the thing is . . .I'm weak. I know that now, I'm addressing it The weekend, ahem Thursday, was a little much wine and a little much loneliness and I slipped. And then I was good Friday during the day, but fell into old weekend type stuff that night and bought a pack. By Saturday, I had the most enormous pile of shit in my chest. Not phlegm, but self-loathing. I just wanted to crawl in a cave and let snails and birds eat me. I got back on the wagon Sunday and have been a happier me ever since. The thing that gets me is feeling so good and proud of myself that I say I'm not a filthy addict that digs cigarettes out of the trash anymore. But that's not so, not at all.
In other news, I love Ross, the dress 4 less place. I got three workout DVD's for $15. "I Love Turkish Bellydance", "Flamenco is Hot!" and (gee i can't wait to have sex again 'cause i know its gonna be really hot)"Better Sex Through Yoga". All three are fun and challenging - a+
Today is day 2 of not smoking and it's been easy easy so far.. with the tempatures dipping into the teens it makes it unbearable to be outside, and since I never smoked in the house - hooray! The real test is going to be next week when my classes start back, and of course the next time I go out to the bar..
1st craving Even after having a dream where I smoked a cigarette without realizing it until I was putting it out, I really haven't felt the urge to smoke. Until a few minutes ago. I adjusted my posture, so I wasn't so hunchback, and then I took some deep breaths. I also did some Lamaze style breathing, basically huffing and puffing. That helped a whole lot!
Excellent idea. Glad I bothered to look up Chantix and find your new community. I, too, am going to quit no matter how hard it is!! 22 years of this B.S. is enough. I think you should promote this community in community_promo because I'm sure there are plenty of others who feel as we do!
Get er done getting ready for 1/1/08: my to-do list Clean House Drink alcohol, coffee Spend copius amounts of time on-line
These are things I like to do while smoking, or are so shitty that I need a cigarette afterwards to reward myself. So I'm doing that now. great, great, great.
not reeking of camels