My heart aches. I wander around inside the empty space left in my soul because she is not there. I miss her. The way it ended was not alright. It's not my fault, or hers, but that doesn't make it any easier.
My heart is broken, my soul is empty, my thoughts are consumed.
I wish I couldn't cry anymore.
I miss you my love. Always and forever.
could not ask for a better woman. why was i so stupid before? this time is forever, for real. i will spend the rest of my life chasing her if i have to. i would walk to the end of the earth just to fall down at her feet...and it everything i went through would be a small price to have paid. i love her completely, witg every fiber of my being, all the way to the end of me.
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well, crazy developments in my woes of love. i have her back, sort of. its going to take a long time to fully regain her trust, and there's a lot of work still necessary to make us both whole again. i dont care what it takes, or hiw long it takes me. i will not lose her again. i will not suffer the heartache, emotional anguish, and broken feeling in my soul ever again.
i never should have left. i never should have let it get that far. i should have been more in control. i shouldnt have broken promises. today i feel like a horrible person.
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im so fucked up. i miss her so much it brings me to tears sometimes. i dont know whats happening to me. i look at the pictures of us and all i see is a happy couple, a happy family.
ive moved on to another relationship and things are going great. her and i know each other so well and have a great time together. but i cant stop thinking about my ex. i cant stop missing her. i cant stop thinking about her. i cant stop wondering what would be if i had stayed. what if i had just gone outside and taken a minute to calm down. why didnt i just make her smile and stay...
i broke promises and i broke her heart. it makes mr feel terrible when i think about it. would i change it if i could? i honestly dont know the answer to that.
i miss you jade, i will always carry you in my heart, and you will always have a piece of me. i miss you and ben so much it hurts. i hope one day we can be friends at least.
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i miss her a lot right this minute. so much so that i stalked the hell out of her facebook. why do i still feel this way?
it still hurts too much.
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i want to hug her tight and breathe her in one more time. i want to say all the things to her that have been rolling around in my head since we split up. i want to apologize to her for the all the broken promises, all the sleepless nights that were my doing, all the tears she shed because of me, and all the times i failed her.
i promised her i would never leave her, that i would love her until the end of time, and that she could always count on me to be there when she needed me. i promised her i would never treat her like her ex husband did. i broke her heart and left her crying on the floor in a heap. i wasnt the best boyfriend i could be, not the best man i know i have to be.
i read her son bedtime stories and told him i loved him too. i promised him i wasnt going anywhere ever and he could always find me in the other room. he would never have to be afraid because his mommy and i would always be there to protect him. i promised him i would always be there for him.
the two of them made my heart full and my soul smile. i failed them both. i failed myself.
i miss them both so much, i just need one more hug.
i guess theres one promise i havent broken, and never will. i will love them both for the rest of my life, but i will never have them back.
i miss you jade, i love you still and always will. benjamin, i love you too buddy, and you can always find me if you need me no matter what im always here for you.
im so sorry for all the hurt i caused, i never meant for this to happen, and certainly not this way.
im sorry, and i will love you both always.
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