^ most people didn't see the last entry I wrote... but this is relevant towards it.

Earlier this week, I felt absolutely horrible for being so mean, so rude, just... being such a goddam elitist and feeling really guilty because I couldn't stand certain people.

Wednesday, or thereabouts, I was sitting in band, bored out of my mind because Concert Band has become more of a chore than a joy... but anyway, I was reading Pride and Prejudice in there, and I found great comfort in the words of Elizabeth Bennet to Jane:

"There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and every day confrims my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearace of either merit or sense."

I don't feel so bad, having read that... as if knowing that a fictional character was enough justification for not liking every goddam person I meet. Mr. Doering said it too, though. He told us that while he tended to like all his students, he only liked ten percent of the people he met.

I don't have to like veryone...

I don't have to be mean to... well... to that... girl I had to work with- oh to hell with it! It's my fucking journal I'll write what i please!! I don't have to be mean to Shan... even though she did manage to piss me off royally yesterday when she ended our Clerk presentation on a horrible note by just randomly spewing out words that were somehow supposed to connect Aristotle to the Magna Carta... she may have had a fair point, but it was really hard to pay attention to her. By the looks Linda and Miss Brown were giving her, I'm probably not the only one who thought along those lines. I think what really bothered me about her little impromptu speech was that it made no goddam sense, and she just could not, for the life of her, connect any of her ideas.

It feels horribly mean to say it... but I'm thinking it, and I might as well write it, or I'll never be able to forgive myself: no wonder she got a 2...

ANYWHO!

Man... how about them SATs?

Guh... I'm so utterly stupid. The Verbal section seemed a million times harder... I left so many analogies blank, instead of the ONE analogy I didn't answer last time...
I'm going to die.

Goddam... Viet took his test at Blair too... same room, even. So he obviously had a chance to talk to me and tell me we were going to meet today... and I told him I was going to have people over... which, isn't true. Not my fault! Mom told me Jackie was coming over TODAY, and now she tells me she's coming over tomorrow. Uncool, Mom. Uncool.

OOooh, Jazz Band's started. Very, very, very happy.

One last thing:

*shakes fist at Keppel's custodians/gardeners/whatever!*
CURSE YOU!! CURSE YOU FOR TAKING THE BAND TABLES!!!!


*sigh*

Nevermind, not done yet... It's just... shameful, I think, how horribly disjointed these entries of mine have become. I'm not really saying anything beyond what I'm thinking. Share Circle used to occupy this journal's place. I remember that during the whole week I'd think in terms of what I was going to say at PC. Now, well... since I got this journal, really, I've been thinking in terms of what I'm going to write, what I'll make private, what I'm going to rant about, really. My Tonks entries have more substance than this, honestly! (Then again, being engaged to a werewolf would add variety to anyone's life, wouldn't it?)
I have no idea what I wanted to say... something along the lines that I think so much beforehand, that by the time I get to actually writing in this thing, I can't really think of anything, either because I've already meditated over whatever's bothering me, or because I've already thought about it... I think.

Oh! I remember what I wanted to do now...

Question to all the Harry Potter fans reading my journal who have already read OotP:
Was Chapter 1 really that boring?

I didn't think it was boring at all... or is it just that these people have short attention spans? hmmph.

Ah non... I have an essay to write for french. goddam.

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k, i started this entry lightly, but it wont be too light. I finished Order of the Phoenix monday, but i didn't update at all because my family has been really hectic and disorganized trying to get my brother off safely to europe. anywho, back to the book. I cried again. a lot. and well...


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in other news... i'm tired. summer school is unbearably boring. both classes... both just plain lame. :(

i hope my brother brings me my little Anne Boelyn doll. she's my favorite King Henry VIII wife... not sure why. i just like her better than the others.

anywho, i went to barnes and noble yesterday (with a very weird dream about Jordan floating around my head) and got Hamlet, and the book with Oedipus and Antigone. I want to get started on my homework... but i want free time to do it. I really don't want to take notes or any of that other rubbish either. bloody waste of time and energy.

soon, there will be pictures on here, because i got my camera developed! the one with the 2 grad nite pictures and all the band banquet ones!! hurray!! i dunno how soon though, i'm very slow with these matters and i don't have one of them hosting site thingies, so that might complicate things...

heehee! Julio wrote back at last... very lengthy email, very entertaining. bwaha! he likes 'arry potter too! :)

i'm hungry...

mmmm... sponge...

I hate, hate HATE Dolores Umbridge! you people think Snape's bad? nuh-uh. he's Dumbledore compared to this awful toad!

grrr!

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thats the title of my favorite chapter, so far, in which... bwaha! no spoliers in this journal! at least not today. Ah, its wonderful so far. I love it for distracting me and driving all thought of my speech class out of my head. I hate that class to the death. Our teacher's all nutty and awful.

MY BEAUTIFUL REMUS IS BACK!!!

::squeals:: ooohhh, how i love him!! He's returned, and he's as gorgeous as ever. however, i think that filch-like character on the back cover is supposed to be him. Honestly!! He's worried, not ugly and old! ohh, and Sirius is battling it out for my affections. heehee. he's quite wonderful as well, and i've decided to name any future dog of mine Sirius. :-D

tiny itty bitty spoiler #1: Harry's middle name is James. ^_^

tiny itty bitty spoiler #2: Sirius is related to Malfoy through his cousin, Narcissa Black.

ohh, what the heck!! one more!!

tiny itty bitty spoiler #3: Aunt Petunia knows what a Dementor is!! ::gasp!::

that's all!

I have it!! I have it!! I hold it in my hands!! its gorgeous!! the letters are blue, its so dark, and harry's so loverly!! My parents said it was quite easy. no lines, no mobs, but there were still a few people there. jebus it smells wonderful. and i have my own copy!! no sharing with snot nosed jerks!! idiots that ruin my PRISONER OF AZKABAN!! jerk!

mine!! oh, it puts me in mind of Ravenclaw, how its all silver and blue and dark and lovely. :)

ooh, there's people on the back. one of them looks like Moody. maybe the others are Filch and Ron. can't tell, but there's someone behind them they're not aware of. creepy

off to read....

	

	

	

				
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by the by, in a few minutes, mine parents and i will be heading over to ralphs to get a copy of the brand spanking new Harry Potter!! woohooo!! finally! ok, i just saw an interview with JK Rowling, and she said someone was definetely dying. i think it's Hagrid. I mean, he's old, and huge. Magic or not, he has to have cholesterol problems. sorry. i didnt mean that. but i still have a feeling its him
:(