My Journey

No details will be given, the story will not be retold ` I just want the pain to end.
I am no longer a part of CJ Forsgren's life and the Kindred is dead.
I hope that no other friendships will be affected and that the two of us can learn from this and go on to become better and wiser individuals.

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Hauk during the creation of Christine's Monkey/Pony for Yule...
SOme backgound ~ watch this video haha!





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Shoulders back, deep breath and open ears...

I have an online friend from one of the Yahoo groups I subscribe to that I have always learned so much from - Aundrea.

Well, I had not realized that she lives quite close to my son!! So, I emailed her yesterday and we made plans to meet at Starbucks (Yep, Heathens AND Starbucks - OK is not looking too bad afterall)

I drove the 48 miles to Yukon and after geting turned around and lost in town (I miss my Magellan) I found the spot about 30 minutes late and she was still there...

We had a WONDERFUL visit! She is even more knowledgeable that she lets on in her posts!! I was so impressed with her views and wisdom that I hardly spoke and spent alot of time just absorbing all she had to tell me!

Well, I did tell my own tales, but hers were much more interesting! We had so much in common regarding our spiritual experiences and views that I felt right at home. I had been feeling quite isolated here in the house with the grandbabies... I was trying hard to be descrete (Yes, I can be tactful when necessary!) so that my sons church going friends would not be to shocked that his mom was not a monotheist christian. I was prepared to be honest about my beliefs but not blatant - which is difficult for me as I tend to stick out in a crowd.

I did quite well, and even attended a gathering at my sons church with his wife and the kids. It seemed odd to watch those folks and realize how misinformed they were and even happy about their ignorance of the facts of much of their own history. But - each of us has our own journey...

My visit with Aundrea confirmed so many things that are happening in my life right now! She was used by the Gods in a mighty way today and many of her words served to confirm things I have yet to do and the reasons for things as they have been... Urd, Verdandi....

So many Heathens could gain from seeing the similarities we all have rather than the differences. Our folk are so busy debating lore and practices that they forget we all have a job to do and a tribe to serve! It is our commonalities that bring us all close enough to fight!

GRRR, I just wanna tear down our walls sometimes! There are folkish and traditional folks who have things to learn from and universalists that have things to teach... we each have something to offer the other! It is almost as if some are too uncertain and lack confidence in their own path to hear what another has to say without picking it all apart!

Don't get me wrong, I have my own set of beliefs and although I am always open to change and learning more, I feel God-led to be where I am right now... Verdandi...

I believe in the right of all people to follow their own path and as long as it is done without hypocracy, they can worship their Big Toe and gain my respect (if nothing else than for their inventiveness)

I do not respect any system that believe themselves to be superior by virtue of their sex, race, creed, or nation. But I understand the ways of those who have pride in those very things that set them apart. It is that very right and ability to be an individual that makes us Americans, but it is the Kindred, the Clan, the Tribe that makes us Heathens!! We need one another in ways that go far beyond the surface of our affection for one another or the ability to blot and sumble together. I see our identity deeply imbedded in the ideas of the Kindred and Hearth.

Anyway.... That is all for another blog - someday...

Well, Hydro is interesting.. if only it would get over 20 degrees we could go outside more! We did haveone day that got up to almost 70 ~ then back to freezing ~ wierd... now I know what they mean when they say that if you dont like the weather, wait 15 minutes.

On our one warm day, I took my grandson Michael out for a short walk around the neighborhood, but I have a sore knee (more on that in a minute) so walking may not have been a good idea. We had fun, I kept him out of the road and he got to bark at the neighbors hound dogs.

There is a babygate infront of the kitchen doorway to (haha) keep the kids and dogs out of the kitchen. I think I have discovered that it is most effective to keep grandmas out! Yep, graceful grandma did the end-over-end with the kiddie gate. I landed on my knee that I had cut open a few weeks ago when I fell over the firepit in the desert. (is it just me or is there a pattern here>?)
So, I ordered a new kiddie gate that has a door that is easily opened for an adult and is EXTRA tall so it actually keeps out kids and dogs!! It might have saved the loaf of bread the dogs ate yesterday ~ and my knee! It should be in tomorrow ~ woot!

I am feeling a bit distanced from all of you out there in Cali... I still have not heard all the news from the mighty New Years party at the Hauks nest. And emails have been short and to the point from CJ. I sent out my sons number so I could get calls but have only heard from my buddy Michele ~ which was awesome! Darling hubby has called of course, and he is lonely as expected. I know he misses me but also misses having CJ over to drink a beer with and visit. He has really taken a shine to that young man!

Well, just an update and a plea for my kin to stay in contact... Miss you all!