touya_kisiragi

My dreams have been increasingly vivid as of late. it is odd. The one last night that i had was odd. I was talking to a girl, whom i referred to as Emily (although, i have never seen this person before to my knowledge) in a large library (side note: i have had numerous dreams in this library, when she stopped talking and kissed me on the lips, then began to run. at this point the dream was most vivid, i remember what it felt like, soft and warm, and she was wearing a light pink lip stick. she went up a floor, than down a floor, while i ran behind her. then a group of people dressed in black showed up and blocked my path. I lost sight of the girl, and began top shout her name, then the dream ended. i woke up. kind of anti climactic in my opinion. allot of the dream is hazy now, but i remember that it was very vivid when i had the dream. the colors alone stunned me.

I have been looking into the meaning of this dream, but i don't know much about dreams, and dream dictionaries don't work, because they don't focus on the whole dream, just chunks, so the interpretations leave something to be desired.

oh well. on with a small update. I am hot, and tired. My first dog, and best friend for all of high school, died of cancer, and The girl i was seeing broke up with me because she wanted a relationship that was more like a high schoolers relationship, while i wanted a relationship that, you know, communicated more, not just a relationship that was physical based. don't get me wrong, the ecstasy i felt from the physical was great and all, but i wanted more. so i think that the break up was fairly mutual to an extent. In all honesty, it felt right, breaking up, and i didn't get too bummed out over it.

also, i spent all weekend working my ass off in the yard, now my body has its revenge.
a;

So Gygax died....kind of a major blow to the rpg gamers world. I owe alot to the man, his game has given me alot of joy, both directly and indirectly (after all D&D could be considered a blue print for all rpgs at some point)

other than that i am almost done with my major...kind of scary when yopu think about it, to be thrust into the world, a variable baby in the anthropology feild... @_@
ohhh well.

in gaming news, i have been playing disgaea 2 which is just as good as the first, which is great. and i squeed with joy when i heard about disgaea 3 coming out in august.
Sadley Final fantasy XI has lost its pull for me, i just find the game boring at places now.

Anime wise i have found a few good series, including ergo proxy (one of the best animes i have ever seen), Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei, Eureka 7 (it has what i like to call the trogdor syndrom, is it a sportsa anime? mech anime? sports mecha anime? but still good, i like an anime that can laugh at itself), and the one that i have just got around to finishing Tengo toppa Gurren Laggan.

also i may get married. just a little thing.

yea, looks like i am going >.<

update later, study now

But... where did the word boob originate?
I thought of this while i was on thew bus today... is it a corruption of breast? IDK, but its intersting.....

like i said....don't judge me

Something odd has happened, i think i might have changed in some manner mentally....I saw someone whom i should hate completely, a person that broke up with me, and made me not want to date women ever again....over msn messenger. and i had a decent conversation, with no animosity whatsoever. what the hell. i had planned to just get angry in some sort of fashion, but i didn't...>.< maybe thats a good thing, i usually like to get angry at a person once, just to kill that animosity, but this time it didn't happen.... maybe i am bottling it all up till i explode, postman style...or maybe i have realized that what i thought was a relationship, wasn't a relationship at all, just a person that i was having sex with.... meh....

*throws hands up in the air*

at least it was some form of closure. limited as it was for resolving issues still standing between us. i did learn that love doesn't really exist, and it is just out minds trying to make us want to mate.

but maybe i am being jaded.... @_@ ZOMG things get to complicated, why can't life be simple

on a side note....

HAPPY CHRISTMAHANAKWANSADAN~~~~~~

i <3 you all
<(^_^)>

my back hurts >.<
i think i slept on it wrong...
oh well, not like i use my back at all >.>
Also in for a tough quarter, i have to identify every bone in the human body from peices of fragments T_T, two of which will be fake
sigh....

I hope the writers get what they want.

I have nothing new to say... i don't know.... kenna killed her fish though >.>

/rant
Fuck you

Beowulf is an awesome story, why did you have to fuck it up with a purely 3-d animation film, and with a fucked up story line(the names of the chars are the same but the myth is lost in an unreasonable fashion, basically they rewrote the epic poem), which you admit to fucking doing on purpose!!!!

If you are going to make a movie based on an epic poem/ myth then get the story right.
This is why i refuse to watch any movie based on myth, it just pisses me off. I thought this would be different, but nope, still a pile.
/end rant

Toooooooooo much work
>.<
goddamnit and its my fault
taking 3 400 lvl classes, all that depend on midterm essays and 10 page long research papers T_T
someone kill me
not really, i like to breathe so i should remain alive.