Oh Bring Me The Light Of Days
Couldn't sleep well last night . . . And I was working at 8a.m for once, so that did not help XP I felt tired, obviously, but also sick. I couldn't eat... Just like my doggie :( I am alone with him right now and it is excruciating. He has this big tumor on his chest, but we didn't have the money to chirurgically have it taken off. Plus, the vet told us there were chances it wasn't deadly. So we carried on . . . Then, very recently, he started taking pills and was the bright little sunshine he always was, again ! Then, he stopped swallowing them and any other food for that matter. Now he is as skinny as ever and does nothing. Either he lies down and coughs or he stands on his legs starring idly at the floor and won't look up to you. For the most part, it just looks as tough he just wants to take naps all day, but I look into his eyes and I know otherwise . . . I don't know what's happening ; all I know is I want him to get better ; even if this means losing him . . . I look at him and it's like he's gone already. It is not something that keeps me depressed troughout the days, which doesn't mean that I don't care, but anytime I look at him... Ugh ! I just wish I could do something ! You know? Free him ! But at the same time, I don't want him to leave us . . . He's been with us for over 10 years. He is like my mother's baby boy and my little brother. There will be a void, but also relief, once he leaves ( hopefully ) peacefully . . . Oh god. Why do I love animals so much ? XD Or more importantly ; why do they die?! Ugh. Know what I mean, anyone ? :P
They're not like us, exactly ; they can't tell you what you can do to help, they don't tell you exactly how they feel . . . You just remain by their side, hoping for the best, and loving them with all your soul.
Anyways, here's a little meme to pass the time.
1. Make a list of 5 things that you can see without getting up.
- A ' Paramore' Poster
- An 'Avril Lavigne' Poster
- My computer
- An 'Inglourious Basterds' Poster
- An home-made Robert Downey Jr. / Evangeline Lilly / 'Zachary Quinto' Poster
No, I don't have a poster obsession, what the hell are you talking about?!...
2. How do you style your hair? Basically, I just dry 'em, add hairspray and ruffle 'em around ! Simple - messy ! Or if I have time, I just iron them down flatly, à la Avril :3
3. What are you wearing now? My 'N7' Mass Effect hoodie ( Thanks Daddy ! <3 ) and my Dark Knight : The Joker PJs pants. Yay, being home alone, and fashionable !
4. What's your occupation? I work in the Boulangerie department of an IGA Extra grocery store. My tasks range from making cakes, various desserts, cooking bread and answering customers. I love it, tough that now that its expanded into an IGA Extra, some days are very rock n' roll . . . But we're finally getting a hold of the new systems.
5. What do you hear right now? The buzzing of my computer. . .
6. Who was the last person you hugged? My boss ! She's the greatest ever. We had lost a very important piece for one of our machines, and I found it, so she glomped me saying ' OMG THANK YOU ! I owe you a dozen beers ! ' XD
7. What is/was for dinner? Kraft Dinner . . . Didn't have the energy to cook ! I didn't eat that in forever. I used to eat that like every day, in high school...Now I kinda wonder why, hah. Well yeah wasn't exactly the best meal, for my sick self.
8. What's the last movie you saw? Splice. Can you say disturbing yet good ? I think it was very cool. And my little Adrien Brody crush resurfaced, also !
9. Dog person or cat person? That's a tough one . . . I always had both, so I really don't know. I guess if I really had to choose I would say Cats - they're more independant.
10. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? Ohhh good question ! I think I'd choose Alexia :) I freaking LOVE that name.
11. What was the last thing that you bought? Hmm. Candies I think ?
12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go? DISNEY LAND !! With all my family :) It'd be the best ; but they'd have to keep up with me, haha. I'd be running around, like crazy. Or New York city. I went there in Senior year, but you know school trips . . . always rushing off to the next activity ! I'd like to go back and enjoy the city calmly and visit. I wouldn't live there, but I love it.
13. Where do you see yourself in five years? Hopefully? Touring around with my band, our with Hannah, producing our latest scripts. But more realistically ; living by myself for the first time, in my first apartment, and probably still studying.
14. Favorite book? Y'know what I really don't read anymore, yet there are a lot I wish I did. I mean last books I red were the Twilight series (shame on me), and I gave up midway trought the third one and because the movie madness started XD So I don't have a favorite...I'd love to read Stephen King's work, or the Sookie ( True Blood ) series, tough. Any suggestions?
15. What are you doing this weekend? Working tomorrow, but I have Sunday off, so I'll hopefully be finishing my Art projects. Have to study draw my own hands XP
16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play? Guitar or Piano . . . If only one ; Piano.
17. How are you? Gloomy, I guess . . . My nose is stuffy and my stomach hurts a lil'. I feel like a 6 year old, hah.
18. What are you doing tomorrow? Working ; then I'm off to party at a friend's place, so hopefully I'll feel better.
19. What are you looking forward to the most? Hmph that's vague . . . In the nearest future, I'd say I can't wait for Avril Lavigne's new album ; just a few more days :)
They're not like us, exactly ; they can't tell you what you can do to help, they don't tell you exactly how they feel . . . You just remain by their side, hoping for the best, and loving them with all your soul.
Anyways, here's a little meme to pass the time.
1. Make a list of 5 things that you can see without getting up.
- A ' Paramore' Poster
- An 'Avril Lavigne' Poster
- My computer
- An 'Inglourious Basterds' Poster
- An home-made Robert Downey Jr. / Evangeline Lilly / 'Zachary Quinto' Poster
No, I don't have a poster obsession, what the hell are you talking about?!...
2. How do you style your hair? Basically, I just dry 'em, add hairspray and ruffle 'em around ! Simple - messy ! Or if I have time, I just iron them down flatly, à la Avril :3
3. What are you wearing now? My 'N7' Mass Effect hoodie ( Thanks Daddy ! <3 ) and my Dark Knight : The Joker PJs pants. Yay, being home alone, and fashionable !
4. What's your occupation? I work in the Boulangerie department of an IGA Extra grocery store. My tasks range from making cakes, various desserts, cooking bread and answering customers. I love it, tough that now that its expanded into an IGA Extra, some days are very rock n' roll . . . But we're finally getting a hold of the new systems.
5. What do you hear right now? The buzzing of my computer. . .
6. Who was the last person you hugged? My boss ! She's the greatest ever. We had lost a very important piece for one of our machines, and I found it, so she glomped me saying ' OMG THANK YOU ! I owe you a dozen beers ! ' XD
7. What is/was for dinner? Kraft Dinner . . . Didn't have the energy to cook ! I didn't eat that in forever. I used to eat that like every day, in high school...Now I kinda wonder why, hah. Well yeah wasn't exactly the best meal, for my sick self.
8. What's the last movie you saw? Splice. Can you say disturbing yet good ? I think it was very cool. And my little Adrien Brody crush resurfaced, also !
9. Dog person or cat person? That's a tough one . . . I always had both, so I really don't know. I guess if I really had to choose I would say Cats - they're more independant.
10. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? Ohhh good question ! I think I'd choose Alexia :) I freaking LOVE that name.
11. What was the last thing that you bought? Hmm. Candies I think ?
12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go? DISNEY LAND !! With all my family :) It'd be the best ; but they'd have to keep up with me, haha. I'd be running around, like crazy. Or New York city. I went there in Senior year, but you know school trips . . . always rushing off to the next activity ! I'd like to go back and enjoy the city calmly and visit. I wouldn't live there, but I love it.
13. Where do you see yourself in five years? Hopefully? Touring around with my band, our with Hannah, producing our latest scripts. But more realistically ; living by myself for the first time, in my first apartment, and probably still studying.
14. Favorite book? Y'know what I really don't read anymore, yet there are a lot I wish I did. I mean last books I red were the Twilight series (shame on me), and I gave up midway trought the third one and because the movie madness started XD So I don't have a favorite...I'd love to read Stephen King's work, or the Sookie ( True Blood ) series, tough. Any suggestions?
15. What are you doing this weekend? Working tomorrow, but I have Sunday off, so I'll hopefully be finishing my Art projects. Have to study draw my own hands XP
16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play? Guitar or Piano . . . If only one ; Piano.
17. How are you? Gloomy, I guess . . . My nose is stuffy and my stomach hurts a lil'. I feel like a 6 year old, hah.
18. What are you doing tomorrow? Working ; then I'm off to party at a friend's place, so hopefully I'll feel better.
19. What are you looking forward to the most? Hmph that's vague . . . In the nearest future, I'd say I can't wait for Avril Lavigne's new album ; just a few more days :)
