundly would be the apex of my human existence. TO maintain the concepts and ideological ideals with total balance wothout deviation from one extreme to another would be euphoric.

Eddie

Poster:	_cherry_picker_
Date:	2004-07-31 13:12
Subject:	Enlightenment; Esoteric?
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Mood:	contemplative

*From an earlier post i made as a comment to a friend. I thought I might share my ramblings with all of you*

Is it not strange that some of the most profound realisations humankind has been blessed with is said to be totally esoteric and reserved for thise who are willing to forego regular everyday existence in the world? I don;t think that this is at all healthy. We need to have, as a collective whole, a basic understanding from whiche we can all grow exponentially with one another without the need to segregate ourselves from the daily trivialitites of existing. If enlightenment is really true enlightenment it seems that there would be an uncondition clause somewhere. Someone truely inclined would be able to exist in any environment because they are truely aware. Nothing from the outside, especially something as transient as a social condition or mass attitude, would be able to adhere itslef to an idea of waning conciousness. Contrairiwise neither could anything on the inside. thoughts feelings and emotions would all coincide with the new paradigm.

Does this make any sense to you? Summary: Enlightenemet is unconditional unbiased and exists in any dynamic.

Poster:	_cherry_picker_
Date:	2004-07-31 12:34
Subject:	Consiousness Singularity
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Mood:	contemplative

The '''Consciousness Singularity''' refers to a hypothetical point of time in the future when human consciousness, at both the personal and species level, experiences an abrupt transition, a phase transition of sorts, into a collective state of transcendence that is conceptually impossible for us to imagine "what it's like" with our current limited cognitive abilities.

The term "Singularity", as used in this article's context, is an analogy to the well-known singularity in physics, the black hole, where you cannot see beyond the event horizon because light cannot escape from it. In a similar manner, we cannot see (or imagine) what's beyond the Consciousness Singularity because it is beyond our cognitive and imaginative capabilities.

The Consciousness Singularity bears no relation to the Technological Singularity, made famous by Vernor Vinge, and which involves the creation of smarter-than-human machines. Nor is it synonymous with Tielhard de Chardin's Omega Point.

To get a better intuition for the Consciousness Singularity, imagine, if you will, what a monkey or a rat would experience if suddenly its consciousness became like that of a human. Before the transition, it would be incapable of imagining what it's like to have human consciousness simply because it's beyond its limited cognitive capabilities. In the same manner, our species will undergo such abrupt transitions in consciousness of such magnitude that we cannot even begin to fathom what these new states of consciousness are like.

At the Consciousness Singularity, history as we know it, will cease. The universe, as we experience it now, will cease. Consider the most transcendent and mystical states of consciousness that have yet been experienced by mankind: these will pale in comparison with what's to come.

At the Consciousness Singularity, our consciousness will be expanded beyond the confines of an egocentric sense of self to include transpersonal experiences and transcendent self-identity. This new existence will be both a form of collective consciousness and a form of expanded individual consciousness. Though sounding like a contradiction, these two descriptions of transcendent consciousness are really flip sides of the same coin. The Consciousness Singularity is so far beyond our normal consciousness, that we cannot even begin to comprehend it, much less imagine what it's like to experience directly, unless we ourselves experience or have experienced transcendent states of consciousness.

S. Mikula, 2001

This is the first known articulation of the Consciousness Singularity.