Got a crew? We got a crew too.

No one is going to read this because the comm hasn't been updated in a year but whatever.
But yeah, I was looking for the first fic we done on Gabe's pennies because I loved it but yeah... I miss all of this. I miss being a part of all of this, the writing and the updating and the being together thing which you know, doesn't particularly happen much any more because we're all apart physically by miles and miles but I also feel like I've completely drifted away from all of you. And I'm not going to lie but I'm anxious about tomorrow because I'm scared that as a group, I'm not going to slot in like I used to. I don't know why I'm feeling the need to tell you all of this now after feeling like it for so long but the honesty gates have opened up for me tonight & I've spent hours literally pouring my heart out to someone over how shit I've been feeling. And talking about the need for you guys has spurred me into actually doing something about it. I should have said something sooner but I'm not the type to outright tell someone how I'm feeling about relationships, issues and such... actually, even if you'd asked, I would have lied about it. Anyway, it's too late to be telling you all this now but I guess I'm being honest to all of you for once in my life and not having to pretend. I love each and every one of you, that hasn't changed in the slightest, I just wish I could be close to you like I used to be. I know it's my fault things are like they are and I'm 100% guilty for it for specific reasons and for the fact of who I am.
I don't know, please don't think any differently of me. I just wish things hadn't changed.

Fighting an inner battle, it would be so much easier if none of you read this and I carried on pretending and tricking myself into thinking differently. I might delete it before you've had the chance or tell you all to read this on the way home tomorrow. So yeah, if this post is still here, I've stopped being a fucking pussy for once.
I'm sorry, I love you.

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And boredom usually leads to me and Lucy arguing via something. This is honestly just really random but yeah, here it is.

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little sidenote: Brendon and Ryan are both wrong. I got the cutest boyfriend in camp. JS!

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rawrawrawrawr. um, yeah, bren and ryan hanging and being adorable and bill and tom... uh, hanging and being weird.
lalala. enjoy?

<3
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AAAAAAAND. yeah, the parteh! :D


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