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With the unknown, one is confronted with danger,discomfort and worry; the first instinct is to abolish these painful sensations. First principal: any explaination is better than none............ The search for causes is thus conditioned by and excited by the feeling of fear. The question "Why?" is not pursued for its own sake but to find a certain kind of answer---- an answer that is pacifying, tranquillizing and soothing.

-Nietzsche, The Twilight of the Idols


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Mar. 13th, 2012 @ 12:39 am Insert Subject Here
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Is anyone out there near Dubuque Iowa?
May. 24th, 2007 @ 04:28 am Scape goat
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“Scapegoat”

 

 

 

Broken bones and shattered dreams;

nothing is ever as it seems.

A child walks all alone;

no real place to call home.

Nobody sees and nobody hears;

at times it seems that nobody cares.

People call the child strange;

It’s thoughts they want to rearrange.

Quiet little freak never talks too much.

Odd little child shies from the touch.

Always sits alone, never meets their gaze;

always seems to be in a disturbing daze.

No one knows the child isn’t there,

because it lives in a world that’s fair.

Lost in a fantasy that never ends;

a place where pain can not descend.

The child’s reality is twisted and blurred;

everyday growing more disturbed.

They taunt and they tease,

and torture as they please.

They hit and they maim;

and never explain.

Now everyday the child slowly dies;

while every night for death it cries.

Its pain is so cleverly concealed,

that its wounds will never be healed.

Scarred for an eternity,

because of their callous stupidity

Nameless_Me
May. 24th, 2007 @ 01:43 am Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: awakeawake
Hey all sorry I havent been on in such a long time, how have all of you guys and gals been doing?
Aug. 15th, 2006 @ 11:40 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: drunkdrunk
"All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible. This I did."


T.E. Lawrence
Aug. 15th, 2006 @ 06:21 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: tiredtired

"Untittled"


Sacred sunsets and tormented dawn,
a twisted path that's straight and true,
and a pain as soothing as springs first dew.
You say you know where I belong,
locked away 'cause I'm all wrong.
There's somthin' not right in my head,
and you think I'ld be better off dead.
You don't see the truth behind the truth,
your reality is real only to you,
To think differently, is insanity to you.
Just go away and leave me be,
just go away 'cause you don't see,
don't see sacred sunsets and tormented dawns
or a twisted path that's straight and true,
or feel the soothing pain that is you.

-Nameless_Me

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Noisy Stuff: Inuyasha Opening Theme

"Epitath"


Tis inbetween heaven and hell

that corpse doth forever dwell;

and though my chances seem few,

I hope my spirit does reside there too.


Nameless_Me


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"Untittled"


The pain is real but nobody knows,
I have no idea where my road goes.
The pain is a flame burning within,
the flame is a passion burried inside.
Sometimes I am sure where my path leads,
and other times it seems i shall never succeed.
My path at times is shadowed and dark,
sometimes my road is easy with nothing to fear.
the turmoil though is always there,
so all of my pain I must bear.
The end is mine if i so choose,
but that really isn't very good news.


Nameless_Me

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Jun. 30th, 2006 @ 01:28 am Insert Subject Here
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I have been having very disturbing dreams lately, not nightmares, but disturbing none the less. They all share a few common threads, and they all seem very real. I'm usually pretty good at picking apart my dreams and figuring out where the imagry is coming from. The last week though I have not been able to.................................................. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, maybe I'm just worrying for no reason......................

 

 

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Jun. 14th, 2006 @ 10:41 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: gloomygloomy
Noisy Stuff: Woman - WolfMother
You know for the last while I have felt like I haven't accomplished anything in my life but I was wrong...............................................







For 27 years I have been a consistant @#%k up....... GO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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May. 25th, 2006 @ 03:44 am Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed
Noisy Stuff: Shut Your Mouth Honey-Puffy AmiYumi

"Water Under the Bridge"


It's all water under the bridge,
a forgotten memory heading out to sea.
Doesn't matter anymore,
whats done is done,
To bad, so sad.
There was no one to save her,
from the beasts rage.
There was no one to free her from her cage.
It's all water under the bridge,
a forgotten memory heading out to sea.
Doesn't mater anymore,
whats done is done,
To bad, so sad.
She's been dead for so long,
that her memory seems no more than a dream.
she waited for a hero,
a hero that never came.
she waited for a hero,
but her waiting was in vain.
Now it's just water under the bridge.

-Nameless_Me

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May. 24th, 2006 @ 12:19 am Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: indescribableindescribable

"For Her"

Water flowing down the mountain;
while her tears do flow like a fountain,
bitterly she weeps,
and quietly she sleeps.
Sleeps through the nights tide,
till her fears do subside.

Lighting flashing across the sky;
while her rage she keeps inside,
angrily she mumbles,
and innocently she stumbles.
Stumbles through the dark,
to the sound of the meadowlark.

Leaves falling from the trees;
while her pain no one sees,
silently she sighs,
and finally she dies.
Dies all alone in the night,
because she is tired of the fight.

-Nameless_Me

May. 20th, 2006 @ 10:10 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: draineddrained
Noisy Stuff: White Unicorn-WolfMother

 

"Beauty"

The serene beauty of the sunrise

lasts only until it is noticed;

and the tranquility of dusk

is shattered upon its acknowledgement.

There in lays beautys true Paradox

for upon recognition it turns ordinary;

while the unseen is where beauty doth lay.

Thus the purest of beauty,

does reside in our hearts and souls,

and not the shell in which we keep it.

-Nameless_Me

May. 15th, 2006 @ 06:43 am Insert Subject Here
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Noisy Stuff: Atomic Dog-George Clinton and the Parliment funkadelic

"The Merchant"


I'm the happy little merchant,
see me sell my wares.
I'm the happy little merchant,
but no one really cares.
All you little people come right in,
come on in and satisfy your needs,
All you little people come right in,
because your cash I sorely need.
You stand in judgement and look down on me,
because my job is beneath you.
You stand in judgement and look down on me,
because you havent got a clue.
I'm the happy little merchant,
I'll sell you my wares.
I'm the happy little merchant,
but I know you don't care.

-Nameless_Me

May. 14th, 2006 @ 02:49 pm Insert Subject Here
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Current Location: Doesent Matter
Noisy Stuff: I like It-Lords of Acid
Feelings Stuff: numbVery Very Tired

"Mr Preacher Man"

I'm falling apart a little at a time;
lifes a mountain I'm to tired to climb.
What good is a dream that never comes True?
What good is hope if it's not meant for you?
Shackled by the past, bound for hell;
there is much of the story I'll never tell.
In the end death will be my only release;
then maybe all of this turmoil will cease.
I just want all of the pain to end;
I know the reaper will be a true friend.
I'm sick and tired of being alone,
hopefully eternity will be a good home.
I want to die there is no doubt,
I want to die cause it's my only way out.
Can you save my soul mr preacher man?
Can you really show me a better plan?
You don't get it, and you never will,
'cause you'll never understand how I feel.
I hate waking up day after day,
seeing all of the happy people at play.
Mr preacher man say a prayer for me,
Tell your god to grant me eternity.

-Nameless_Me

May. 13th, 2006 @ 07:27 pm "A Thought"
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Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed
Noisy Stuff: Without You-Motley Crue

"A Thought"

Everyday I go through the motions;
hiding my pain so no one has a notion,
of the pain I harbour deep inside.
I just want to be happy once again;
I just want to feel the joy I did back then,
but I don't know how to make the pain subside.
Someday soon though I'll be free;
and all of my misery shall leave me,
once I have conqured life and deaths divide.

Nameless_Me

May. 13th, 2006 @ 06:50 pm Weeping Willow
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Noisy Stuff: Opposites Attract-Paula Abdual
Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed

"Weeping Willow"

Meloncholy willow sitting all alone;
but why it cries I do not know.
Perhaps it cries for days gone by,
that are as dark as the midnight sky.
Tormenting its soul, driving it insane,
while its unseen tears fall like rain.
All it knows is the desire to die;
and the longing for the day its soul will fly,
fly away to a place where calm waters flow.
Hoping to find a place its happiness can grow.

-Nameless_Me

May. 12th, 2006 @ 09:06 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: melancholymelancholy
Noisy Stuff: Friggin In The Riggin - The Sex Pistols
Why do I hurt like this? I don't get it, I'm not sure I ever will. Other people have had much worse happen to them and they don't feel like this............... I hate this I sound like a broken record...........
Apr. 22nd, 2006 @ 10:31 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed

Ron Pills:



Will cause you to blame the green fairy inside your head for everything that goes wrong in life


'What effect do you have on people?' at QuizGalaxy.com
Apr. 6th, 2006 @ 09:29 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: depressedI Give Up
The results are in.................................................... You would think I'd be happy about them...................... but I'm not........ All I did yesterday was sit alone drinking myself stupid and balling my eyes out.................................................... I hate myself I hate my life and I hate who I am I'm a curse to everyone I come in contact with...
..................................................................................................................................................................................................... I'm done.................


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I like this meme:

Choose a band/or artist: Johnny Cash
and answer only in song TITLES by that band

Are you female or male: Man in Black
Describe yourself: Folsum Prison Blues
How do some people feel about you: Ring of Fire
How do you feel about yourself: I feel Better all Over
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: My Old Faded Rose
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: I still Miss Someone
Describe where you want to be: Sunday Morning Coming Down
Describe what you want to be: Oh What a Dream
Describe how you live: One Piece at a Time
Describe how you love: I walk the line/A little at a Time
Share a few words of wisdom: To Beat the Devil
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You Should Be A Poet

You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways.
And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...
Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever.
You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.
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Find your Celestial Choir
Mar. 31st, 2006 @ 09:52 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: giddyImpatient
The test results will be in wednesday and I will send everyone who knows what I'm talking about a complete update on the situation.



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Mar. 24th, 2006 @ 09:50 pm Insert Subject Here
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You scored as Odin.

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Odin

80%

Freyr

80%

Balder

70%

Loki

70%

Thor

70%

Bragi

60%

Frigg

60%

Heimdall

60%

Freya

50%

Sif

40%

Tyr

30%

Skadi

30%

Hel

30%

Njord

20%

Which Norse God or Goddess are you most like?
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Mar. 24th, 2006 @ 01:24 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed
Noisy Stuff: Hold On - Wilson Phillips
Well I heard her out word for word, a lot of memories came flooding back..... I spent last night in the bar and drank myself broke.... Now I can't recharge my phone account because I don't get paid until tuesday and my account expires tonite at 12:00am.......... You know its mind blowing how one little decsion can cause so much grief to so many people......................... I am a horrible horrible person............. I just need to go over everything in my head for now and sort things out................ I will post more when I get everything sorted out upstairs..............

Take Care all

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Mar. 20th, 2006 @ 01:29 pm Just some quotes that came to my mind today
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The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool.. ~William Shakespeare, As You Like It

Knowledge comes, but wisdom lingers. ~Alfred Lord Tennyson

There is a wisdom of the head, and... a wisdom of the heart. ~Charles Dickens

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Mar. 17th, 2006 @ 02:16 pm In regards to my post on Mar. 7th, 2006
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Well many people have been pressuring me to listen to the ex's side of the story. I've decided to hear her out we are going to talk next wednesday, but I doubt she has a good excuse.


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Your True Birth Month Is June









Fussy

Abiding

Friendly

Stubborn

Talkative

Sensitive

Executive

Hesitating

Easily hurt

Active mind

Easily bored

Daydreamer

Loves to joke

Tends to delay

Temperamental

Brand conscious

Loves to dress up

Having lots of ideas

Good debating skills

Funny and humorous

Thinks far with vision

Prone to getting colds

Polite and soft-spoken

Able to show character

Seldom show emotions

Knows how to make friends

Easily influenced by kindness

Takes time to recover when hurt

Choosy and always wants the best

Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends



Mar. 17th, 2006 @ 12:15 am Insert Subject Here
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endless dark
Noisy Stuff: Timo Maas - album Loud
Feelings Stuff: sleepyVery very Tired
If you had me alone...locked up in your house for twenty-four hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you do with me? All replies will be permanently screened because it's a secret. Then repost this in your LJ. You might be surprised with the responses you get.
Mar. 17th, 2006 @ 12:13 am Insert Subject Here
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Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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Mar. 14th, 2006 @ 05:03 pm Insert Subject Here
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RAVEN EYES

You have Raven

Eyes!
Positive Traits: Intellectual,

Wise, Experienced, Honest,

Trustworthy
Negative Traits:

Pompous, Condescending, Withdrawn,

Pessimistic, Depressed


Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
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Mar. 14th, 2006 @ 04:59 pm Insert Subject Here
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You are Liver Pate en Masque!! You are very, very

scary. Yet, somehow... erotic? No, just

scary.


What Weight Watchers recipe card from 1974 are you?
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Klein Sexual Orientation Grid


I scored an average of 0.05

01 2 3 4 5 6
HeterosexualBisexualHomosexual

Meaning

This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale:

0 = exclusively heterosexual
1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual
3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual
4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual
5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6 = exclusively homosexual

Summary

The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us.

Take the quiz
Mar. 14th, 2006 @ 01:09 am I can't sleep
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Feelings Stuff: creativePeaceful
Noisy Stuff: Witchcraft - Frank Sinatra

My friend wasn't satisfied with the previous poem I wrote for him, so I wrote him another. Honestly if he wants poetry for his GF he should write his own but I like to write and hes a nice guy so i wrote him another and here it is. 


"Open the Door"

You shouldn’t exist, you can’t be real,
I don’t want to hurt you but that’s how I feel.
I conjured you up so many years ago;
I never dreamed I’d actually meet you though.
It would be so easy to fall in love with you,
you’re the pinnacle of perfection in my view.
When I’m near you, you make my blood flow,
I feel so alive and that’s why its hard for me to go.
Please don’t hate me for the way that I feel,
I just want to show you who I am for real.
It’s something I feel you should know,
because you fill my mind with an angelic glow.
I want to earn you trust, friendship, and love,
because you seem like an angel sent from above.
You’re everything I’ve ever looked for and more.
I’ve decided to drop the walls and open the door.
So if your still willing to see me after this,
You would fill my mind with eternal bliss.


-Nameless_me


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Goodnight all pleasent dreams





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Mar. 13th, 2006 @ 10:39 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: calminsightful
Heres a collection of my favorite Haikus by me


Silent echoes come
creeping across the Mountain
filling me with dread


Silent rivers run
through the channels of my mind
killing me softly


quiet mountain streams
evaporating away
to drop down from the heavens


Radiant vision
blinding to my mortal eyes
lovely as a rose


Beautiful vision
with eyes both stormy and fair
beguileling my mind


Das ist leib von dir
mein schoen liebhaber und freund
essenz von mein seele


Ich habe ein beir
lauwarm liebe in mein hand
und es ist sehr gut


Ich vermissen du
Ich ruine alles liebchen
Ich bin ein dummarsch

-Nameless_Me



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Mar. 13th, 2006 @ 10:16 pm Insert Subject Here
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Noisy Stuff: Sex and Candy - Marcys Playground
Feelings Stuff: calmcalm
If you fill mine out and decide to do one yerself I promise to do yours as well.


Thanks


http://kevan.org/johari?name=Nameless_Me


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Mar. 13th, 2006 @ 09:53 pm Insert Subject Here
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Noisy Stuff: Amore - Dean Martin
Feelings Stuff: calmcalm
The following is a poem I wrote some time ago when I was on the verge of a breakdown it quite literally saved my life. So here it is just for y'all 



 and no I'm, not feeling suicidal.

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Mar. 13th, 2006 @ 09:35 pm Insert Subject Here
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Libertarians
Circle I Limbo

Scientologists
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Riceboys
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Democrats
Circle IV Rolling Weights

General asshats
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Republicans
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

NAMBLA Members
Circle VII Burning Sands

DMV Employees
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

Mar. 13th, 2006 @ 05:40 pm Insert Subject Here
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Feelings Stuff: awakeawake
Noisy Stuff: Fur Elsie - Beethoven
Today I was reminded of a very important lesson, that the impossible can and does happen. I can't descibe how I feel to day except like this; I feel alive but not just alive I feel happy truly happy. My mind hasn't been this clear and focused in a very very long time.


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Mar. 10th, 2006 @ 11:28 pm Let me know what ya think
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Feelings Stuff: accomplishedaccomplished
Noisy Stuff: Strange Days - The Doors

a friend of mine asked me to write a poem for him describing how he feels about a girl he's been seeing Here it is any thoughts or suggestions would be appreciated.







>^..^<




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Mar. 10th, 2006 @ 01:12 am Insert Subject Here
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Noisy Stuff: Two Lane Blacktop - Rob Zombie
Feelings Stuff: scaredscared
Well for those of you with whom Ive discussed my current problem with. The test is tomarrow and the results should be back in a few weeks............ I am scared beyond belief right now.



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Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 09:19 pm Insert Subject Here
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endless dark
Feelings Stuff: confusedconfused
Noisy Stuff: Volare - Dean Martin
I have one hell of a problem and am not sure how to handle it. Normally I would post it on here but I cannot do that for reasons that are my own. However I would appreciate it if someone from my friends list would get a hold of me if they can thru the e-mail or messenger. Yahoo ID: RSpark52001 Email: Ron_Spark@Hotmail.com

I would especially like to hear what EloquentSilence, Megarian, Deb22 have to say about it.

however any that are wanting to give suggestions i would appreciate it.

>^..^<

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Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 08:59 pm For the most part it fits me very well
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Noisy Stuff: Knoxville Girl - Blue Sky Boys
Feelings Stuff: flirtyflirty
The Luminaries: Sun and Moon

The state of the solar system at the time of your birth points to self-similar (fractal) qualities within you. But of all the planets, the "lights" - the Sun and Moon - are thought to indicate the main polarity of your being. In psychology, this has been articulated in the concept of complementarity between the conscious and unconscious contents of the mind. The Sun and Moon act as positive and negative poles - an intentional, directing element (Sun), and a suggestible, receptive one (Moon). In a beneficial relationship, the emotional conditioning of the Moon is given a purposive and positive expression by the astrological Sun. This has been called 'intentional living'. Wherever we allow our consciousness (attention) to rest, that we vitalize.

 
The Astrological Sun
There is only one center to our solar system, and there is only one center to your psyche. The Sun is the great central powerhouse which illuminates us and shows us where we can get the most from life by radiating all that our sun represents. In Jyotish, the astrology of the Hindus, the Sun is known as 'atma karaka', or soul indicator, signifying a person's confidence, authority and power - the ego center of the horoscope. The Sun is our central identity and 'true self', in that it is toward this more than anything that we should be moving and developing. Thus, it represents that which we wish to become and those we look up to. It is also our essence, our bliss, and that which we do for the sheer fun of it. The Sun is creativity, original flair, celebration and glory - the quality of output we tend to expect from heros and celebrities. But we are each capable of giving out more than we do - and I don't mean money. The Sun is about having a purpose large enough to animate the whole of your life and going about it with a tone of appreciation and joie de vivre. Your Sun shows how and where you can shine. Light your fire!
 
Sun in Gemini
You are the go-between of the universe. You love to investigate, communicate, and make connections. You are happiest when caught up in the variety and complexity of life, moving around and gathering all the multiple options at your disposal. Gemini energy is mobile and changeable, very restless and questioning. You do your best work by allowing yourself to spread the attention, doing more than one thing at a time, linking observations and ideas to form relationships. You intuitively know the kind of language that is appropriate and lend the right approach to any situation. Gemini is concerned with connections, communication and logic - words, thoughts, writing and rational mental processes in general. It is also concerned with making comparisons, 'twins' and duplications of all kinds. Gemini is the communicator, the gossip of the zodiac and the collector of trivia. Gemini energy is unattached, independent, very inquisitive and changable.
 
Sun Opposite Neptune
Dreams and visions are reality. High ideals and an ability to enchant with words and images. There is concern with the true mysteries of existence. Lives with no boundaries between the self and the environment. At home in the 'transcendental' realm; the most crucial experiences of life happen internally in the form of deeply sensitive perceptions. There is also a great affinity for music and poetry.

Sun Trine Moon
Able to grow and progress throughout life without major emotional difficulties. Yin (male) and yang (female) energy flows easily. Resources are at hand, as are the necessary instruction on how to use them. There is an inner sincerity and naturalness that does not resist life, but looks for the truth of life as it is. A special gift for spanning generation gaps; bringing older and younger spirits together. Easily gains the respect of others.

Sun Semisquare Jupiter
Larger than life. Expects the best, is open, above-board and honest. Discovery. Wants to see, experience and gain knowledge of everything life has to offer, especially foreign things or things that are 'out of the ordinary'. 'Lucky' by nature, the general outlook on life is one of optimism and enthusiasm. Makes a natural philosopher and counselor. Confident and vibrant, this aspect expands ego drives and broadens experience.

Sun Trine Pluto
A real talent for working with sensitive material and touching upon the more vulnerable areas of life. Able to handle 'delicate' matters without breaking stride, for emotional and tender areas of the human psyche don't phase. Enjoys getting beneath the surface and has an innate savvy for handling touchy subjects. Perfect aspect for any research investigation or detective work.

 
The Astrological Moon
The astrological Moon symbolises memory, memes and conditioning - the habitual, instinctive, unconscious side of our nature, and therefore the most predictible. Our interface with the environment - how we react to it - is best indicated by the Moon's position and the planets it aspects. Because it represents our upbringing and emotional background, the Moon denotes our sense of belonging and well-being (or not) and what we need in order to feel comfortable and content. But all too often the tendency is for the Moon to reflect back the frayed impressions of old hurts and vendettas, thereby wasting precious energy on painful and unproductive distractions of the past. Clearly what is needed is a more aspiring attitude; one in which we are continually banging our cup and demanding that our needs be satisfied! What is your special hunger? What kind of stimulation do you need in order to feel good about yourself? True gratification can be had only by feeding your Moon. The Feast of the Present is spread out around you!
 
Moon in Aquarius
You are inspired, for humanity is your family and you are seldom bound by tradition or domestic ties. The big picture is what counts most with you, and large-scale movements and group work are where you will find your niche. Your preference for the group comes often at the expense of your personal relationships. Democratic in the real sense of the word, you are an altruist and love emotional freedom.
 
Moon Square Uranus
Independence above all. Very much involved with all that is non-traditional and revolutionary, especially when it comes to the domestic scene and ideas of home and family. Original, different and unpredictable when it comes to emotional reactions. The approach to feelings, moods and the whole psychological gambit is novel. Tends to show emotions suddenly or in unusual ways. Prefers being unconventional and nonconformist. Gets pleasure out of engaging in forbidden or unauthorized behaviour.

Moon Trine Pluto
Feelings are deep and profound. A natural psychological ability, particularly when it comes to working with the public. Can handle emotional and personal issues (vulnerable areas) very well. People sense this and trust you with sensitive matters, inner worries and questions of personal identity. A real sense of purpose. The theme of re-birth is often prevalent in the life.

Moon Sextile Neptune
Emotionally inspired. A built-in sense of what the public wants and the ability to come up with just the right image. Finds it easy to work with the emotions and the feelings with great imagination. A born creator of atmosphere, especially when it comes to the home and domestic surroundings. Lives for the romance and beauty of life.

Moon Square Mars
Energized emotions. Can be a real moving force in the lives of others. A natural group leader or trainer; vitality and drive are communicated to all in close contact, especially the young. Emotional enthusiasm is strong. Puts a lot of energy and effort into surroundings and the domestic environment, but home life may also be plagued with quarrels. Moral courage.

 
The Planets: Agents of the Cosmos

The planets of astrology are not just giant balls of rock and gas, but fractal reflections of the different facets of reality - whole self-consistent categories of meaning. They reveal tendencies which are in a continual state of 'becoming'. But each individual is responsible for developing his or her attributes and actively integrating the planets' detailed messages. Having had the broad qualities pointed out, you are free to work with or against the cosmic current. But you will only benefit from the universal self-organising process by intentionally and planfully improving on those features as depicted in your birth chart. We only get where we're going by moving in the right direction. Destiny is a matter of Destination.

 
The Astrological Mercury
Mercury is the articulate messenger - Hermes - master of the networks, change and complexity. He represents mentality: words, thoughts, ideas, communications. But more generally, this is the planet of connections - everything that links and conveys - synchronicity - the magical crossroads at which the observer stands to see the 'similarity of meaning' in the converging strands of various causes and effects. This is the meeting place of mind and matter, where logic, wit and reason are brought into play. The power of thought. The power of words. The ancestor of every action is a thought, and how we say something is often more important than what we say. Words trigger attitudes and set up resonances of their own, continuing to do their work even when the attention is elsewhere. Guided by your Mercury, you begin to construct a bridge between yourself and the world, bringing together all the unique circumstances needed to trigger results that none of them could have produced on their own. Mercury shows how you can 'hijack' people, places and situations to your best advantage - the way you can go about getting your way.
 
Mercury in Cancer
You sense things with the mind and understand that feelings are thoughts too. What does this or that thought mean? Where is it pointing? These are questions you ask. You use subjective rather than objective logic -- intuition and gut instinct. Poetry, music, and the arts interest you, as do psychology and the psyche.
 
Mercury Sextile Saturn
You are a heavy-duty thinker and serious student, always ready to work an idea through, reducing it to what is essential. You enjoy mental effort and discipline, and work long and hard at whatever you put your mind to. You could present or teach religious and philosophical ideas, anything where substance and content are at issue.

Mercury Square Pluto
Anyone who tries to get you to play with words is in for a big surprise. Your mind cuts right through all the window dressing and gets right down to the quick. Before anyone knows it, you have the heart of the matter out front for everyone to see. You would make a great investigator, either in scientific research or undercover work. It makes no difference. Your ability to get to the point is all but phenomenal. You can talk and put into words areas of the psychological that others wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole.

 
The Astrological Venus
Venus is harmony. She symbolises our relationship with all that we meet in the world. When we appraise or appreciate something, whether that be another person or a possession, this is Venus - the sense of love or appreciation we feel. Venus is reciprocity, interaction with others, compromise, reconciliation and balance. She is also our need for approval, and how we seek it - 'we' consciousness and union. This ability to get-it-together is also tested by our talent (or lack of) for developing a sense of wealth and affluence. Venus is what we love, feel comfortable with and what appeals to us. And she has much to do with desires, luxuries and their enjoyment. She is also about making oneself enjoyable. Thus her energy is what has been called the 'courtier spirit', which means being agreeable and smoothing the path. In many ways she shows us how we can get the most, both relationship-wise and financially, out of life. As the planet of balance and resources, Venus speaks to us about the ways one influences the other; for as any successful businessperson will tell you, you must be willing to spend money in order to make it. This is the lifeblood of commerce - there must be an out-going as well as an in-coming flow of energy. Good relationships require give-and-take, as do all successful enterprises.
 
Venus in Gemini
Gregarious, you are very friendly indeed. You love to communicate, and thoroughly enjoy good conversation. Change, variety, and making connections are things you deal easily with. You have many avenues to explore when it comes to relating, but you may prefer to keep it light when it comes to love. Always on the move, you have many different friends and places to go. Travel will appeal.
 
Venus Square Saturn
You value the simple life and have little use for pomp and circumstance. Your appreciation for hard work and discipline is natural and lifelong. You actually love responsibility and tend to pile on the work. Others may find you frugal or unnecessarily spartan, but you love simplicity as much as they love opulence. You can discriminate the wheat from the chaff and put great value on organization.

Venus Sextile Jupiter
You have an innate love of the law and working things through, and you are not put off by problems and obstacles. On the contrary, you look forward to solving them. You have the ability to work with others, in particular regarding vocation or career guidance. You can advise and guide in matters requiring work-related decisions. Others find you a generous and loving person. You always share what you find and have a lucky streak too.

Venus Sesquiquadrate Pluto
When you love, you love with energy and passion. You value personal contact, cutting through all the externals and getting to the heart of things. You understand and appreciate vulnerability and have no compunction about presenting your own sensitive spots to others. You enjoy working behind the scenes, getting at secret and hidden areas of the mind and psyche. Changes and transformative experiences are where you like to be most.

 
The Astrological Mars
Mars is the planet of motivation and drive. It is the self-starting impetus, initiative and energy we need to get moving. When we search for the meaning of something, life or whatever, it is Mars that urges us on and keeps us searching. Mars also drives us against things too, as when it sends us into war and combat. Mars looks for the challenge, takes charge and pushes forward with a pioneering spirit. Mars is purposeful, direct and courageous; where our passion is, there we find the planet Mars. Thus it also has to do with ardor and impulses, and often signifies the sex-drive, especially in a man's chart. Martian energy enjoys becoming involved in the thrust of life - acting promptly on an urge and, within that conviction, creating more trust in its own actions. This is a circular process: The more we trust and act, the more we receive impulses that can be trusted.
 
Mars in Taurus
You have great staying power, a drive for security and stability, and can withstand almost anything. You are very dependable, somewhat emotional but stable. You have a natural need to build solid foundations. You are stubborn, but patient and slow to anger. But once angered, watch out!
 
Mars Opposite Uranus
You are probably hard to control and very unpredictable. Your drive for independence is obvious, and it is clear that the common and the traditional are not for you. Anything else but that! You pursue alternate or nonconformist solutions to life with great energy. Your temper is hot and sharp and tends to snap out like a lightning bolt. You are aggressive in the pursuit of gaining insight into all that is new, different, and out of the ordinary. Electronics, computers, and communications could be a big part of your life.

 
The Astrological Jupiter
When it comes to an astrology of success and empowerment, some planets are more important than others simply because of their nature. As the planet of outreach and exploration, Jupiter plays a very important role here. The Hindu word for Jupiter is 'Guru' (Teacher), and Jupiter is about having an outlook or belief system - something we can identify with or look forward to. It shows how we search for meaning in our lives, and therefore has much to tell us about our 'ideal' vocation. Jupiter is the guiding philosophy which provides us with our sense of direction and shows us how to approach life's problems. Jupiter is 'conscience', ethics, as well as our opinions and how we form them. It represents our speculations about the world and can tell us much about the process of self-discovery. As the 'lord of opportunity', prosperity, affluence, and all the benefits we earn through our outgoing-ness and out-giving to others, Jupiter's position in your chart is instrumental in determining your capacity for optimism and attracting luck. To enhance Jupiter's benefit in your life, follow the indications of his placement in your chart. In general, by adopting a spread of effort rather than a concentration - by accepting Life's invitations and maximising what they have to offer - by saying 'yes' to the exotic and unfamiliar - we deliberately extend our range of contacts and interests whereby luck can reach us. There is an organic connection between this attitude and the arrival of the good things in life. A note of warning though, you can have too much of a good thing.
 
Jupiter in Leo
You would love a career that is creative and expressive, for you were born warm and gregarious. Exuberant, you have an inner need to express feelings and opinions to others. You can be a bit self-centered and are driven to leadership positions by your own keen sense of inner worth. Attract luck into your life through being confident and original. Give out generously of time and resources - it all comes back to you tenfold!
 
 
The Astrological Saturn
Saturn is the prince of the material world - the planet of materialisation and incarnation, self-containment and personal distinction. Saturn rules the limitations of the world we live in and so indicates where we are bound to learn self-discipline and duty - whether we like it or not! It is the boundaries around us that make identity possible. As time passes, you slowly but surely crystallise a personal identity, distinct and unique from the others around you, by excluding whatever does not seem compatible with your purpose. Each new day adds to this evolutionary sense of 'I', with the object being an increased sense of responsibility. Saturn is said to be the hard taskmaster, the planet that keeps us from getting carried away in one direction or another. And although it seems to limit and undermine, it also defines and clarifies. For it is the process of sedimentation - building layer upon layer with structure and control - whereby we see our ambitions realised. Nothing worthwhile can be accomplished without determination, concentration, persistence, commitment and patience.
 
Saturn in Virgo
You have a tendency to avoid responsibility or work, and to put off taking care of details - delinquency. Application and practice is the remedy. Be specific. Take care of every last detail. Develop and use your critical faculties. Take care of business.
 
 
The Astrological Uranus
To live a full and satisfying life, you must be vividly yourself. Many of us are afraid to be different, and the pressure to conform can be stifling. But to live creatively is to find your own way, even if this means going against the grain. This urge to free-will and self-authorisation is Uranus, the planet of fierce independence. Surprise can be stimulating - the jab that gets you out of the rut. And if you want to ride the wave of chaos instead of being swallowed by it - if you want to liberate yourself from the disruptions and shocks around you - you must voluntarily keep out of the groove. Realise that change is the only constant phenomenon. In randomness is all potential. Disorder increases possibilties. Chance! Uranus is the reverse of the status quo and always unconventional and heretical: If life is accidental, we are free to give it any point we like. Become Yourself!
 
Uranus in Scorpio
You are innovative in sexual matters (anything taboo) and have insights into what makes our darker side tick. All things mystical and occult hold your interest. Drugs too. You have new thoughts on desires and possessions. You enjoy sex and respect cravings of all kinds.
 
 
The Astrological Neptune
Neptune is the desire and ablility to transcend normal consciousness and everyday waking life - to dream the impossible dream. This 'divine discontent' can be the cause of much mischief in itself, for to pursue the Ideal is often to avoid the reality of how things are. But, when it comes to many of the apparently insolvable problems, the Neptunian approach is often the most sensible and practical: Rise above it and get over it! The healthy tendencies of Neptune lie in its ability to see the cosmic humor in almost anything; to laugh at life's absurdities. And sometimes laughter is the only genuine response - the last great act of defiance! This is the art of 'sitting loose to life', which means developing a less resisting, more surrendered attitude in which we expect the best of all unfulfilled possibilities and potentials - and never stop dreaming!
 
Neptune in Sagittarius
Idealism is an innate talent, and you are in love with grand gestures and long thoughts. Religion, politics and philosophy are natural interest. The world traveler, you enjoy fair, just, frank and broad-minded persons. You are gregarious and sports-minded. You dare to dream big. You like new philosophies and long novels.
 
Neptune Sextile Pluto
You work with real imagination and understanding in areas of the mind that are the most personal or private -- depth psychology. You are like a midwife of the spirit, assisting at the birth of each individual going through a spiritual or re-birth process. You accept the natural process of birth, spiritual and physical, and have dedicated yourself to helping it along. You would make a great teacher in these areas.

 
The Astrological Pluto
Pluto is the planet of profound change, starting deep within you and moving toward the surface, often touching upon the most sensitive areas. It's about waking up to the 'hidden things', and doing so by reaching an intensity of awareness whereby, once touched, you have no choice but to change and grow. Pluto is the process of becoming fully conscious of (revealing) what has been happening all around you, even though you may not have been aware of it. Like sex and death - you get to a certain stage in your development and suddenly you realise what's going on. Pluto is first-hand sensitive experiences and times of complete identification with a person, feeling or idea. This is very intense stuff, and to touch upon this material is to go through permanent change and transformation - inner alchemy.
 
Pluto in Libra
Change and inner growth tend to come through relationships, both friends and lovers. Marriage or union (yoga) will be very intense and not at all superficial. You get to the heart of a relationship each and every time.
 
 
House Activity and Emphasis
Astrologers agree that astrology is first of all the study of the angular relationships between the planets themselves. But this planetary framework is seen to shift and modify itself as the planets slowly move across the backdrop of the signs, the so-called 'fixed stars' which make up the zodiac. As the earth turns daily on its axis, the planets and signs appear to move across our field of vision through what astrologers have termed 'houses'. The sun rises at dawn and can be seen on the eastern horizon, or first house cusp, or ascendant. It reaches 'midheaven' at noon, and sinks below the western horizon at the descendant.

Like the twelve signs of the zodiac, the twelve houses of the horoscope can be viewed as stages in a complete cycle: From the initial thrust of Aries and the first house, to the maximum entropy symbolised in Pisces and the 12th house. They provide clues as to which areas of your life can be given special attention and used depending on the signs and planets residing there. Here is an analysis of the house activity in your chart based on sign and planet emphasis. As you read along, keep in mind that each house represents a department of life, and the sign falling on each house cusp indicates the mode of action applied to the affairs of that house. In other words, the sign on each house cusp, along with any planet(s) contained therein, shows how one deals with the conditions of that house.
 
The First House
The first house, also called the ascendant or rising sign, is a dharma house and connected with motivation and our approach to life. It also has to do with how we come across to others, thus our appearance and how we make a first impression. The ascendant is the essential stuff that bubbles up in us spontaneously - what is obvious to others as our trademark look or approach. The first house shows our ability to be recognised, how we make a directed effort, and how we exert our will. Cultivate the strategies of this part of your chart to move forward in life.
 
Cancer on the 1st House Cusp
Cancer is the mother of the zodiac, always making a home, protecting and providing a foundation for others. A sensitive sign where feelings and real experience count more than cold logic, it doesn't get any more physical and emotional than this. Cancer energy is always nurturing, sensitive, tender and moody. It feeds on emotional comforts, and often has a strong attachment to the past and ancestry.
 
 
The Second House
The second house is connected with matters of wealth; how we respond to, enjoy and get in harmony with our surroundings. This is how we hold or acquire things (possessions, material goods, money, and other resources), and how we gain material support and sustenance. The second house refers to how we secure ourselves, how we make a firm foundation, as well as the kind of response we get from life and those around us. Therefore it has much to say about our material rewards.
 
Leo on the 2nd House Cusp
Leo energy is expressive, vital and exuberant. Often very artistic, and always theatrical and dramatic, this is the sign of creativity and the arts. Warm and big-hearted, Leo lives in full appreciation and celebration of the finer elements of life, bringing a dynamism and enthusiasm to everything it touches. This is the fearless 'becoming' stage, where things are done for their own sake, playfully and with pleasure.
 
Jupiter in the 2nd House
Your career or life-path may depend on your talent for responding and making something out of ideas, insights... whatever is new and challenging. The business world may call for your ability to react and build on opportunities.

 
The Third House
The third house shows how we make connections and communicate with the world. This is where we draw parallels, make comparisons, and sort through it all. A very mental house, it is concerned with finding, gathering, all manner of questioning, articulation and conversation. In short, it symbolises the functions of the rational mind - linking observations and ideas, and using them to our advantage.
 
Leo on the 3rd House Cusp
Leo energy is expressive, vital and exuberant. Often very artistic, and always theatrical and dramatic, this is the sign of creativity and the arts. Warm and big-hearted, Leo lives in full appreciation and celebration of the finer elements of life, bringing a dynamism and enthusiasm to everything it touches. This is the fearless 'becoming' stage, where things are done for their own sake, playfully and with pleasure.
 
Saturn in the 3rd House
You don't waste words, and communications tend to be short and to-the-point. You are very determined and deliberate when it comes to mental work and would make an excellent researcher or scientist. You concentrate on what is essential.

 
The Fourth House
The fourth house is a very emotional house, concerned with matters of comfort and security. Here is how we create the right conditions, the matrix or womb, in which our desires can flourish; the climate necessary for things to grow. It's about receptivity, nurturing and all the self-protective measures we take to ensure a secure base of operations. This is why the fourth house is related to the mothers, all 'mothering' functions, domestic issues and feeling 'at home'.
 
Virgo on the 4th House Cusp
Virgo energy is analytical and precise, always separating out what is worthwhile and worth supporting from that which is outmoded and of no further use. A mental earth sign, here the mind takes control over matter. This is the sign of 'ways and means', implementation, instrumentation, physical effectiveness and efficiency. Virgo energy is always facilitating, often caring more for others than for itself.
 
Pluto in the 4th House
You may go through a lot of changes that affect your sense of security. Your home and family situation could be a focus for growth and real learning -- an area of great sensitivity and vulnerability.

 
The Fifth House
The fifth house, another dharma or 'life purpose' house, has to do with creativity and warm out-going self-expression. Here is where we find our originality and flair, enthusiasm, and even pride in ourselves, building confidence and self-esteem. This is the life area of personal sovereignty, where we begin to recognise and appreciate our own dynamic and playful nature. All forms of creative expression (including love affairs and offspring) are connected with this house.
 
Scorpio on the 5th House Cusp
Scorpio is intense, passionate, and very personal. It rushes past superficialities and right to the heart of any matter. A loyal friend but a fanatic foe, this sign does well in politics and all areas where someone who dares is rewarded. Associated with sexual energy, Scorpio loves to get involved, going down deeper, coming up dirtier, and laying bare anything that lies hidden there.
 
Uranus in the 5th House
You are unconventional when it comes to self-expression and enjoyment. You find new and different ways to get it out -- possibly sports, the creative arts, and such. Always independent when it comes to emotions, you don't mind feeling a little different. You are innovative when it comes to self-analysis and self-care -- food, diet, health, and so on. You can see new ways to make use of the status quo. An unconventional approach to working for/with others may require a special work situation for you.

 
The Sixth House
The sixth house is the house of physical efficiency. Here we separate the wheat from the chaff; get a sense for what is useful, what is not, and make the best of it. This is the life stage of 'apprenticeship', where we make a connection between mind and matter, adapt ourselves to a situation and then seek to improve upon it. Hence the connection of the sixth house with routine; 'practice makes perfect'. The sixth house shows how well we handle the details of life - our ability to solve problems and get our way.
 
Sagittarius on the 6th House Cusp
Sagittarius is nothing if not direct, candid, and to the point, for this sign is always concerned with the absolute truth of the subject at hand. Associated with philosophy, outreach and all things boundless, Sagittarian energy is always welcome in politics as well as social and community endeavors where its basic fairness and expansiveness is helpful.
 
Neptune in the 6th House
You have good powers of imagination, especially when it comes to your health and how you take care of yourself. You may find yourself helping others see the benefits of how proper care and the proper outlook (as in creative visualisation) can bring about amazing results.

 
The Seventh House
The seventh house, the descendant - opposite of the ascendant - is connected with partnerships, relationships and 'significant others'. Here is where we learn to strike a balance - the art of give and take. All that carries us beyond our personal self (and into an awareness of contradictory or complementary points of view) is symbolised by the seventh house. This is where we respond to the personal needs of others. Therefore marriage and union (yoga) are indicated by this house, as well as one's ability to respond to a marriage partner.
 
Capricorn on the 7th House Cusp
Capricorn is the business head of the zodiac, for it is the very opposite of the emotional Cancer. Given to clear ambition and practical insight and vision, this sign always takes a distanced perspective and a cool appraisal. Deliberate and painstaking, sometimes to the point of austerity, Capricorn loves work and the hard-earned results. Status and material reward are very important.
 
 
The Eighth House
The eighth house is the house of first-hand transformative experiences and situations - those areas of life that we may not care to face, but we must face sooner or later... the so-called 'inevitables' of life, such as death and taxes. The eighth is also concerned with catharsis; the getting rid of excess parts of ourselves that we no longer need. This house covers initiations of all kinds, as well as activities where we find ourselves transformed toward a more integral position. Thus it also covers any jointly held resources, their problems and their benefits.
 
Aquarius on the 8th House Cusp
Aquarius, the sign of humanitarian goals and altruism. Always impartial and nonsectarian, Aquarian energy is communal (even global). The focus is on the goal, and the goal is always one that is for the many and not the few. Thus this sign is connected to far-seeing visions, world views and group work of all kinds. This sign tends towards coolness, independence.
 
Moon in the 8th House
Your keen business sense is never sharper than when you are working with or for others -- a group, corporation, and so on. You are great at finding excess and rooting it out, and your actions receive support from those around you. Initiating others.

 
The Ninth House
The ninth house shows where we are willing to go beyond our everyday experience in search of meaning. Traditionally the house of 'long journeys', the ninth house is where we take journeys both of the body and the mind. Philosophy, beliefs, speculation, opinions and how we form them all belong to this house. Any time we reach out, explore new territory, or align our activities with something bigger, we are operating in the realm of the ninth house. Along with Jupiter's position, here is where we can attract luck by keeping open and receptive to opportunities.
 
Aquarius on the 9th House Cusp
Aquarius, the sign of humanitarian goals and altruism. Always impartial and nonsectarian, Aquarian energy is communal (even global). The focus is on the goal, and the goal is always one that is for the many and not the few. Thus this sign is connected to far-seeing visions, world views and group work of all kinds. This sign tends towards coolness, independence.
 
 
The Tenth House
The tenth house, commonly called the midheaven, is the house of success and glory, practical vision and achieving a public distinction. Therefore one's reputation and career are often connected with this house. The sign on the tenth house cusp, as well as any planets located therein, show how we can strive to be a benefit to - as well as how we can benefit from - society. The tenth house is about having a goal in life and the self-determination to reach it. Here is how we can 'live our calling' and become self-piloting individuals.
 
Pisces on the 10th House Cusp
Pisces energy runs deep and toward the mystical -- whatever transcends the everyday world. This sign is understanding, patient and compassionate. Super-sensitive, it tends to absorb it's surroundings like a sponge. The sign is very trusting, accepting and giving of itself for the sake of more important issues. It loves free-ranging activities which allow for some imaginative scope.
 
 
The Eleventh House
The eleventh house is where we put our visions and dreams to work for others. The most future-oriented of the houses, the eleventh shows our hopes and dreams, and the opportunities we may have to reach them; how we can turn our dreams into reality. Therefore this house has always been connected with altruistic and humanitarian goals, as well as having the self-authorisation to set them in motion. Inventive and unusual, eleventh house activities often break from conformity, establishing new and unprecedented states of being.
 
Taurus on the 11th House Cusp
Taurus is about drawing on the bounty of the earth, and seeking material security and physical safety there. It is the on-going, enduring, unchanging and preserving element. Hightened sensory input is also important, for it is the mission of this sign to not only find a sense of place within the material realm, but to enjoy it to the fullest, becoming physically aware of, and bonding with the environment.
 
Venus in the 11th House
You love community projects and group work of any kind. Your sense of values finds you on the side of altruism and humanism at every turn. You appreciate goals and efforts at the global level.

Mars in the 11th House
You have real community spirit, a drive to work with others on projects of humanitarian interest. An urge to make your altruistic dreams a reality keeps you moving in the direction of group goals and work.

 
The Twelfth House
The twelfth house is where consciousness dawns - the house of the rising Sun. This is the indeterminate state - the chaos before the new impulse - where all is yet unfulfilled potentialities. Traditionally this is the house of 'sacrifice', and is often connected with prisons, betrayal and self-undoing. Although we can choose to become trapped and frustrated by the many obstructions to attaining our dreams, we can also choose to reach outward and upward to a more fulfilled state, transcending the usual down-dragging conditions and rising above difficulties - thus establishing a life nearer our ideal. Here in the twelfth house we have the capacity to attain liberation by using our visionary scope and working creatively with life's intangibles - the power of imagination!
 
Gemini on the 12th House Cusp
Gemini is concerned with connections, communication and logic -- voice, thoughts, writing, and rational mental processes in general. It is also concerned with making comparisons, 'twins' and duplications of all kinds. Gemini is the communicator, the gossip of the zodiac, the collector of trivia. Gemini energy is unattached, independent, very inquisitive and changable.
 
Sun in the 12th House
You naturally are a giving person, sacrificing your own interests for the sake of an inner vision -- what you feel is right. A born psychologist, you may find yourself counseling and caring for the mental needs of others.

Mercury in the 12th House
Your mind is naturally interested in all that is psychological and beneath the surface of things. Ideas of self-sacrifice and compassion -- how to serve and help others -- are what you tend to think about.

 

Lastly, there is no 'one and only' reading of the birth chart. The symbols of your horoscope change as your life changes - they mean one thing in the life of a youngster, and quite another in middle age. The mystery of the astrological symbols, and part of their beauty, is that they are flexible enough to be relevant and fixed enough to be meaningful, allowing you to approach your horoscope again and again with questions about past, present and future concerns.

 
1993-2006 Chaos Astrology
 
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Noisy Stuff: Fade to Black - Metallica
Yupp I'm still alive.......................... It's not so much I want to die its just that I'm tired of being alive....... It's Just that when things look up I realize I'm falling head first and I'm about to land in a pile of gravel........ Fuck it all............ Well at least for right now anyway.....




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Feb. 22nd, 2006 @ 12:32 am Cross posted to Survivors and Depression
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Noisy Stuff: Ass Like That - Eminem
Feelings Stuff: draineddrained
You know I have a side effect from the abuse I suffered and although it's not entirely bad it does have some attributes which may not be the healtiest for me.
The main side effect is that It causes me great emotional pain to hurt anyone even in the slightest be it emotional or physical. This helps me treat my fellow people with a great deal of curtousy and respect. Although at times it does hinder my abiltity to communicate with people because I live in fear of hurting them.
The second side effect which is probably the worst is that when I see or hear of someone elses pain I feel it to like it becomes a part of me I don't even have to know the person I just have to know a little bit about their emotional state and I feel their pain. This particular side effect gives my depression a limitless supply of fuel.
Anyway I was just wondering if anyone else has/had similar side effects from their abuse?
Feb. 20th, 2006 @ 06:58 pm The Vertiefung
Things About This Stuff
endless dark
Noisy Stuff: Puke - Eminem
Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed

When Darkness fall on the land and all is still,
and the last rays of sun hide behind the hill.
The Vertiefung comes out to play in the night,
and fill your dreams with its own delight.
It great pleasure in torturing you with your fears;
and if the Vertiefung finds you that fact will become clear.
Once it sinks its teeth into you and you feel their sting,
you will expierience the unparalelled grief it can bring.
It will pick at your heart and feast on your soul,
untill you feel that only death will make you whole.
There is no escape from the Vertiefungs poisonous grasp,
untill your life ends and you take your final gasp.
Untill then the Vertiefung will play with you in the night,
and twist your dreams to its wicked delight.
So say your prayers and close your eyes tight,
because the Vertiefung just might be coming for you tonite.

Nameless_Me

Feb. 20th, 2006 @ 06:54 pm All is One and One is All
Things About This Stuff
Dead and gone
Feelings Stuff: depresseddepressed

All is one and one is all.
Long is short and short is tall.
All the living are mortal,
but death brings eternity.
All we are is all we think,
our thoughts are forged by our lives,
and our lives are forged by fate.
All that was will be again,
and once again will be then.
The universes' knowledge
rets in each and every one,
yet few realize this fact.
We are linked to everything
by the common elements.
We know all that is to be,
because we know all thats been.
The solution is simple
yet impossible to grasp,
because we lack proper sight.
After all we can't grasp that,
all is one and one is all. 

Nameless_Me

Feb. 18th, 2006 @ 12:46 am Debb22 is right Kitty quizes rock
Things About This Stuff
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Feelings Stuff: tiredtired
Noisy Stuff: Atomic Dog - George Clinton and the Parliment Funkadelic
Cat level 3 (Tiger piccie)
Cat Level 3- You're middle ground here. You're sort

of cattish, but then again you're not. Kind

of a half-and-half, happy medium sort of

thing. Go you.
~the sweetheart in your result is Tiger, may he

rest in peace~


How Cat-like Are You? ~finished, with cute cat pics!~
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Feb. 17th, 2006 @ 03:07 pm Insert Subject Here
Things About This Stuff
endless dark
black cat
You are a black cat, stubborn yet friendly, you

stick to your values and preferences, and no

one can convince you otherwise! You are the

legendary cat of mystery.


What color of cat are you?
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