Long time since I posted here. Life has taken some weird turns lately.

I buried my brother 2 days ago, he was killed in an explosion during an attack on the patrol base called Airport Lounge in Afghanistan on the 21st of June but we wasn't able to get his body back till then to bury him.

We held a full Military Funeral for him, halting the entire town. Surprisingly a lot of people from the town turned up to show their support. A lot of his friends from his old Royal Marine Commando unit turned up, along with a lot of Navy officials.

He was the youngest of 3 at 23 but he ended up doing more than either of his older brothers, and I'm proud to say he was my bother. We may have fought, and argued but we was there when we needed each other.

I'm not religious so I'll just add this.

Paul you'll be missed.

Hmm It's been at least a year since I last posted. So what has happened to little 'ole me?

I finally got put back on anti-depressants after 9 years, finally snapped around march and haven't been back to work since. Logically I know I have no reason to be suffering from this but if life always adhered to logic I'd never get laid. Apparently they make me more often and fun to be around.

As such my sleeping pattern is whacked and varies from no sleep to a full night, to falling asleep at the drop of a hat during the day. I'm naturally lazy but this is obscene, I was going to pack it all in and finally learn Sign language and move away from IT despite it being something I have a natural affinity for but fell asleep on the day I was meant to turn up and sign for the course so missed that for another year.

Other than that not much has happened, I sleep, eat, sleep eat, sleep eat..they say you get from life what you put into it if that's true someone is screwing me out of Chocolate cake.

Till next time.

Hmm, well 4 months on what has happened?

I've had a girlfriend, twice. Same one :P She's the exact opposite of me. Doesn't game, think's anime/sci fi is stupid. Doesn't understand why I get ocd over certain things that interest me and wants me to be around 24/7. She's a self confessed compulsive liar and hates being alone, so is damned clingy. Ah well it's done for now.

Only took her back because I felt sorry for her, which isn't the best way to make a relationship. Yarr well.

In other news, WAR! Sept 18th. Finally. I also only have £6,200 or $12,000 dollars of debt to pay off before I'm debt free, well till I get a mortgage or something daft.. So another 3 years D:

Had jury duty, was interesting. Wouldn't like to comment on what but let's just say it wasn't a pleasant allegation. Whatched an Interesting anime called Planetes the other day, was about of all things space salvage. Interesting (and adult) plot, nothing else comes to mind.

oh yeah i still have my job =p

Hmm, in a really odd mood tonight.

I've been hanging out with this group of people who are really great people. They're slightly geeky and they're fun. Out of this group of 5 people one girl had taken to me... which is odd. To be honest. She'd basically asked me out and I turned her down. Once. Twice. Three times.

I got a call today demanding that I meet her in preston and tell her why I wasn't interested. Now I've just done 10 hours today. 11 If you count the fact I have an hour for dinner. (Yes this is work). So I told her I wasn't going to, she went off on one and made an Ultimatum of I either meet or or she cuts off all contact with me. Now I've only known this girl for like... 3-4 months so I've no idea what the hell she's playing at. Anyways. I get several texts off everyone telling me I'm being a dick.

What the hell? Isn't a no enough? I'm liking being single. Suits me better I think, safer for all involved.I've got bills (Big 'uns) to pay, can't be chasing after women.

In other news, I reactivated my wow account. Jesus, I forgot how bad the pvp was. Slowly getting my rogue up to 70 and I'm thinking of pvp my little black heart out to pimp my druid out since his gear is so far behind the power curve since I stopped playing it's not funny. I got two shot by a rogue in bear form ffs. I'm tempted to roll a priest for a challenge, alliance one... who am I kidding. Horde ftw.

Well it's been a weird few months, my gfx card gave out and I've not really had much of a job to buy a new one.  My birthday has rolled around so I've got one on the cheap.

I'm signed up to 7 (yes seven) agencies all of which say that they currently can't find me a job. I've broken a finger helping someone move flats on my birthday. It's been great. If you can't tell I'm being sarcastic.

Now I want to play WoW again. After 6 months of not playing. I'd restart on the Euro servers if It wasn't for the fact that my druid is "teh awesome" and that I'd played it to oblivion, or the fact that It brought parts of me to light that aren't great (I'm an obsessive arse).  Doesn't help that I'm while I'm interested in raiding it's pointless, the pvp is shite. I've no one to play with (while I'm an introvert in person, MMO's make me talk like I'm on speed) or the fact that.... Yeah I think I'll not play.

WAR come out already, I'm ready to gank the Order and have some really weird hatred of the opposing side that Factional MMO's generate.

Greenkins ftw.
Johnny Cash ftw too

Ha, finally an interview after being turned down for so long. Doing basic clerical stuff but hell I can get back on my feet again.

This song is great, classical music/opera style mixed in with rap. (Yes I know Libera Me is also part of mass) Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann was great, had great animation and music.

Srsly.

I need to get over these things, I no longer have or should have an opinion on it.

I am not perfect and I don't claim to be
And if that's what you wanted
Well then I'm so sorry

How about a better version of, the way that I am
How about a better version that, makes me understand
How about a better version of, the way that I am
The way I look, The way I speak,
How about a better version of me