9!!
eh life.

when i left for work yesterday i had a flat. -
i decided i would drive kyle's car. +
it was dead. -
someone came to jump it for me. +
i went to work. -
i made lots of $$ at work. +
i had to stay at work an EXTRA 2 hrs after working for 16. -
i went to start kyle's car and it was dead again. -
i had to buy a new battery. -
i don't know how to install batteries. -
someone at work decided to help me. +
i left work about 5 hours later than i wanted. -
i went home & showered & changed. +
i got to see kyle!! for the first time since sat. +
i went home & got to sleep. +
i ate easy mac & cheese and talked to kyle again. +
this week has been completely unproductive. -
now i think i will go to sleep again. +

seriously. shitty morning. okay day. 8 days left. i am tired. i just realized how lame and unproductive i have been for like... the last week. NO MOTIVATION. I NEED SOME DAMN MOTIVATION. I NEED TO NOT HAVE DIAL UP @ WORK!!

so ya. that's about all i have to say.

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bunch of crap. 11
i'm having a bad day. i can't talk to kyle until tomorrow morning and it sucks. we couldn't talk yesterday either. kyle's parents are (once again) driving me insane and have now found out that we've been married since november. his mom got all pissy w/ me and i was like WAIT! DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHY?! we totally hid it for the FAMILY for cyring out loud. once i told her that she was much better... sort of. now i have to sit down w/ his parents on wednesday and talk to them about everything that's going on. i'd like to do it with kyle PRESENT but i have not been afforded that luxury. i sware once this is over i'd love to never speak to them again.

i have to work 16 hours tomorrow night which sucks. then i get to see kyle wednesday, thursday & saturday... and then hopefully next week we don't have to deal w/ this BS anymore. i got a bunch of info today & i'm just torn. sometimes i'm so positive and sometimes i'm so negative about it. it's all in gods hands now. he'll decide exactly what's best for me, for him, and for us. i know he knows what i need. what we need. i think i'm going to go to church on wednesday night, too. i need it. i missed yesterday because i was waiting for kyle to call -- but i did watch online.

work sucked today. not so busy. well.. i'm getting super tired & i can't wait for tomorrow so i'm done.

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going out tonight?
well, becca called and invited me out earlier & i was all excited... decided how to do my hair, decided i needed to redo my makeup, picked out an outfit, painted my toe nails... then she calls back and tells me... i have to wear a white shirt. what?! a white shirt?! i have like 1 decent white shirt, and it's more of a fitted t-shirt than anything. i'm really not in the mood to go buy anything, either but i think i may be out of options at this point.

i just looked on forever21.com and nothing POPS OUT at me, so i'm thinking it's going to be my white t-shirt and some pinstripe bermuda shorts w/ heels... i hope that looks ok. wtf w/ requiring me to wear a white shirt?!

i went and saw kyle today and that was cool. i was supposed to get some work done but uh... i didn't :x. i'll work on it tomorrow though... i'm too tired right now. i really want a massage. i'm gonna go get ready. i need a few drinks, so this is a relief. i need to stop smoking soon if i want to have a baby...

xoxo

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oh yes, my cake, too. i loved my cake. it was so pretty and tasted good, too :)

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wedding 13
& we've got wedding photos! i'm not posting a TON just a few that i really like. kyle's dad still has a whole cd of pictures that i haven't even looked at :) including the cake cutting pictures... since our photographer didn't get any...

OH MY GOODNESS. i have messed w/ the sizing 100 times and still cant get it right so im sorry. some pictures are too big and some are too little. i cant fix it.

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now comment! haha

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wedding pictures etc. 14
here are wedding pictures! the wedding was almost 2 months ago. i suck :x

uh... there were pictures here but they were huge. totally the wrong size & i don't know what happened so i will try again later.

i am lazy so i don't feel like posting any other ones but maybe later. wedding was fun-ish.

today feels long but hopeful. i'm hopeful for the future. 14 days from today things should be normal again. i have a countdown all over my house. haha. on everything glass i could get my hands on!

i'm going to stay cooped up at home most of the weekend except for going to see kyle tomorrow and church on sunday. today at work was ridiculous. i was busy, but it's hard to work with stupid people. i was about to write something mean about this girl at work, but i decided not to. it's not nice to say mean things about people (even though this one is sooo funny) and i'm trying to improve myself by being a more positive and forgiving person and not looking down on anyone. i should have reminded myself of that earlier...

anyways, that's all i've got.

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eh i'm going through a particularly rough day so i figured i'd post.

i have a bunch of work to do but i wanted to just relax and vent before i start on it. i think i might post some wedding pictures later tonight depending on how i feel since i haven't posted any yet.

here is one for now to hold off your anticipation:



i have days where i just feel like this will never end and i hate those days. today is one of them. i keep telling myself 2 more weeks, but i'm not even sure if that's true. it better be 2 weeks from TOMORROW at the latest. 10 business days from tomorrow... whatever. i miss my honey.

work today was stupid and i didn't make big money like i wanted to. i spent most of the day doing stupid stuff online to try and pass my time. eh i have cramps and feel super bloated which sucks. i haven't had a period in so long i forgot how bad they suck. oh well though, hopefully just THIS ONE and then it's all about the babies. :)

i'm big sleepy head today.

this weekend i plan to:

completely finish the project my mom and i are working on
start on our web site
go see kyle
vacuum the entire house
put away all the laundry
clean all of the bathrooms
dust
organize a LITTLE
get rid of some furniture
do some advertising
catch up on sleep
drink 2 beers, by myself

i'm so fucking exciting it's sick.

kyle's parents are driving me insane. i never thought that i would be annoyed by my in laws, but kyle's parents and my parents are such complete opposites and i'm not used to it. my parents have always let me do what i wish and make my own mistakes. kyle's parents... are making me sit down and make a budget with them. are you serious?!?! i would really prefer not to. i will, for kyle's sake, but i don't like it. yes i can pay the bills by myself this month! shocker.

kyle & i get to save save save when he comes back home. save for the baby and save for our new house in MISSOURI!

do you want to see my favorite houses in missouri? ok, i will share.

in columbia, by my papa: http://tinyurl.com/l2b7x
also in columbia: http://tinyurl.com/fobrs

but i really prefer springfield right now to columbia. we have about a year to decide anyways i guess. phoenix is so dirty & so full of dirty people. moving will be heavenly.

anyways, gotta get SOME work done. xoxo.

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well, since i guess i am using this again i will update on my day... then to bed for me... after my sheets dry.

i worked forever and then came home and went to sleep and then saw kyle for a little bit and then went back to work. i got off at like 8. all i did was look @ baby stuff because i'm so obsessed that it's slightly disgusting. i hope we have a little boy. i mean, if it was a girl, i would love her, too.. but i'm praying for a boy.

i've got a bunch of names i like already. i'm avoiding anything that starts with a G or ends in an er sound...

for a boy i like:

logan
mason
caleb
ayden
caden (cay-den)
braden
bryant
jakob

woah... i like 5 letter names & names that end in n huh?

for a girl i like:

caydence
jayden
haven
kaylin

i like jayden lorene for a girl. jayden means god has heard, which i think is perfect... and lorene means small victories and is my little sisters middle name, which i also think is really cool.

but boy names are way easier to pick out. i associate girl names with girl people... and i'm not a big fan of the entire female gender as a whole right now.

i got considerably less sleep than i had anticipated last night so i guess i better go to bed soon, but i really don't feel like it. 11 is a better time for me. i'm so lazy i don't want to put clean sheets on my bed... but i refuse to sleep w/out pillowcases and on my mattress liner so i suppose i have to do it. this weekend i've got a bunch of work to do for my mom & then i'm going to clean since kyle will be home in the next couple of weeks. i miss him a bunch. it's hard to not be able to see him or call whenever i want. we both hate it & can't wait until he can come. less than 2 weeks! my poor baby. we'll beat this though, we always do...

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Rate My Life!
This was actually a fun quiz....

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	8.7
Mind:	8.6
Body:	7.5
Spirit:	8
Friends/Family:	7.4
Love:	10
Finance:	8
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

I rated SUPER high in love. The average is 4.2. This just reaffirms that the only solid thing in my life is my rock of a marriage. I love my husband!

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well.. today i asked for a sign and i got it! it really lifted my spirits... i just want to be able to live again. a few days of living would put me at ease. even a MOMENT to be me and be us right now would be so calming. i can't wait until this is over.

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i don't feel like writing anything, but wanted everyone to know i'm alive and well.

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