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ใๅฟใใใใจใใใฎใงใใใใใใใใใฏๅฟใใใจไฝๅบฆใงใ่ใฃใฆใใใใคใใฎใใฟใผใณใ ใจๆใใพใใใ
ใใใใงไธๆฆ้ ญใฎไธญ่บซใๅคใซๅบใ็บใ็งใฏใไฝใงใๆธใใฆใใใ็จใฎใใผใใใๅใๅบใใฆใใฉใใชๆ
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ๅฝผใซ๏ผๅๅผทใใฆใใไบใโ๏ผ๏ผใใซใซใใใใจๆใๆฐๆใกๆชใใชใฃใใ
ใใฎๆญฃไฝใฏใๅ ๅฝผใงใๆๆฅญใงใใชใใใใฃใจๆใซๅปใพใใโๆจชๅใใใใๆๆโใงใใใ
ใ็ถใฏใไบบใฎใจใใปใณในใๆจชๅใใใใใใชใจใใใใใใพใใใ
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ฅ็คพใ้ใฃใฆใใพใใใใใใใ็งใฏใใฎไผ็คพใซ่กใใใใใใพใใใงใใใ่ชๅใซใฏๅใใชใใจๆใฃใฆใใ้ใซๅ
ฅใฃใฆใใพใฃใฆใใใใใงใใใงใๆจ่ฆใๅใใฆใใใฎใงๆญใใใจใใงใใใใใใชใๆฉใฟใชใใใไผ็คพใซ้ใๆฅใ
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ใใใใช้ ็ถใ้ป่ฉฑๅฃใง่ชฐใใจใใใใฆใใๅฃฐใ่ใใใใฎใงใใ
็ถใฏใใ่จใใพใใใ
ใใใกใฎๅจใฏใใไผ็คพใซๅคใใฆใใใใ ๏ผใ
็ถใใใคใใใ่จใใ ใใจๆใฃใฆใใใฎใงใใใ่ใใใฆใใ็ฌ้็งใฏๆณฃใๅบใใฆใใพใใพใใใ
ใใผใใซๆธใๅบใใใจใงใ็กๆ่ญใฎๅฃฐใ่จ่ใซใชใใ็งใฏใใใใ็ฆใใฎๆญฃไฝใ็่งฃใใใใจใใงใใพใใใ
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ๅฝผใฏ็งใจไปใๅใๅใฎๅ
ๅฝผๅฅณใฎใจใใปใณในใๅคงไบใซใใฆใใไบบใงใใใใใใ็ถใฎ้ขๅฝฑใจใใใใพใใใ
ใใใผใใซๆธใใ ใใๅพใ้ ญใซ้้ใใงใใฆใใฎไบใไธๆฆๅคใซๅบใๆ่ฆใใใฃใฆใ็งใฏ่ฝใก็ใใพใใใ
ใใใใจ้ ญใๅๆใซใใๆใๅงใใพใใใ
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ๅฝผใ็งใฎ็ฅ่ญใๆจชๅใใใๆ่ฆใใใฃใฆใ็ฆใฃใฆใๆฉใใใชใใใฐ๏ผใใจๆใฃใฆใใใจใใฏใฃใใใใใใพใใใ
ใใๆฉใใๆฉใ้ใใชใใใฐใ
ใใใใๆใฃใฆ็ฆใฃใฆใใใฎใงใใใ
ใใใ่ชฐใ็งใฎๅคงไบใชใใฎใๅฅชใใซใใชใใ
ใใๆฐใฅใใ็ฌ้ใ็ฆใใฏใจใใฆใใใพใใใ
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ใใใๅ ๅฝผใฏ็งใฎๅคงไบใชใใฎใๅฅชใใซใฏใใชใใใ ใใใใใใใ่ชฐใ็งใฎๅคงไบใชใใฎใๅฅชใใซใใชใใใ ใ
ใใใๆใใพใใใ
ใ็ถใฏใจใใซไบกใใชใฃใฆใใพใใใใใใชใฎใซ็งใฏ็ฆใฃใฆใใใฃใจ้ใ็ถใใฆใใใฎใงใใใ
ใใฟใใใกใใใใคใใฎใฏใ้ ญใงใฏใชใ่บซไฝใๅ ใซๅฑ้บใๅฏ็ฅใใๆใซ่ตทใใ็พ่ฑกใ ใจ่ใใใใจใใใใพใใใใชใฎใงใ็งใฏ็นๅฅใซใใฟใใใกใฎใใใคใ๏ผ่ใฎใใใใๆฐๆใกๆชใใชใ๏ผใใ่ตทใใใจใใใฏๆณจ็ฎใใในใใใจใชใฎใ ใจใใๆ่ญใๆใฃใฆใใพใใใ
ใ้ๅปใฎๅผทใไฝ้จใฏใ่จ่ใใๅ ใซ่บซไฝใซๅบใพใใ ใฟใใใกใฎๆฐๆใกๆชใใ็ฆใใ่ฟฝใใใใใใฆใใใใใชๆ่ฆใ ใใใฏใๅฑ้บใใใใใชใใใจ่บซไฝใๅคๆญใใๆใฎๅ ธๅ็ใชๅๅฟใงใใ
ใ็งใฏใใๅ ๅฝผใฎ้กใฎใกใใคใใใจใ็ถใใใฎ้ๅปใฎๅผทใไฝ้จใใๅฟใฎไธญใง็ตใณใคใใฆใใใฎใไธๆ่ญฐใซๆใใพใใใใงใใ่ใใฆใฟใใจ็ขบใใซ็กๆ่ญใงไฝๅบฆใๆใใฆใใพใใใใใใฆใ็กๆ่ญใ็ดใซๆธใใฆ่ฆใใๅใใใใจใงๅบใฆใใไบๅฎใฏใ็ฉๅใ็ดๅพใงใใใใฎใ ใฃใใฎใงใใใ
ใ็งใฏใ็งใฎๅคงไบใชใใฎใ่ชฐใใๅฅชใใซใใใใจ็ฆใฃใฆใใใฎใงใใใใใใ่ชฐใๅฅชใใซใใชใใใจใฏใฃใใ่ช่ฆใใใใจใงใใใฃใจ่ฟฝใใใใใใฆใใๆ่ฆใใ้ใใใใฆๅฎๅฟใใใใจใใงใใพใใใ
ใใใใฆใไป่ฟใฉใใ ใๆฌๆฅใฎ่ชๅใใ้ ใใจใใใซๆฅใฆใใพใฃใฆใใใฎใใ็ฅใใๆญฃใๆฉไผใซๆตใพใใๆฌๅฝใซ่ฏใใฃใใจๆใใพใใใ
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๐ My pit of the stomach felt uneasy. The reason for the danger signal that suddenly occurred during class. | Series: Factorization of the Heart
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2026ๅนด5ๆ17ๆฅ 09:02
I suddenly felt an unease in the pit of my stomach during class.
While I was in class, my ex-boyfriend's words suddenly flashed through my mind, and my stomach felt uneasy. I started to feel sick and wondered what to do.
I tried to forget it, but no, I realized this was the usual pattern where if I try to forget, it just keeps coming back.
So, to get what was in my head out, I took out a 'notebook for writing down anything' and wrote down what the scene was and what the words were.
The words were something like this.
I felt sick because I thought my ex-boyfriend was mocking me (for studying?)
The true nature of this was not my ex-boyfriend or the class, but a 'fear of having things snatched away' that had been etched into me long ago.
My father had a tendency to snatch away the essence of people.
When I was young, I joined a certain company and commuted there. However, I didn't want to go to that company. It was because I had entered a path that I felt didn't suit me. But since I had received a recommendation, I couldn't refuse, and I spent my days commuting while struggling with it.
Around that time, I heard my father arguing with someone on the phone.
My father said this:
'My daughter works at such-and-such company!'
I had expected my father to say something like that someday, so the moment I heard it, I burst into tears.
By writing it down in my notebook, the voice of my unconscious became words, and I was finally able to understand the true nature of my anxiety.
My ex-boyfriend was someone who cherished the essence of his ex-girlfriend from before he dated me. That overlapped with the image of my father.
After writing it down in my notebook, I felt like there was a gap in my head and that the matter had been moved outside, so I calmed down.
Then, my head started thinking this on its own.
I clearly understood that I had a feeling that my ex-boyfriend was snatching away my knowledge, and I was anxious, thinking, 'I have to hurry!'
'Hurry. I have to hurry and escape.'
Yes, that was what I was thinking and feeling anxious about.
'No one is coming to take away what is important to me anymore.'
The moment I realized that, the anxiety melted away.
At that time, I thought,
'My ex-boyfriend isn't coming to take away what is important to me anymore. I see, no one is coming to take away what is important to me anymore.'
That is what I thought.
My father had long since passed away. Yet, I was anxious and had been running away the whole time.
I had heard that an uneasy feeling in the pit of the stomach is a phenomenon that occurs when the body detects danger before the mind does. Therefore, I was particularly conscious that when 'unease in the pit of the stomach (feeling sick around the stomach)' occurs, it is something I should pay attention to.
Strong experiences from the past manifest in the body before they manifest in words. The sickness in the pit of the stomach, the anxiety, the feeling of being chased. This is a typical reaction when the body judges that something 'might be dangerous'.
I found it strange that the 'flickering face of my ex-boyfriend' and the 'strong past experience from my father' were connected in my heart. But when I think about it, I was indeed afraid of it unconsciously many times. And the fact that emerged by writing my unconscious on paper and visualizing it was something I could be incredibly convinced by.
I was anxious that 'someone is coming to take away what is important to me.' By clearly realizing that 'no one is coming to take it away anymore,' I was finally able to escape the feeling of being chased and feel at ease.
And I felt it was truly good that I was able to learn how far I had come from my true self until now and was given the opportunity to correct it.
From here on, I decided to take enough time to determine what I clearly want to do and to pursue the profession I truly want to enter.
A profession that is not far removed from my true self like the one before.
That is why I will take my current studies at my own pace. I will do what is necessary in the necessary amount. It was an opportunity for me to think that way again.
โผRelated Articles
Both are articles I wrote when I couldn't do anything about my anxiety on my own.
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