Soooo...long over due come back. I need a place to put my writing and this seems like a good place to put it.
So lets start with some poetry!!
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So lets start with some poetry!!
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- Current Mood:
energetic
Okay.
Deep breaths right? ^^; No wonder people hire wedding planners - I imagine I'll want to kill someone before this is all over.
I have meetings with florists all month since the one we were going to use went out of business. And Mary has accepted being my third choice for Maid of Honor. I feel so badly! But Shayna...has proven that she will not be my friend and Jenice is being sent somewhere because of her company internship.
Need to collect addresses and find a reception area - the church will be too small despite what my mother says. The pastor told us that only 100 people were allowed legally and we're expected at least 120. I also have to tell my mother I'm wearing the dress I picked and if that makes her mad I'll have to find another seamstress to take care of it.
Spring Break this week - thank god. I need a break so that I don't completely freak out again on Seth. Need to find out about Health Insurance and if things are smoothed out with Social Secruity...
I'm seriously considering, once Seth is more stable and is making enough in a few months to quit work and go to school full time. Having the extra money is nice but I don't think its worth the stress and exhaustion - some days I'm too tired to do anything after work.
I have cut down my hours to three shifts a week, so we'll see if my bosses schedule me like that. If not I'll have to talk to them and I'm not good at that. >.<
Oooh, but setting up a gift registary was fun. >DDD We got to go around and shoot things with the bar code reader gun thingy. Very fun. Like shopping only not spending any money. Or taking it home but still having a sense of satisfaction.
And Bridal stores are scary. Especially when you have a nitpicky gay man watching your every move. >.>;
Deep breaths right? ^^; No wonder people hire wedding planners - I imagine I'll want to kill someone before this is all over.
I have meetings with florists all month since the one we were going to use went out of business. And Mary has accepted being my third choice for Maid of Honor. I feel so badly! But Shayna...has proven that she will not be my friend and Jenice is being sent somewhere because of her company internship.
Need to collect addresses and find a reception area - the church will be too small despite what my mother says. The pastor told us that only 100 people were allowed legally and we're expected at least 120. I also have to tell my mother I'm wearing the dress I picked and if that makes her mad I'll have to find another seamstress to take care of it.
Spring Break this week - thank god. I need a break so that I don't completely freak out again on Seth. Need to find out about Health Insurance and if things are smoothed out with Social Secruity...
I'm seriously considering, once Seth is more stable and is making enough in a few months to quit work and go to school full time. Having the extra money is nice but I don't think its worth the stress and exhaustion - some days I'm too tired to do anything after work.
I have cut down my hours to three shifts a week, so we'll see if my bosses schedule me like that. If not I'll have to talk to them and I'm not good at that. >.<
Oooh, but setting up a gift registary was fun. >DDD We got to go around and shoot things with the bar code reader gun thingy. Very fun. Like shopping only not spending any money. Or taking it home but still having a sense of satisfaction.
And Bridal stores are scary. Especially when you have a nitpicky gay man watching your every move. >.>;
Superbowl.
I have NEVER gotten what the big deal with football is. Not that I think ppl who do make a deal of it are crazy or stupid or anything...I just don't understand.
That goes for any organized sport really - Tennis, Hockey, Football, Baseball, Soccer. When I was a kid I just wanted to go out and actually play those sports instead of watching them be played. Now...I just think there are more interesting things to do.
And yet, I have a husband. Who enjoys football. And who is dragging me to a superbowl party where his friends and their wives will be.
These are the same women who, when I apparently was rude to Seth, talked down to me in such a fashion that left me shaken and feeling like I was five years old facing down a group of angry mothers. I'm 21, I wasn't trying to be rude - I was just surprised - and I deserve more damn respect than that.
Which is why I'll probably be forcing myself to actually watch the game. Because then I will be with all the husbands whom...I get along with.
Some things really do never change. As a girl and then a teen, I never really got the other females around me. I was friends with several but tended to avoid them in favor of being with the boys. Once a tomboy, always a tomboy perhaps?
...At least there's free food. I love food. >D
I have NEVER gotten what the big deal with football is. Not that I think ppl who do make a deal of it are crazy or stupid or anything...I just don't understand.
That goes for any organized sport really - Tennis, Hockey, Football, Baseball, Soccer. When I was a kid I just wanted to go out and actually play those sports instead of watching them be played. Now...I just think there are more interesting things to do.
And yet, I have a husband. Who enjoys football. And who is dragging me to a superbowl party where his friends and their wives will be.
These are the same women who, when I apparently was rude to Seth, talked down to me in such a fashion that left me shaken and feeling like I was five years old facing down a group of angry mothers. I'm 21, I wasn't trying to be rude - I was just surprised - and I deserve more damn respect than that.
Which is why I'll probably be forcing myself to actually watch the game. Because then I will be with all the husbands whom...I get along with.
Some things really do never change. As a girl and then a teen, I never really got the other females around me. I was friends with several but tended to avoid them in favor of being with the boys. Once a tomboy, always a tomboy perhaps?
...At least there's free food. I love food. >D
Geeeeh.
got my dates mixed up. XD My presentation is due on Thursday. Not today.
All that frantic work for nothing, lol.
got my dates mixed up. XD My presentation is due on Thursday. Not today.
All that frantic work for nothing, lol.
I'm so pissed off right now.
At who? My mom. And my brother.
Okay, to get all this I have to explain the following:
My family lives in the middle of nowhere. My parents went through some really wierd religious fazes in the past which included things like no egg hunts on Easter, no tree at Christmas...
And no celebrating of Halloween. Now when I moved out three years ago, I took that into my own hands, got costumes together and took my eight siblings trick or treating. It was fun and we did it last year with the addtion of my husband Seth (that night he asked me to marry him btw).
So this is what happenes: I put together costumes, make up and hair dye. I gather the buckets for them to get the candy. The last two years, they would come down, I would dress them all up and then escort them around a few blocks. THey always have tons of fun and it's a little stressful for me but hey, I like making them happy.
Besides, I love an excuse to get dressed up and get free candy too.
Well, now I live with my husband in an apartment about a minute's car drive from my grandparents house where I lived before we married. Apparently it's too much trouble for them to drive to my apartment.
On Halloween, I will be working all day taking care of sick kids under the age of ten. Added to this, I am not feeling well myself. All of my costume stuff is at my apartment. So, it shouldn't be too much trouble for them to take the extra minute and come to the apartment so I can get the kids ready before we go to grandma's neighborhood to trick or treat right? (grandma's neighborhood is one of the best for trick or treating).
Apparently it is. I should come home from work and instead of catching a quick nap which I know I'll need, I should pack everything up and go to my grandma's house. I know, I know - it's only a minute away.
However, that means carrying my costume boxes and bags with the ten + costumes (because the kids are bringing friends which I just found out about), make up, hair dye, ect. Then get them ready and take them out and then pack everything up again.
To anyone who has not done this sort of thing - ten+ kids under the age of 12 is murder to get ready and settled for this sort of thing. Don't get me wrong, I love kids and I love doing things for my siblings. But come on, I can only do so much, even with Seth helping. So by the end of the night, I'm going to be pretty wiped.
My mom is acting like I'm asking a huge amount to have my brother, Zach, - not her, she stays home with my dad - to drive the extra minute to my apartment, let me get the kids ready and then take anothre minute to drive them to my grandma's house.
That way, the cosutme stuff they can keep just goes home with them and I have nothing extra to pack up - it'll all be at home and put away where it needs to be.
My brother is making a huge fuss cause he doens't want to come and see my apartment. because the idea of me being away from home and happy galls him for some reason - most likely cause he's at home and not happy. I don't blame him for being upset - our home is not the happiest place in the world and it was hard. He also hates the thought of me acting as anything but his perfect, pure sister and I guess being married gets rid of that thought - he hated the thought of me dating.
so he makes a huge fuss and gets my mom involved. Mom calls me and makes me feel guilty.
So now I'm pissed. Because this happens all the f*cking time. My mom tried to use the same "its too much trouble for the family" guilt trip to get me to cancel my wedding.
So that's why I'm mad. And now, I'm expecting a phone call any minute with my mom saying that the kids won't be able to come because Halloween really isn't a good holiday to celebrate, it's the devil's day, ect.
Just because I won't do what they want. and the kids, especially my sister Abigail - who worked almost as hard as I did to get this together - will be horribly dissapointed. For no f*cking reason except that my parents want to play a control game with me.
I hate this.
Times like this make me seriously hate my parents. That control of me is more important than letting my siblings have a few hours of fun. I hate it that my mom is so manipulative. I hate that my brother is bitter at eighteen and refuses to let anyone else be happy because he's not.
I hate that I feel more loved by my inlaws - who've I've known less than a year - than I do by my own parents. I hate that they expect me to constantly sacrifice - although that is partially my fault since I did sacrifice everything including my health for their sakes nearly my whole life.
Is this the way families are supposed to work?
At who? My mom. And my brother.
Okay, to get all this I have to explain the following:
My family lives in the middle of nowhere. My parents went through some really wierd religious fazes in the past which included things like no egg hunts on Easter, no tree at Christmas...
And no celebrating of Halloween. Now when I moved out three years ago, I took that into my own hands, got costumes together and took my eight siblings trick or treating. It was fun and we did it last year with the addtion of my husband Seth (that night he asked me to marry him btw).
So this is what happenes: I put together costumes, make up and hair dye. I gather the buckets for them to get the candy. The last two years, they would come down, I would dress them all up and then escort them around a few blocks. THey always have tons of fun and it's a little stressful for me but hey, I like making them happy.
Besides, I love an excuse to get dressed up and get free candy too.
Well, now I live with my husband in an apartment about a minute's car drive from my grandparents house where I lived before we married. Apparently it's too much trouble for them to drive to my apartment.
On Halloween, I will be working all day taking care of sick kids under the age of ten. Added to this, I am not feeling well myself. All of my costume stuff is at my apartment. So, it shouldn't be too much trouble for them to take the extra minute and come to the apartment so I can get the kids ready before we go to grandma's neighborhood to trick or treat right? (grandma's neighborhood is one of the best for trick or treating).
Apparently it is. I should come home from work and instead of catching a quick nap which I know I'll need, I should pack everything up and go to my grandma's house. I know, I know - it's only a minute away.
However, that means carrying my costume boxes and bags with the ten + costumes (because the kids are bringing friends which I just found out about), make up, hair dye, ect. Then get them ready and take them out and then pack everything up again.
To anyone who has not done this sort of thing - ten+ kids under the age of 12 is murder to get ready and settled for this sort of thing. Don't get me wrong, I love kids and I love doing things for my siblings. But come on, I can only do so much, even with Seth helping. So by the end of the night, I'm going to be pretty wiped.
My mom is acting like I'm asking a huge amount to have my brother, Zach, - not her, she stays home with my dad - to drive the extra minute to my apartment, let me get the kids ready and then take anothre minute to drive them to my grandma's house.
That way, the cosutme stuff they can keep just goes home with them and I have nothing extra to pack up - it'll all be at home and put away where it needs to be.
My brother is making a huge fuss cause he doens't want to come and see my apartment. because the idea of me being away from home and happy galls him for some reason - most likely cause he's at home and not happy. I don't blame him for being upset - our home is not the happiest place in the world and it was hard. He also hates the thought of me acting as anything but his perfect, pure sister and I guess being married gets rid of that thought - he hated the thought of me dating.
so he makes a huge fuss and gets my mom involved. Mom calls me and makes me feel guilty.
So now I'm pissed. Because this happens all the f*cking time. My mom tried to use the same "its too much trouble for the family" guilt trip to get me to cancel my wedding.
So that's why I'm mad. And now, I'm expecting a phone call any minute with my mom saying that the kids won't be able to come because Halloween really isn't a good holiday to celebrate, it's the devil's day, ect.
Just because I won't do what they want. and the kids, especially my sister Abigail - who worked almost as hard as I did to get this together - will be horribly dissapointed. For no f*cking reason except that my parents want to play a control game with me.
I hate this.
Times like this make me seriously hate my parents. That control of me is more important than letting my siblings have a few hours of fun. I hate it that my mom is so manipulative. I hate that my brother is bitter at eighteen and refuses to let anyone else be happy because he's not.
I hate that I feel more loved by my inlaws - who've I've known less than a year - than I do by my own parents. I hate that they expect me to constantly sacrifice - although that is partially my fault since I did sacrifice everything including my health for their sakes nearly my whole life.
Is this the way families are supposed to work?
Re: Naruto chapter 326
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHALDFKJLKJFLAKJSFL
WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHALDFKJLKJFLAKJSFL
WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!
Money sucks.
>< Or rather, never having enough of it. I'd really love to be able to buy groceries this week at least.
*facedesk* I'm just tired...at least we got the rent paid. I swear, we have the nicest landlady in the world. She's a saint.
But it's going to be over $600 at least to fix the car - which I need for work - and I have to see a doctor soon. I mean, I can put it off for a little longer...but I need blood work and such...
Like I said, money sucks.
>< Or rather, never having enough of it. I'd really love to be able to buy groceries this week at least.
*facedesk* I'm just tired...at least we got the rent paid. I swear, we have the nicest landlady in the world. She's a saint.
But it's going to be over $600 at least to fix the car - which I need for work - and I have to see a doctor soon. I mean, I can put it off for a little longer...but I need blood work and such...
Like I said, money sucks.
Pirates of the Carribean 2 IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!
I loved it. And I loved my pirate costume although Zach vastly out did me. He's lucky I love him. XD
So much paperwork lately; especially with finacial aid. But looking for an apaprtment is kinda fun.
Can't wait to get out of here.
I loved it. And I loved my pirate costume although Zach vastly out did me. He's lucky I love him. XD
So much paperwork lately; especially with finacial aid. But looking for an apaprtment is kinda fun.
Can't wait to get out of here.
Life sucks.
So nothing new! ahahahaaha
Funny, I just laugh at crap now. ^^ Oh well.
I'M GOING TO GO SEE POTC2! DRESSED AS A PIRATE! AT MIDNIGHT! YAR!!!!!
Now I just have to get a pirate costume.
And not stare at the place on my arm they did the TB test.
Fucking doctor...he was like....making me wait for so long in the room and then Iget called back. Then he took out the first needle, broke it. Then he didn't have enough whatchacallit test stuff. So he had to get more while I sat there.
So like, two needles and a new test bottle later, he finally poked my arm.
Why is this bad.
I. AM. TERRIFIED. OF. NEEDLES!!!!!!!!!!!!
...My Kakashi-muse needs sex. Seriously. He's depressing me now.
So nothing new! ahahahaaha
Funny, I just laugh at crap now. ^^ Oh well.
I'M GOING TO GO SEE POTC2! DRESSED AS A PIRATE! AT MIDNIGHT! YAR!!!!!
Now I just have to get a pirate costume.
And not stare at the place on my arm they did the TB test.
Fucking doctor...he was like....making me wait for so long in the room and then Iget called back. Then he took out the first needle, broke it. Then he didn't have enough whatchacallit test stuff. So he had to get more while I sat there.
So like, two needles and a new test bottle later, he finally poked my arm.
Why is this bad.
I. AM. TERRIFIED. OF. NEEDLES!!!!!!!!!!!!
...My Kakashi-muse needs sex. Seriously. He's depressing me now.
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