Envoy of the Ayatan

There was a question of the day in a server that had me talking about dreams, and a few I wanted to share and tried going through some of my journal archives to find it. But, turns out I only had one entry tagged in my Dreams tag. So I did a little search to find more of those dream entries and I noticed something I hadn't much realized before...

Between the public entries I have and a private dream journal that I remembered to document and the things I remember but didn't document.... I have a LOT of dreams with eye trauma. I would have thought maybe 2 in my lifetime if you had asked me before, but no it looks like a lot more than that and I have... never noticed this before. And it ranges from extremely horrific to like the kind of horror that's awful but the response is passive and cartoonish.

Looking up 'Dream Meanings' out of general personal amusement and it's really funny because so many are like... are afraid to suggest that anything is bad about it.

Like you have these things that are like 'loosing an eye in dreams is about wealth and prosperity and togetherness! but maybe spiritual conflict'
https://www.dreamsdirectory.com/dream-about-eye-injury-meaning.html
https://www.dreamsdirectory.com/dream-about-eyes-being-removed-meaning.html
https://www.dreamsopedia.com/dream-about-eye-injury.html
https://www.dreamsopedia.com/dream-about-injured-eye.html
https://www.dreamaboutmeaning.com/dream-about-eye-injury-meaning.html

In this it is a bad omen
https://www.hindu-blog.com/2022/07/dreaming-of-eye-injury-meaning.html

This one has some interesting takes but then it kind goes into romantic relationship slanted things and please, not everything is about romance.
https://dreamyobsession.com/what-does-dreaming-of-eye-injury-mean/

anywho, ultimately it's all 'meaningless'. Like yes it has meaning in a 'what your brain decides to spit out at you might be related to latent personal issues' way but not in a spiritualistic omen sort of way.

At least not to me.

Does this have any correlation to the fact that I have a primary lead character with an extremely prominent, unavoidable eye-trauma injury that she refuses to even attempt to heal up in any way? I genuinely have no idea. It wasn't really a conscious decision, it was just one that felt like it should be there. I wasn't even consistent on the side it was on in the beginning because I got my left and right mixed up. I don't even have a problem with my own eyes, I don't even wear glasses. but man... IDK Weird that I didn't notice there was even a pattern until now.

Trying to get myself in order IDK. Back to using twitter now basically the same way I use Tumblr - I visit, maybe scroll once or twice see what I see but don't do a full backlog read. Did the english test for Alchemic Dream, now it's just waiting time. Now I need to make myself draw or something.

Participated in a Gacha again for Second Life, this time the theme was 'Cute' and 'fluffy' or anything like that.

I made some eyes again, made them to be reminiscent of like the eye types almost all dolls had back in the 10's with a little extra. There are actually a very minimal amount of 'solid' cartoony type eyes out there it seems. Hopefully I'll have enough this time around to get Casper Vend. The Gacha starts the first of next month.

I'm both excited about and dreading the next month. February has always been just ugh for me. But end of the month means Gacha festival! And start of season 6 of Venture Brothers! But it also means my birthday which I've just come to dislike, and not because I'm getting older, but because I can't do anything. And I'm surrounded by people that don't seem to care about birthdays but they're a big deal to me so I just end up not wanting to acknowledge it at all :/

But a nice thing I guess was, Z got me a birthday gift early, kinda unintentionally. So when we switched to TMobile, the phone I got was a 30$ refurb, Windows Nokia Lumia 350. It's not a bad phone but it's not like top line performance either. So a few days ago, Z got me a Windows Lumia 550 for my birthday! That arrived a lot sooner than expected lol. It's not too much bigger than my current phone, which I like cus I have a hard time with big phones, but it's definitely newer. Since it's not a nokia, he also got a case for it. Problem is, I can't use it right now exactly, see I have a regular SIM card and it requires a micro SIM card. So, we gotta get to a tmobile store. Bleh, all errands are so tiring when you don't have a car. But I'm excited for new phone! Maybe I'll attach my original Microsoft account to that phone so I don't have to worry about the split accounts anymore.

Also I've been having really vivid dreams but this one kinda stuck with me in a way to remember so I'll just jot it down.

So this thing stuck out in my dream, there was this location where, there was a big ol place called The Pirate Cove, The Entrance was enormous and it was some sort of giant entertainment establishment and both a mall entrance and part of a mall or something. I was waiting for a bus when one of the staff walked out with an animatronic parrot on her arm, she had one of those headsets that hook around her ear and she was announcing to the kids and guests waiting to come inside. Apparently the parrot anamatronic was on the fritz and she explained to the kids that he was 'grumpy' and may not be able to play with the kids today, and something else, probably something else about other stuff to do but that wasn't anything I remember. After she was done she asked one of the other staff to get the parrot his 'diva shoes' which were these like swashbuckler loafers, like the kind you sort of classically expect a pirate to wear lol. Apparently the parrot sat in those when not being 'worn' by one of the staff.

I had.... a very odd dream last night... I mean I've never had a dream like this before.
Kinda bizarr and surreal and such

( And a bit lengthy, so putting under cut )
I've never had a dream wake me like that before.. ever. I've.. woken up at times, but not like that.. with my heart racing.
Man I've even had a Silent Hill themed dream that didn't do that to me, slept pretty soundly hehe ^^
It wasn't even really scary, just something was so intense and foboding about the whole thing, I don't know what to make of it, and yet I'm intruiged
It's like a movie was I watching was turned off.. I keep thinking to myself "I wonder what would have happened.."

of course.. you know... if anyone would like to lend their interpretation of what the dream could mean, I think that would be really interesting ^-^

Uh.. that title
has to do with a dream last night
I dream of these spiders... that would like.. crawl inside people and eat them from the inside...

I swear, this has got to be a combination between Spiderginas and those Camel Spiders whoo! Yeah. that was a WEIRD dream... ( remember holding one of them and crunching it's head, and it was all crunchy and whatnot heh)

I can't remember the last time I had such an odd dream o_O (I mean, like, two nights ago I had a dream about a tape worm.. I mean geeze, what's with all the internal parasites? o_o)

Well, there was a meeting for Chuck E Cheese today, whoo.. heh so exciting. But.. it was pretty funny. We were going to start doing a new, really interactive live show, and there was this little beach ball thing, and our general manager, Susan, had kinda hit the ball, and it hit one of our other managers, Jamal, right in the head! lol ^^ After which he proclaime that Susan shouldn't be playing with the ball anymore ^-^
After which, more on the show was explain, and then we started kinda bouncing around the ball, (cus they were showing us that's what we should do with it) and the ball came up to Susan, and she hit it, and it hit one of co-workers in the head! lol ^^ Yeah, that was pretty funny.
Needless to say, I honestly enjoy working there.
After the meeting, I ran errands.. well, more like, I just kinda looked around in stores... Got some paper at Staples... since I normally sketch on printer paper, I got myself a ream of paper for myself.. the highest weight I could find, so that, if I sketch something really nice, and I want to color it, it's at least on half-decent paper.
Then I looked at prices on vid cards and monitors, to sorta anticipate what I want, and how much I'd be willing to spent on them.

Then lastly wal-mart, for some things I've been needing to pick up *grumbles about her sibs using all her stridex pads*
And... I'm thinking about getting some of the proactive stuff, as ugh, my skin has just been so annoying these past few months... worse than normal, and I really hate it *grumble grumble*

Oh, and yes, napalm_isis has called me and claimed between moans of pain, that if she goes on a killing rampage, I will be the first to die o_O Just because I think cramps are clensing *shrug* I can't figure out WHY she wants to kill me because of that... heh
(and on a side note, I think it's hilarious that Jen and I seem to have our cycles at the same time o_O heh)

and grrr *trying to get some white out pens to work* evil evil evil evil

aww slag
I was going to pick up a surge pretector *snaps* oh well, it's' not crucial, it would just be nice, being is, now I have a TV, PS2, and GCN, plus my sister uses the plug in that area for her cell phone.. so yeah I kinda need a power cord, so that we don't have to keep playing musical power cords.

New pokemon ish good.. *nod nods* and I can't WAIT for more Megamon to air DANGIT!

Oh, and for some odd reason, when I play doom... the sound is really... odd.. (and I have win 98 se, so it's not like, an XP problem) I can't figure out why...

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Quotes of the day (err... week.. err... whatever ^^() )
“Go get your own damn good cookie!” -- My sister, when I tried to get a bite of her chocolate chip cookie. lol ^^

“Did you know you have a male counter part in your head? His name is Aubro! You see, right now you are very in touch with your feminine side, but some times, you will turn into your suave and debonair side, Aubro!” – Jen
(LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

heh, ^-^ Yes, funny things. I’d have other funny things if I remembered to write them down, but I’m lazy, lol ^^

Oh oh oh!! *jumps up and down* I saw a pair of ducks at school!!! Lol ^^ yeah, there they were, in on of the puddles at the school, just minding their own business. They must have been a mating pair. But there were DUCKS!! At my school!! DUCKS!!! (yes, this discovery has made me very giddy.. lol ^^)
...
DUCKS!!!!

Another rather uneventful weekend *nods* yeah, I don’t really get to do much over the weekend, usually I go to a Yu-Gi-Oh tournament on Saturdays with my sister and brother. But, Sister Young (okies, for though who may not know, for Mormons, instead of using mister or misses, it’s Brother and Sister. So yeah, Sister Young, Mrs. Young.. whatever ^^()) was busy, that and the fact that her husband is in the national guard and has been called to leave soon. So yeah, no Yu-Gi-Oh this week, maybe next. And for those that are wondering why she would drive my sis, my brother, and me to a Yu-Gi-Oh tournament, is cus not only does her son like to play, (as well as her daughter sometimes) but she plays as well ^^ She’s really good too. Heh ^^
She’s cool, we’ve all been friends of each other’s families for not too long after we moved here from Mesa. So, yeah, hope all goes well with Brother Young. *nods*

I made chocolate chip cookies Sunday. My sis had been watching the Food Channel, and they had this whole thing on the best places to get pies and such. So, here I am, watching this stuff on sweets and stuff, and suddenly, I REALLY want some sort of pastry or something sweet, so I just decided to make some chocolate chip cookies. Darn that food network!! My sis watches it all the time... She also likes to watch infomercials ... o_O I asked her why she subjects herself to such torture by watching stuff about food. She’s says it’s a good kind of torture, lol ^^

Hmm.. I had something on my mind I wanted to talk about.. but I can’t think of it at the moment... ^^() Whoo... me and my mind.. ‘Tis an odd place, I suggest you don’t venture up there without special gear. You’re liable to get either:
A) Lost
B) Hurt
C) Eaten
D) Beaten With Popsicles
E) Confused
F) Mentally Corrupted

I’m sure there’s more... I’ll update this list... Maybe I should have gone by numbers.... ^^()

Still trying to get my drive to be the mater drive, but the computer is being fickle and stupid. I’ll get it to work. I MUST get it to work!! Need more RAM... That’d be nice, but I need money for that, thus, I need a job... ugh -_- I need to check around the stores around the school again, see if they have any applications in. I also need to get my applications in at Costco and Harkins, and just wait to see what happens. Right now, I just want a job I can at least be around people, or something. Heh, I’m really hopping I can swing a job a Circuit City. It’s a short walk from the school, and I could actually be of ‘help’ there. lol ^^ I mean, sheesh, I’ve helped out people at Wal-Mart or whatever with electronic related stuff before! Although, I personally prefer Best Buy ^-^ But, getting a job at Costco would mean I’d get a lot of benefits and such. Hmm, well, better get all the aps in now, or else nothings going to happen!

Oh, heh, watched Spy Kids 2. My mom rented it *shrug* I Like R.A.L.P.H.! It’s this cute little bug-like robot thing, it’s SOOO CUTE!! ^-^ It’s my sis and I’s fave character from the movie, lol ^^ You know, I think I’ve watched more ‘kid’ movies than most other ppl my age. (I think it’s due to the babysitting I’ve done) o_O I mean, I’ve seen all the Land Before Time movies, except for the newest one. Of course all the main Disney Movies, so far, even some of the sequels... T_T Some of them are EVIL!! The only Disney sequels that were any good were Rescuers Down Under, Toy Story 2, Lion King 2... and that’s about it. WOO I’ma freak!! lol ^^
And since we’re on the subject of ‘kids’ things, I caught a glimpse of the newest Power Ranges thing, Ninja Storm, just for Novelty’s sake. Quite different first off, three rangers instead of 5, 2 guys and 1 girl, and the girl was green. FINALLY! No more cliché pink ranger!! And uh... the ‘bad guys’.. were REALLY odd... o_O Poor yellow ranger... The yellows are always the first to die... Like Star Trek’s red shirts ^^ Yes, in the original Japanese version, people DIED!!!!!!!
And another odd thing. You know how each series, they have a ‘mentor’ type person, the person that teaches them, or is the source of their power? (the First one was Zordon, then there was this chick that took his place, and then they didn’t really have any and, yadda yadda...) Well.... they had this... uh... little mentor... It was a guinea pig... o_O A guinea pig in a blue robe. I mean, they’ve done some odd stuff, but this is just WEIRD!! ... A little guinea pig in a blue rode.... MASTER SPLINTER WANNA BE!!!
Oh, and yes, I must ask the age-old question... HOW IN THE HECK IS SPANDEX PROTECTIVE?!?!?!?!?!?! I mean, at least in the first movie they made it look like armor. Which reminds me, Mara bought the first Power Rangers movie... heh heh heh... And yes, WE’RE GOING TO WATCH IT!!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! She’s looked up all sorts of stuff on the original Power Rangers, and knows more about it than the normal person... Like the green ranger was Reta’s son, and he was supposed to be KILLED. And yeah, there really was NO white ranger. Oh yeah, and Reta made a pact with Satan, or something like that. And yeah, whole bunches more stuffies that I can’t remember at the moment.

Had another interesting dream last night... heh I had stood up for some guy, and made this one big guy look like an idiot in front of a bunch of people, and then the guy decided to go after me and hunt me down o_O Yeah, so me and a group of friends (no on inparticular, they were just there) Decided to get him before he could get to me... There were spray painted bunny suits involved... o_O (used to hid our identity)
But yeah, it was really suspensful, and kinda cool in a weird sorta way. It was like, a movie almost. heh ^^

Oh, yeah, and.. How come is it, every weekend, it's like, EVERYTING FALLS GOES NUTS?! ... Well, maybe not as much as it used too -_- *sigh* Parrot, when you get upset, CALL ME UP!! Talk with happy ppl. It make you happy too *nods* Oh, yeah, and did you ever get my letter?? ^^()

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I've been making fake pokémon cards lately ^-^

Hmm... well this is all I can think of for now. *nods*
THERE! I'm DONE!!! lol ^^