I really don't know what this thing is anymore.

I don't know why I can't keep up with this...

I do have some things to say though while I am at it.

I haven't updated since Sakuracon... Well... even before that.
I don't want to make this about my cosplay anymore.
So that's why i don't even say antyhing on here.

Honestly, I never wanted to give into facebook, but I did.
It's easier to write a sentance throughout the day.

I'm at that point in life where I need things to change for the bigger and better.
I can't stand anymore stress, ever since my mom passed.

I can't deal with other people's stress around me and I have been feeling super lonely. I know you are all there for me and I appreciate it. It still does not cancel the feeling.


I had fun at Metrocon. I loved seeing everyone. I missed doing the shows and those friends are always there for me as well.

I do pop up here and then on LJ.
I have been state hoping and I emotionally cannot stand it much more.

I feel like I do need to rant to the world, but I don't wnant to seem like one of those people who are searching for attention online.

Sometimes I feel like I have no one left and I know that's not true.
I have a very loving partner in life and that's all I need.
I feel like I have to be there for my sisters more than ever... and I am not even with them.

My birthday is coming up and honestly, I don't even care. I don't want to do anything... I just want to have fun?




Sorry for the stupid ranting. I don't know what else there is to say and honestly... I don't see how this would make sense to some of you because I haven't been saying anything here.

But I do have one thing to say.


Love your parents. No matter how "stupid" and "unfair" and "fucked up" your life is.

You never know.

And I think that is worth saying and updating about.

Hi.

Why the EFF are all the communities in my search... RUSSIAN!?

I'm effing American! xD
I cannot READ Russian.

I miss old LJ searches.
And it wonders why I have shunned it into the corner of the internet.

I failed you again LJ.

But I do want to post something totally worth mentioning.

Jer and I are running a panel at METROCON!
Be there. Or be square.

It is "Tea with the Funtom Toy and Confection Company".
It's gonna rocks. In all way, shape, and form.

Here is the details of what everyone will read:



Dear METROCON guest,

You are invited to attend a spectacular event hosted by the Funtom Toy and Candy Co. and possibly some surprise guests. The Earl of Phantomhive, head of the company, will be present announcing a new line of products. Please join us for afternoon tea where there will be much fun and games, such as trivia and your chance to win prizes. After all, one never knows what to expect when the Phantomhives are involved, and the event should prove to be one hell of a panel...

We hope that you all will be able to join us.

Sincerely,
Earl Ciel Phantomhive (as written by Sebastian Michaelis, butler of the Phantomhive house)


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Who would NOT wanna go. >D

Happy New Year all.
I have a good feeling about this one.


In other news.
Anime Los Angeles this weekend.
I'm excited.

And you know what I am even more excited about?



This puppy!
Especially made for me by a very talented commissioner. xD
I had some time issues with him but it was all worth it.
It was sent today. Should be here Thursday night. -bounce-
So it will be here in time to take with me into the cosplay contest. *_*

I am also bringing a super secret cosplay and Rosette back to life!
I cannot wait, though sewing the same thing times 3 is exhausting...
And Rosette! Oh man. I missed her. And I have no good photos of that cosplay.
That is gonna change. >D

Well I hope everyone is doing well!
Stay safe.
<3

So it's finally convention time again.

And to start the New Year it will be Anime Los Angeles.
There will be a pinch of secret cosplay, a dash of Chrono Crusade, and a big helping does of Kingdom Hearts!

I also have a ton of new cosplays on the way!

I'm very excited about this year and have a good feeling about everything.

All will work out.
Yes yes. >D


Hope everyone had a good holiday.
All my presents will be bought at a later time. xO
So I look forward to getting a new Nikon and all that jazz.
Hooray!

Now.. crunch time!

To have your space invaded.

x_x


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So tomorrow is Christmas eve.
We're doing our Christmas shopping.


Joy to the world.
I'm crabby. xD

I finally got back into LJ and checked everyone's entry back to mine. Usually I fall back on that. And get lazy. So I receive a pat on the back.

Hahah anyways.

So I went to the post office yesterday.
Never again around Christmas. Never.
It was a war zone filled with no tape and boxes exploding.

I shall have to send out all my commissions after the holiday. My lordy.


It has also been raining for a week... No sun. Which is odd.
So with that I missed the effing lunar eclipse. I am sad.
Oh well~

My baby comes home tomorrow!
Yay!! =D

--- So that's about it.
Hoping my Tifa cosplay as well as her wig and my extra 3 wig heads come in the mail. ;o;

P.S. Made one of the best AMV's in my history of AMV making. Hahah. Should post it sometime after I show Jer. I told him he could see it first and let me know what he thought.

I'd have to say.
I shopped for the greatest gifts. For everyone.

I feel too accomplished this year with it.
It's an amazing feeling.

Jer... I cannot wait to see his face.

Now. How to get the only present I want this year. >D
A Nikon D3100! xD
(God I am so high budget)

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So I lot has been happening.

- I am currently in California.
- I am going to be applying for college online to get my first two years out of the way of all that extra shiz.
- I need to get a job. Though I am doing temp work for Jer's mom. And getting paid. =D
- My cosplays are so SO successful.
- I wish Facebook never took over my updating life. (I always despised that piece o' crap.)
- Anime cons are going to be full of awesome this great year of 2011. Anime LA, Sakuracon, and Metrocon!
- Jer and I will be moving out and HOPEFULLY staying in Bellingham.


And best of all.
In 3 weeks Jer and I will have been together for 5 years and known each other for 6. It's so amazing.

I'm SO gonna update this thing more. I will. I'll get back in the swing of things.

Dear LJ,

I think I'm going to come back to you.

Right now.

Love.
Me.