Ever feel like you need to go? You just need to leave? But there's one, maybe two things stopping you.

I don't belong here. It's all wrong. I'm not happy. I'm lonely. There's gotta be something more. But what? And how in hell do I find it?

There ARE a few things here that I don't want to leave.

And there ARE a few people. Some of them know it and some of them I wish, for once, would fully comprehend how much I want to be a part of their lives. But maybe they never will. Or, alternatively, maybe they already do but just aren't comfortable with it.

Either way, it's a bummer.

A real fuckin' bummer.

Sometimes you just have to walk away. You have to tell yourself "I did what I could and I gave it my best shot". Because, in reality, you can't win them all. You can try and try. You can push and push. But, after awhile you realize that your pushin ain't doing shit. And it's at that point that you a) change your strategy or b) give it up. I'm picking B, kids.

I got my car back from the dealership. Man, it's good to have him back. All that work and it feels like I'm driving a brand new car. Beautiful.

I was driving down 20 right after I picked him up and all of a sudden a huge rock flies off this truck in front of me. BAM! Dead on hit. I got home and examined the damage... big scratches on the left fron panel. :(

And then I was 2 hours late for work. Because they shut 20 down going both east and west because of some stupid barrel that fell in a creek. WTF, man. Thinking I was being smart I took a detour. WRONG MOVE, EINSTEIN! It was worse than the highway. In any case, I finally made it here. All my students are gone now and I'm reading LJ and working on grades.

Hope everyone is having a better day than me.