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[Saturday
November 28th, 2020
9:11am]

tumblrenby

Whats your name?: Sage

Age, Birthday?: 14, my birthday is April 23

Why do you cut?: I honestly don’t know I just like seeing the blood

When was your first time?: 2018 I think

What did you use?: a knife

Where do you most often cut?: my thighs and on my lower leg

In what room/area do you most often cut?: in my room and at the bathrooms at school

What do you use?: sharpener blades or safety pins

Do you hide it?: yes

Do you listen to music while you cut?: no

Anyone know?: yes

Eating Disorders?: Bulimia + Anorexia

Mental Disorders?: anxiety and depression

What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: I would probably ignore it and if I see any fresh ones after seeing it for the first time ask them to see a therapist and tell them

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Did that a few days ago

[Tuesday
August 6th, 2019
11:55pm]

bruisedcutie

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[Tuesday
August 6th, 2019
11:45pm]

bruisedcutie

01. Whats your name?: Amirah

02. Age, Birthday?: 15, August 24th

03. Why do you cut?: I usually cut from feelings of loneliness

04. When was your first time? 12

05. What did you use?: Razor

06. Where do you most often cut?: Legs

07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: The bathroom

08. What do you use?: Razors, fingernails, box cutter, pins, and sometimes a knife

09. Do you hide it?: Yes

10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: No

11. Anyone know?: My mom knows, but her reaction wasn’t what I expected it to be and she hasn’t done anything about my self harm yet

12. Eating Disorders?: None

13. Mental Disorders?: Not diagnosed

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Be supporting, talk to them about it

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[Saturday
June 22nd, 2019
2:25pm]

carmillasend

01. Whats your name?: call me Carmilla I'm not that comfortable using my irl name
02. Age?: 15
03. Why do you cut?: It feels so fucking good. Nothing compares to the stress relief that cutting yourself does. Waiting for the pain to come and then watching the blood come out feels great.
04. When was your first time? Sometime in 7th grade
05. What did you use?: An automatic safety razor
06. Where do you most often cut?: My legs
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: My room.
08. What do you use?: the blade from a pencil sharpener
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: not really
11. Anyone know?: they only know I used to.
12. Eating Disorders?: Surprisingly I don't have an eating disorder
13. Mental Disorders?: depression, anxiety, OCD, ADHD, and most likely BPD
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:
I already know my friends cut but if I didn't and I found out I'd respect their wishes if they didn't want anyone to know and be there for them if they wanted my support

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My Self-Harm: More Pictures

[Sunday
January 27th, 2019
10:18pm]

quietcutter98

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mood

lonely

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I'm ugly as fuck

[Thursday
March 1st, 2018
2:58pm]

quietcutter98

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It's like a drug, isn't it

[Monday
February 12th, 2018
2:11am]

doublespirit

I've always heard a comparison of self harm to drugs. It's addictive is what mainly is compared. But tonight I think I've experienced the high of this drug. It just made me so estactic! And I actually have a smile on my face right now. Usually it's always been peaceful and slow and quiet, giving me my calm, and i've cut less. But this is like the raddest party for one ever, and i've cut more. Must be the punk rock i'm listening too.

Anyone else experienced this "high"?

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Tired of being the black sheep of the family...

[Tuesday
December 26th, 2017
1:22am]

quietcutter98

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[Sunday
December 24th, 2017
9:43pm]

dez394

01. Whats your name?: Dez
02. Age, Birthday?: 16, 03/23/01
03. Why do you cut?: it relieves emotions, it gives me control, and I twistedly like seeing the blade slice my skin and seeing blood pool out
04. When was your first time? When I was 13
05. What did you use?: blade off of a disposable shaving razor
06. Where do you most often cut?: everywhere. Hips, arms, stomach, thighs, even my chest
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: bathroom or my bedroom
08. What do you use?: blade from a pemcil sharpener or any blade i can find
09. Do you hide it?: the blade? Yeah, in my phone case.
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: sometimes
11. Anyone know?: yes i get checked every so often vut i make up lies as to why there are cuts on my wrists and arms. They believe them so it's all good.
12. Eating Disorders?: atypical anorexia, b/p subtype.
13. Mental Disorders?: depression, anxiety, ADHD, mood disregulation (basically bipolar), and slight gender dysphoria
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: well my best friend is my girlfriend, and i dont want her to go through that soooo

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[Wednesday
December 20th, 2017
11:00pm]

quietcutter98

01. Whats your name?: Andy

02. Age, Birthday?: 19, October 30th, 1998

03. Form of SI?: Cutting, burning, hitting, ext. All forms

04. Why do you SI?: Calms me down, Control, Anxiety, Anger, Depression

05. When was your first time? What did you use?: I was 11, I used a metal bottle cap

06. Where do you most often SI?: My bathroom

07. In what room/area do you most often SI?: My bathroom

08. What do you use?: Razor blade, glass, soon an X-acto blade

09. Do you hide it?: Yes, but my family still knows

10. Do you listen to music while you SI?: No, I need to hear if someone's coming

11. Anyone know?: Family, friends

12. Eating Disorders?: Bulimia with Anorexic tendencies

13. Mental Disorders?: Depression, anxiety, PTSD, OCD, BDD, Borderline personality disorder,

14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: Be concerned, get them help

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Pictures of selfharm

[Wednesday
December 20th, 2017
9:58pm]

quietcutter98

Send me your gory pictures of your self-harm, please!

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[Wednesday
December 20th, 2017
2:09pm]

bluesunset123

Scrolling through ads.

I saw it.

"Better Help."

I looked, began to scroll again.

Stop.

Let me see it.

Can I do this? Should I look at this?

Maybe just a peak.

Maybe I should.

It looks good! Maybe I can get help!

Maybe.

Maybe...

Maybe this is a dumb idea.

I shouldn't spend money on this.

I shouldn't be doing this.

Auto response: "I'm fine."

"I'm fine, nothing is ever wrong."

...

There is something else that c an help me.

Glass.

Box cutter.

Staples.

And now! Let me say hello to the new addition to my sharp little family!

Thin and flexible.

Small and efficient.

The common member in almost every family photo.

The razor blade.

So sweet.

So cute.

I'll welcome you to the family, you and your 100 siblings.

You'll fit right in here.

....

I just know you are a good listener.

Better Help, then anyone.

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My black box

[Wednesday
December 6th, 2017
2:51pm]

doublespirit

I have a black box in my room. About the size of a basket. Inside are two separate slots, one long, one short. In each I keep my reminders. Reminders of when i was weak, when I couldn't take it. Inside are paper towels, soaked in my blood. No ones ever seen inside beside me, thank god, i don't know what would happen if my family saw. But i was wondering, does anyone else keep momentos like that?

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relapserelapserelapserelapse

[Sunday
December 3rd, 2017
7:17pm]

marierh

I havent cut myself in over two years. I haven't hurt myself for so long. I got help. I got meds. I got "over it." She got over it.

Youdonthaveareasonyourebeingdramatic

Medicine doesnt work anymore my dosage is already so high. Im so anxious and scared and I hate myself I hate my body why cant I fucking be perfect why couldnt i be valedictotian i was 3rd fucking third i cant pay for college i put too much SHIT AND TIME AND TEARS AND BREAKDOWNS so i wouldnt have to go to a shit college like every other fuck up in my school and thats whats happened i cant fucking i cant fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck im a FAILURE i dont WANT to work a shitty job i dont want to be a failure i dont want to keep being scared of failure my biggest fear is failure and its already happening its happening im a failure FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

I started punching my legs last week again i didnt cut because that would be failure and i dont want to disappoint my family my friends elizabeth the psychiatrist. Im so weak and pathetic i had to slam a textbook over and over on my thighs to get any effect

Butitsnotenoughitsneverenough

I sliced my thigh and blood dripped down down down my leg it was incredible i missed it so fucking much so damn much holy shit so fucking much god

It feels so good now

The only way i can cope anymore with the failure my life became. the girl who everyone wanted to surpass in highschool and they did the girl who was so fucking perfect and happy and joking and smart she couldnt be sad she could never be sad shes so perfect shes everything she could never be a failure. The girl who left the mormon church and disappointed the community because she doesnt want to suck boys dick like a good daughter of god the girl who volunteered three days a week for college applications and couldnt get it the girl who spent years being the best fucking pianist and couldnt even get the part to accompany the orchestra the girl who wasnt top of the class because shes not fucking smart enough anymore the girl who lost her best friends because shes not likeable anymore

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

My life has become nothing

I was doing so good so good so good

"It's been two years what a good example what a good example WHAT A GOOD PERFECT EXAMPLE PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT GIRL PERFECT GIRL PERFECT GIRL

THE PERFECT GIRL ISNT PERFECT ANYMORE

it feels so good the blood on my legs

Fuck why did I ever stop?

I relapsed. I cut myself. And im never going to stop.

I wont ever stop cutting again. Its the one thing I wont be a failure at. The one thing I wont fear.

whydidieverstopwhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy

I wont be a failure this time.

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"Are You Depressed?"

[Friday
December 1st, 2017
1:08am]

bluesunset123

When I heard this question the world around me went quite.

My head began to spin, asking myself this repeatedly.

......

Then a realization came to me.

My answer.

...

Am I depressed?

...

For as long as I can honestly remember...

From the time I was a child.

I can't remember ever feeling any different.

This emptiness.

It's all I can recall.

Crying, it's normal.

Suicidal thoughts, happens everyday.

Cutting, it's what happens when I get to my lowest.

But normal.

This is my normal and as much as I wish I could feel different.

I wish I could see this as wrong.

But I don't.

So- am I depressed?

How would I know anymore?

Now that I am calm for once, I can say all of this...

Because to me this is normal.

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[Sunday
November 26th, 2017
10:29am]

cyinides

01. Whats your name?: Jason
02. Age, Birthday?: June 16, 1999
03. Why do you cut?: To relieve pressure, to see my own blood.
04. When was your first time? I was twelve or thirteen?
05. What did you use?: A blade I found.
06. Where do you most often cut?: On my thighs and calves.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: Bedroom or bathroom.
08. What do you use?: Blade
09. Do you hide it?: Yep
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: No, but I would.
11. Anyone know?: Yeah, my mom and close friends.
12. Eating Disorders?: No
13. Mental Disorders?: Undiagnosed
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:I would ask them why.

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[Monday
November 20th, 2017
11:15pm]

digger23

01. Whats your name?: Ash
02. Age, Birthday?: 18, 18/01/99
03. Why do you cut?: To feel something and some relief to stop me from killing myself.
04. When was your first time? When I had just turned 13 I believe.
05. What did you use?: A blade
06. Where do you most often cut?: My arms, but there's hardly any where to cut on my arms that isn't scarred now.
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: The bathroom
08. What do you use?: a blade
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: no I don't
11. Anyone know?: some know I used to but no one knows I still do it.
12. Eating Disorders?: no, I just fluctuate between over eating and starving myself, no in-between.
13. Mental Disorders?: depression and anxiety
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?:
I would try get them to get help and not get to a point like me where there is no way out

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My friend

[Wednesday
November 15th, 2017
12:42am]

doublespirit

One of my friends tried to kill herself the other night. I've been worried that this might happen, and despite trying to let her know she's a loved friend and a great person, she still tried...

I couldn't get many details out of her, but I know she lost some blood, and passed out. I believe she tried to slit her wrists.

All this, it's just too much, for my heart, for my brain. And I've been good. Only one slip up in the last month. But now, i just want to mutilate myself.

If she's suffering, why shouldn't i suffer too?

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[Sunday
November 12th, 2017
2:33pm]

ext_4372779

01. Whats your name?: Damon
02. Age, Birthday?: 19, july 22nd
03. Why do you cut?: to feel something other than numb
04. When was your first time? 17
05. What did you use?: razor blade
06. Where do you most often cut?: thighs
07. In what room/area do you most often cut?: anywhere i can have my pants down
08. What do you use?: razor blades, a pocket knife every now and then
09. Do you hide it?: yes
10. Do you listen to music while you cut?: rarely
11. Anyone know?: yes a few close friends, some who do as well
12. Eating Disorders?: none
13. Mental Disorders?: adhd, aspergers, anxiety, depression and borderline
14. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend?: help them stop and be there for them

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What's been going on.

[Friday
November 10th, 2017
10:52pm]

bluesunset123

My head is a mess.

Every memory replays over and over like a broken record.

Making me feel worse.

It all....

Makes me want to disappear.

"I'm such a failure, what have I done with my life?"

"No one wants to listen to you."

"No one wants to see you."

"No one has time for any of your emotions."

"It's all in your head, all of it, you are just selfish and don't deserve to be heard."

"Everyone has problems, so shut it and keep it to yourself."

"Just put on a mask, hide it."

It makes me anxious, angry, hurt.

Confused.

It will never stop.

I know that.

Now I am overeating.

Calms me down.

Now I can't sleep.

I get more art done.

Now I'm still cutting.

Helps me feel as though I'm being forgiven.

......
...

I wish I wasn't a coward.

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