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To start off, my name is Doug and I am 17 years old; I live in Long Island and I've recently come out of the closet to my parents that I am gay.
Please read and reply to the LAST LINE if you would not like to waste time reading through my life story.
To anyone out there compassionate enough to lend an ear, or perhaps provide feedback for my dying soul...I am facing an extreme emergency tonight, and am in desperate need of guidance, help, and any form of advice. It has been approximately one month now since my parents have found out about my homosexuality, my boyfriend, and the alternate lifestyle that I've been living the past few years.
I come from a rigidly strict Protestant family, and live with a heterosexual twin brother and an older heterosexual brother as well. My mind was constantly filled with Christian beliefs and morals which I thoroughly believed in, and I went to Church every Sunday growing up in Long Island. I was even the successor to the position of President in the Christian Club at my High School senior year, but I suprised all by dropping out of that position and from the club entirely due to "personal reasons." Even though I believe in my religion with all my heart and soul, I have often times felt hypocrisy in the past being the promiscuous gay that I have become.
Recently, my parents have found out about my homosexuality through my twin brother who came home drunk one night and uttered my secret in his hollow state of mind. Of course, I could not deny this. I had dreamed of this day to come in my nightmares, and shaked in fear at the mere thoughts of coming "out of the closet" with my strict Christian family. My father threatened suicide over and over, and both my mother and father threatened to disown me. My boyfriend John has already moved to Binghampton University, and my parents constantly torture me over him, saying that he is "ugly", "disgusting", etc. etc. and how they will send me to a Christian Conference that supposedly reverses the "Gay Mental Disorder" through mind manipulation and Christian hypnosis (???), This has been going on for everyday this month.
TODAY:
My mother called my boyfriend John ugly again and went on about how he must be "retarded" because of the way he looked - incessant mind manipulation that was painful enough, and thus I had stopped talking to my mother for 1 hour. My mother came in after my silence, and began to physically attack me. I have not yet said anything wrong to her, and have taken the complete "high road." I was outside of my house where my dad and I had a discussion, where he came to grips with the fact that I could not change. His conclusion was, since I could not accept heterosexual life by PERSONAL CHOICE, I must leave the house immediately. I replied that I would not leave the house unless physically removed, and if this is done - I would take LEGAL ACTION against him because I knew my rights. My father then told me to find a lawyer. I then immediately left the car because I no longer felt safe with him behind the wheels, and decided to walk home.
I am now in my room, and do not know what is going to happen next. I think I am going to have to arrest my parents tonight because I know they will strip me of everything and lock me in a closet. I do not have any other adults who support me, or anywhere else to go. They are soon going to throw me out of the house. I am packing my things as I type this out.
I need help on what legal/other action I can take as a gay teenager against (violent) parents who may throw me out of the house tonight.
Thank you.
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