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Hi girls,

I just wanted to put in an update, since I haven't in a while. I noticed we have a few new members, always a plus. Welcome, girls!

I wanted to inform you all that I'm not here a lot of the time, and due to school and just life in general, I am running out of time for LJ. This place doesn't take up too much of my time, so I am keeping it around. I have long since given up on my other communities. If I continue to suffer in school, I'm going to have to eliminate this one as well, so I am planning ahead, in the case that I do give up LJ completely, and need to transfer maintainership to someone who has more time.

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Toodles, kids.
xo

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pretty_lesbians.

Rating community for the inner beauty.
Try it out!

heike_leilani

x] Name? Heike
[x] Age? 17
[x] Location? Tennessee
[x] What does “strong” mean to you? strongs means i have put the past behind me. i learn from what i can and never forget a thing so that it doesn't repeat itself... but i do not let it control my life. strong is seeing the positive in everything and learning how to stay sane in the midst of a fucked up situation where the only place to go is down further.
[x] Why are you here? i'm here because i refuse to let somebody else's mistakes take me down before i'm good and ready
[x] How did you find this place? just looking around
[x] Any last words? i've got to much attitude to be shutting up now:)

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i guess im kind of awakward and bad at introductions so ill stick to the survey

x] Name? gelsey
[x] Age? 15
[x] Location? maine
[x] What does “strong” mean to you? strong to mean means no matter how shitty things get or how uncomfortable you stay confident in a good outcome and never let go of that hope of what things will be like if you keep fighting and hang in there. strength is what keeps everyone going.
[x] Why are you here? im here because recently ive been coping with bdd and recently ive become extremly self hating and im as depressed as ive been in my entire life. i dont have any friends i trust or can talk to and i thought this community would be good to help me to stay strong.
[x] How did you find this place? browsing for bdd
[x] Any last words? i truly hope i can find help here and someone who will listen. i would greatly appreciate it. thank you.

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I have been seeing my shrink for over a year now. May 2003 I was in the hospital for a suicide attempt and depression. I am 100% better now and I am very happy.

Here is my problem...

I see my doctor 2 times a week, ever since I can remember. I have begged him to let me cut down, even just stop therapy altogether and just have a visit every once in awhile to make sure everythings okay. He says that its not a good idea because he believes there are still things I have to "deal with", but I dont because I don't cooperate and I am "resistant."

I do not feel it is necessary to continue seeing him. The problem is that my parents trust my doctor and want to do what he thinks is best. I no longer have anything to talk about. I hate going there, and I'm beginning to hate him. What can I do about this?

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[x] Name? Alison
[x] Age? 17
[x] Location? MN
[x] What does “strong” mean to you? Being able to handle all the difficulties that come along in life, and handling them in a way that is healthy, not harmful to yourself.
[x] Why are you here? Recovering from depression, Weight issues (I'm overweight)
[x] How did you find this place? Searching the interests
[x] Any last words? Hi everyone :)

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Well, I'm glad this community is staying active. This makes me happy.

I've been doing quite well. There's been no cutting, no other forms of self injury. I'm proud.

I had this huge realization that my mom has her body image issues projected onto me, so I'm finally freed of this HUGE burden I've been carrying with me for such a long time. I'm fine with the way I look, and I MEAN it.

I've been having one anxiety attack after the next recently, and I'm paralyzed with fear about my futute. My therapist says it's because I'm going back to school in the fall, after a hiatus, and I'm worried about slipping into the same rut I was in when I dropped out, but I don't think it's the case.

I mean, I'm worried about when I'm out of college, and on my own. I'm worried about rent, groceries, my retirement plan, and being an old, crippled woman who has no friends when she's 75. Does anyone else get this?

I know it stems from my paralyzing fear of being alone. If I ever had wanted to off myself in the past, it was not because I was so depressed I couldn't go on, and all that dramatic bullshit. It was because I was afraid to live alone when I was 30. I still am.

I feel that, since most of you have shared your stories with all of us here, I'll be the next to share my story with you. It's something I wrote awhile ago, when I was hospitalized. (When you're in the psychiatric ward, they often make you write an autobiography.) It will be LJ-cut and friends only.

If you need any support, or someone to talk to, I'm always here for you.

Take care, girls!
Stay strong!

Lindsay

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I was playing around with the community, and I figured that while I was on here, I'd do a check-in and see how everyone was doing, and if anyone needed a little extra support.

Comment, please.

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Well, I'm back in action. I see we have a few new members here.
Welcome:
hbsailorme
babydoll_cry
this_is_my_love
th1s_s1de
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bearly525

I'm glad you're here. Also, we have another moderator; hurtmyfeelings. Be nice.

If you need anything, I'm always here to listen. Stay strong, girls!

xo's

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Just thought I'd post some lyrics. I love this song. I think it kinda fits this community too.
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Hi everyone! I'd just like to share that I have gone one full month without cutting. This is a very big thing for me, and I'd damn proud of myself.

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I'm writing this because right now i dont feel all that strong and maybe some one could help me.

This is also the first time im using and lj cut so bear with me if it doenst work... i'll apologize a head of time in case this gets really out of hand and long

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Thanks girls...