I'm sorry LJ, I've turned to you in an emo moment for a little bit of releif.
... I miss how I felt when I was with Chris.
Since moving to Sydney, I've tried being with 2 different guys... neither of which, made me feel ANYWHERE as awesome as Chris did.
I don't know how to meet guys, I don't know how to make them LIKE me, and I hate liking guys only to have them friendzone me because I'm a total dork.
*finds a magical fix-it button*
I come to you with a tale of, well, my odd feelings at the moment.
Here's the story!
There's a dude I've been chatting to for ages, seems awesome, we hung out quite a deal, and I quite fancy him.
He also met my Ex not too long ago.
He has now asked my ex on a date...
...
Wait it gets weirder.
My Ex is asking ME what he's like!
x.x
This is all kinds of fucked up in my head. I need some drugs, or some sort of distraction, cause this is all kinds of yuck I don't wanna think about
it just makes me feel, eugh.
Grats if you still follow and read this btw, and hello out there!
So I went on a date the other night, where a movie was observed, a train was caught and a frantic, lost and almost-missing-my-stop me went screaming from the carriage.
Now, riddle me this.
WHAT DID I DO SO FANTASTICALLY RIGHT?!
Pros:
Peircings!
Older than I (he's only 26, calm yourselves gentlemen)
Sense of humor!
EMPLOYED! :D
GAMER
PLAYS FUCKING WOW!
Cons:
That poserish look... Look at him! Poser! D:
Fear
Doubt
His mental state during said date, was he sane to even stick around? IT'S A MYSTERY!
Either way, I'm QUITE excited for now! :D
I'll be mopping the floor of my drool from this one for a long time gentlemen, a long time indeed.
NOW
Here's hoping
I don't FUCK IT UP!
He also said "You be mighty cute!" at the end of a text message
THIS CAN ONLY MEAN GOOD! :D
I keep looking for the string... there's always a catch... There always is!
But, gentlemen, till I find said catch, I'm going to squee my itty bitty brains out. ^.^
TTFN!
<3
Cammikinz
.... Okay if I actually signed off like that I'd have to hurt myself.
Bye LJ
PS:
COMMENT YOU LAZY PEOPLE! D:<
I don't even know why I'm so angry right now but I am.
Having a chat with a friend tonight, a friend I care a lot about. He said he'd come up and visit for the weekend, and this pleased me!
Then he started umming and arring about it
He's been umming and arring for the last 4 hours
Then, "nah not tonight I'm too tired"
Well FUCK YOU!
You could have told me this 4 hours ago when you proposed the fucking idea, but instead, let's get cam all excited about a visit and then change our mind at the last minute.
It's annoying, it's scummy and your excuses are pathetic!
I've done much more to see you, and you wanna throw "I'm tired" at me?
I was fucking tired after coming down straight from work
I was tired when I had to help set up a 21st
I was tired when I bailed it an hour after it started
And I was tired when I had to get up at 7 the next morning
You
Shit.
Why do I even bother.
Fuck this crap, I just wanna go home now.
30 mins to go.
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
I am a bad bad man :3
I drove to work yesterday, on my L's, on my own :3
I won't do it again but geez was the drive relaxing, I so can't wait to drive to brissie! So cruisy is my baby :)
I'm at work at the moment, pyeface get back tomorrow morning an I'm hoping I can go get her in my baby, but not without a licenced person with me :s
Work work
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
It is raining.
I am going to get my baby on Friday
It is raining
I am glad Babs said he'd come help
It is raining
I would like to hear from you if you would like me to stop by your place so you can see my beautiful baby girl
It is raining
I am working 9-5 all week, including the weekend
It is raining
I am happy Pye comes back soonish
It is raining
I am enjoying going to bed early
It is raining
I am still looking for a new house
It is raining
I am going fishing Monday morning
It is raining
I am going to bring home a huge fish
It is raining
I am clueless about cooking huge fish
It is raining
I am saving for the move
It is raining
I am not doing a good job at saving for the move
It is raining
I am feelin no regret about ordering pizza last night
It is raining
I am getting an inkling from a few people that I am disliked
It is raining
I am probably just paranoid
It is raining
I am spending too much money on food
It is raining
I am still smoking even though I said I would not
It is raining
I am not doing any exercise even though I said I would
It is raining
I miss Riv, and Pye
It is raining
I am anxious about squirming my way out of work for rivfur
It is raining
I am going regardless of holidays
It is raining
I am feeling sleepy
It is raining
I am going to nap on the train
... did I mention it's raining?
Well it is.
It is raining.
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
Well the car is all sorted: rego, transfer, insurance, payment, just waiting for it to come back from it's service and she is mine!
I miss my Pyehead, she keeps me sane :(
I also discovered I'm getting a bonus this year from work! This excites me greatly, I get it the same day I get my bond back from my current place! Then a month after that I get my tax return! This excites me to no end :D
This means I don't have to worry about springing for bond, since it will be my bonus! :D
So rivfur eh? I'm not much of one for furry gatherings, usually too many stupid people in one place at any one time for my liking... But, I'm going to see friends I haven't seen in months, so it'll be good!
I'm more excited about my Brisbane. Trip than I am about my 20th birthday this year, that's coming up too! :S
It's all happeniiiiiiiing!
When I was told by my boss I was getting a bonus in June, I almost cried, it's just so much of a financial relief it's not funny...
In non-finance related news, I got home last night an Chrissy had a laksa all cooked and ready for me to chow down on! Awe, just what I needed after a long day at work! It was much better this time ;). Not so sweet, and nice an bitey :)
Though I'm not much of a laksa person :p
Though I think that shit would taste great on rice!
When I get my car, roadtripping is to occur, I think just down to wollongong to the beach for the day, and back... I haven't been swimming at the beach in a long time! It's be nice :)
So yes, I'm still working like a madman, I'm still on the train for 5 hours of my day, and I'm still going deep sea fishing on the 25th! How exciting!
Thanks for listening LJ land! Stay tuned for more frantic updates!
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
Oh dear!
So I managed to frighten the pants off riv with my last post, cause I said we wouldn't be driving up... At the TIME I didn't think we would, but now that I have a car, we definately are :)
That's right
I have a car :)
2001 PT Cruiser, luxury version! About 100k on the clock but by god is she beautiful.
Hard top, no sunroof, automatic (unfortunately) and drives like she's on a cloud...
A few bumps and scratches, nothin major, and if that all that's wrong with her and she's 8 years old, I'm excited!
I filled out all the paperwork, got insurance organized and sent it all back last night (but apparently missed one, I'll send that this morning)
I can take her home on Tuesday.... TUESDAY!
So she will be making an appearance in Brisbane! Sorry for the scare riv, I'll call you later today when you're awake :)
Pictures to come when I take my baby home :)
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
So having a slight revalation about men!
I'm having difficulties finding one that fits well... All the guys I meet tend to be either, snooty, stuck up, dopey, self-absorbed or just rude :(
I need a man who, I can joke with, and will joke back... This is probably one of the hardest things to find wiifh another guy, since my humor is so, well, not-mainstream... It'd be nice to joke with someone and not have them think I'm a lunatic.
It would also be great if they weren't ashamed of me, or hanging out with me, and didn't treat me like some dirty little secret.
I wouldn't be the first to say that I can be annoyingly clingy, so he would have to either like that or lump that, preferrably like. I'm not clingy like, need to know where you are all the time always oh god Jesus you haven't called in 2 hours what's wrong... I'm more of a, enjoying my mushy moments and cutesy little things...
There's another thing! Be okay with mushy moments! I love nothing better than curling up with someone and just playing with their fingers or silly little faces, stupid things that make you giggle then sigh. Most people really don't get this...
Does ANYONE know what I'm on about?
Someone tell me if I'm being unrealistic, or a lunatic!
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
Here I am, stuck at the train station for the next 30 minutes when all I want to do is go home! ;.;
I finished work 3 hours ago and I'm still not home :(
So can't wait to move next month :(
Other than that I'm good lj land! Work has decline me holidays in July for abbey and rivfur, so I'm gonna be an annoying fit at work and wiggle my way into getting the rivfur weekend off at least
Which means I'll be flying up, joy!
Sorry riv, as awesome as roadtrip sounded I'm sure you'll cope ;)
Not much else in news! I've been playing lots of oblivion at work and by crikey I'm addicted! It's fantastic, it smashing, it's awesome it's über... And I've only closed one oblivion gate! Sweet Jesus the awesome! I was too busy becoming arch-Mage ;)
Ignore the cut at the bottom of the page, iPhone accidentally put it there and it refuses to delete...
NEVERMIND!
I got it ;)
No much else to report
Oh, I need a haircut...
I'll leave you with a snippet of the entertainment provided during graveyard shift!
Awesome :3
- Current Location:Australia, New South Wales
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