My classes only start in three hours, yet I've been up for an hour now. About to dry my hair neatly...Wait I hear what you're saying WHAT THE HELL are you doing up early, you usually lazy bitch?! Well the answer is here ;

He is gone. The pain is finally over.

It is ironic ; I went to bed after finally writting down my feelings about my sick dog, and in the morning, I was woken up by my dad who asked if I wanted to tell Pooky goodbye. The decision had finally been made ; we could not let him suffer any longer. Obviously, I said goodbye. He was shivering, his eyes would barely lift to meet ours. But I want to remember him as he used to be ; the joyful little fur ball that I would so often pick on, like one would do with a little brother. I always called him stupid and stinky... But I loved this stupid and stinky little boy with all of my heart.

I cried much more than I expected myself to. As a matter of fact, I cried again today, just looking at a picture ! Like my mother said '' What is wrong with us, caring about those little fur balls, so much?! '' Hahah. Our family won't be the same anymore, but I'm really happy he sticked around with us for so long...

I wanna thank you girls for your sweet and supportive comments. You are the best !! <3 ALRIGHT NOW. Back to the fangirly entries, starting now, hah. With a bonus pic, under the cut.

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Couldn't sleep well last night . . . And I was working at 8a.m for once, so that did not help XP I felt tired, obviously, but also sick. I couldn't eat... Just like my doggie :( I am alone with him right now and it is excruciating. He has this big tumor on his chest, but we didn't have the money to chirurgically have it taken off. Plus, the vet told us there were chances it wasn't deadly. So we carried on . . . Then, very recently, he started taking pills and was the bright little sunshine he always was, again ! Then, he stopped swallowing them and any other food for that matter. Now he is as skinny as ever and does nothing. Either he lies down and coughs or he stands on his legs starring idly at the floor and won't look up to you. For the most part, it just looks as tough he just wants to take naps all day, but I look into his eyes and I know otherwise . . . I don't know what's happening ; all I know is I want him to get better ; even if this means losing him . . . I look at him and it's like he's gone already. It is not something that keeps me depressed troughout the days, which doesn't mean that I don't care, but anytime I look at him... Ugh ! I just wish I could do something ! You know? Free him ! But at the same time, I don't want him to leave us . . . He's been with us for over 10 years. He is like my mother's baby boy and my little brother. There will be a void, but also relief, once he leaves ( hopefully ) peacefully . . . Oh god. Why do I love animals so much ? XD Or more importantly ; why do they die?! Ugh. Know what I mean, anyone ? :P

They're not like us, exactly ; they can't tell you what you can do to help, they don't tell you exactly how they feel . . . You just remain by their side, hoping for the best, and loving them with all your soul.

Anyways, here's a little meme to pass the time.

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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, YOU EXOTIC QUEEN ! ! You are the one who brought me to LJ in the very first place, forever long ago, because you were my prime and most cherished source for Avril Graphics <3 May you continue to spoil us with your work, and refreshing fangirly entries and envious Concert adventures !! Much love <3 <3 Chose Zachary Levi cause, well, he's your new layout, and because I'm excited for Tangled like a little kid and am MAD CRUSHING On Flynn&&His voice :3 teehee. HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT BIRTHDAY!

&& I know, still a ghost ! But for once, you don't have to feel rejected, dear LJ. I've been a ghost most likely everywhere, much to my own dismay D8 As I mentioned, I got the job at the Grocery Store, and I am very glad! Good income, and all in all, I actually do love my job. Of course, somedays I'm grumpy and wanna stay in bed, but hey - it's ten times better than spending week end nights in a basement, doing dishes, and therefore watching your social life pass you by. I mean - I make bread and cupcakes, ya'll ! WOOT. Thing is since I only got two College classes for now, Since I'm not accepted as a full-time-student cause I fail last semester, I am always free except tuesday, so I work A LOT ! Okay not that much, I'm councious of that, but I feel like all I do is work XP So when I get home I'm just either crawling to bed or lazying it up downstairs, in front of my lovely Xbox. . . Ahhh, Xbox... Anyways!

I'm gonna start posting those character bios and stuff for my Youtube channel, so as to link them in my description, so I can redirect all these OMFG WHEN WERE EVANGELINE AND RDJ IN A MOVIE TOGETHER THAT IS INSANE?! commeters. Ahhh, idiots who can't read . . . I love you. ( I hafta - you're like my only subscribers... XP ) Also just because I love to make it all sound like very deep intricate stories that will make it as big as Twilight did real soon ( And why the hell would they not?! ) So yeah feel free to ignore 'em when they arrive :) Not that I want you to ! I love comments - omnom !

CHRISTMAS TIME SOON ! Anyone started their wishlist? Mine is consisted of shit tons of CDs and DVDs, as always, haha ! But now what really excites me since last year, when I first started working and having money for myself, is buying gifts for my family and friends. I just love to give :D I already got my Bro's prezzie ; He will SPAZZ ! :3 How bout you girlies? What do you like most about Christmas ( unless you're a Grinch? Which I totally respect. I mean that green dude was my Idol as a kid - no kidding XD I drew all these comics of me as ' The Grinch's apprentice ' where we wrecked havok on those poor little Whos... Oh god. Why do I always leave LJ anyway? I FUCKING LOVE TO RAMBLE, I realize !)

Much Love ; La freak xxx ( That should be my fucking stage name. IN YO' FACE, LA ROUX ! I CAN BAFFLE FRENCH, TWO! )

Note to myself ; I need an Icon that says ALERT I swear a lot or smt.

Hey Pepsies ! Thought I'd update :P

I actually got the job I mentionned in my last post! I'm still technically an ' employee in training ' tough, so nothing is solid yet, but I have high hopes! I think I'm doing fine. It's at the ( hmm correct translation plz... ) Bread&Pastries departmentof a grocery store, if I may express myself like a five year old :P Hahah. So it's really cool cause I basically cook deserts and bread all day! And the whole staff is awesome ( well the Boss is moody sometimes, but who isn't?! ) and I work with two of my BFF Girls from College <3 I really hope I'll be officially hired.

Also, speaking of College, I got ' kicked out ' because I failed the only 4 classes I had . . . XD Did I mention I fail at school, and wish I could just mafically be in Hollywood and act or sing for a living? Haha dreams and aspirations ! So I'm gonna be temporarily re-accepted into two or three classes ( hopefully including an Art Major subject ) and if I can pass them I'll be allowed back as a full time student. I really wish for at least ONE Art class, cause how am I to be motivated with only the same old English and French classes?! College is supposed to be much better cause you're finally into what you WANT to study... Yeaaah, can't wait to finally be able to do that ! XD

And another bummer; Lady Gaga kicked off her tour in MY region, here in Québec / Montréal and I COULDN'T GO *sobs* How cruel is life? Still - so cool that we were the first city to see her new tour :)

Well that's not very upitty-bit, but still, I'm doing fine and having a good summer :) Went to see Toy Story 3 today with my mom... OHHHH MY CHILDHOOD ! ! A great ending to an awesome, timeless franchise :) The 3D was completely useless, however . . .

And how is your summer going, pretty things?! See Ya!

ALSO, RANDOM THOUGHT ; My jaw just dropped as I realised I actually have 53 subscribers on Youtube ! Yet I barely get any feedback . . . XD Ohhh Ironic world. But hey, it's Youtube! And I ain' vidding for popularity.

Hehh Guess how dumb I am ?

The credit for my perfect layout was like FIRST THING UP THERE in teh CSS Code ! SO YAY I RE-FOUND THE MAKER, AND CREDIT IS PUT WHERE IT'S DUE, IN MY PROFILE! <3 So I made a new sexy header, centered it and all, so now LJ life is good and I almost feel like I haz a Brain! YAY !

In other news, I got a call for a Job I applied for like a month ago because two of my close friends work there. I wasn't counting on it anymore, but now she called! YAY ! It's at the bread store in my local Grocery Store. Have no idea what it's like. We shall see!

La la la la !

Ohhhnz don't think I forgot. . .



Teehee YUP RDJ & Evie wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! 8D This day is aaaall yours sweetie, hope you'll celebrate ! ILU !

&&IT'S SUMMER TIME PEPSIES ! And you know what's the first thing I did?! I finally found Season Four of Supernatural in my damn town ! AND IT WAS ONLY 18$ ! ! WAAAA! 8D So I bought it as an end of finals treat, and finally got to catch up ! I litterally devoured this season. I'm already trought it and GAWWW SUCH DRAMS ! I just don't know what to say. Well for starters I didn't like the ' new Ruby ', and I kinda felt bad about it cause I knew most people hated her and that it must have been so hard for that actress! I'm just thorn - I don't know if it's because Katie Cassidy wouldn't come back because of Harper's Island, or because the writters just thought it wasn't logical that she'd just come back in the same body ( which I can very well understand, tough it breaks me heart ) When it got real bad I'd just try to put Katie Cassidy's face on hers, but that rarely worked... So I guess that had to do with the fact that the whole ' in the end I'm the supra-bitch ' showdown didn't really do much to me. I was kinda like WELL DUH, SAM ! XD Hahah.

At least I won't have to wait for season 5 because they have it on this website I use to catch up on Shows. ch131.com, if you wanna give it a go. Yeah it's decent quality streaming, but it does the job... Speaking of job I went job hunting today -_- and it wasn't fructious ! I actually have no problem with sitting on my butt all summer, but I need money XP Pffft.

ALRIGHT now that I'm all free to nerd all I want, I hafta revamp that LJ. I'm totaly in love with my layout but for some STUPID reason I messed up the CSS with a new banner, and I lost the credit of the rightful maker of this beautyous layout ! ! D8 So I can't re-find the CSS and all that Jazz...*sobs* ! ! ! I'll have to find a new one... Cause having a layout I can't credit just DOESN'T FLY! NUH UH ! Awwwh please god, just magically give me the name of the maker of that perfect skin . . .

Remind me to make an LJ cut next time I'mma start rambling, btw, hah ! Ciao Bellas !

Hey Peeps ! I'm still posting - I'm proud of myself 8D

Told you I'd make youtube updates on here, so here I am ! I was part of a Collab for the first time ever, and it was so grand because it's held by Kat ( littletonpace ) who I like OWRSHIP as a Vidder, and who is like super open minded about Ocs - hell she even has some, and vids them! So her latest collab was about that; OC and I managed to get a spot :) I vidded to my Lost OC ; Marie, Sawyer's estranged daughter ( who as you may recall WAS imagined before Clementine was introduced in flash backs, m'ka? I love precising ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUtxLdQsUhI

You can find my part at about 2;55, where Marie is portrayed by Avril Lavigne!

Honnestly some OCs I totaly didn't get, because I don't watch shows they're involved with, but most of them blew me away! I don't love Sophia Bush as a playby but I really loved the manips of her with Sylar of someone's OC, and the Michelle Rodriguez OC for Supernatural was also very interesting. So good job to them, and hope you all wnjoy this collab. I'm sure everyone worked hard.

Have a good week, preciousessssnz!

WADDUP PEOPLE OUTSIDE OF CANADA?! Woo yay I got your attention now cause I used caplocks...I am SMART!

Jus' updating uselessly to remind myself I have to get serious with this Journal after I'm done with finals... Just a week left YAY! And I still don't have a job! *sobs* Someone wants me to make them icons for 20$ bucks a day? hahaha I kid I kid. I really need a job, dang...

I just want to send some scripts to RDJ so he can go all '' Ouhhh me kissing Evangeline Lilly? This pleases me intensely, little girl! Here's 10000$ ! Come live with me and my wife so we can start working on that movie already... '' Hahah DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONS XP

So how 'bout you gurlies? Already on summer break, yet? Or in summer at all? I thought summer was here, yesterday, then this morning it started snowing and now I have this crazy cold that makes me speak like Marilyn Manson and sing like Courtney Love...Yeah I know, that's sexy. YAY CANADA WEATHER!

See you soon with new movie reviews and graphs! ( Saw Iron Man 2 this friday WEEE and I loved it. I was scared it would disapoint. )

Love, kisses, and germs! Cause I'm sick remember? <3

Kristine (xtine005) nudged me to update my livejournal. . . *sobs* I IS LOVED !

Well Kristine just for this random act of careness, I'll try to start updating here again! I'm thinking of making this the official companion to my youtube Channels! Here are the links;

Music Vids; http://www.youtube.com/user/LaminaJones
Covers; http://www.youtube.com/user/LaminaForReal

I'm in my first semester of College EVER and this is finals week, so obviously, I won't be crazy this week. But Kristine and Amaya, if you're reading this, you are my GIRLS, and I do still read your LJs ( and your facebook Amaya...cause I'm a stalker ;P ) Sorry if I don't comment!

I'll see you soon! For real this time . . .
Love, Lamy xxx